Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was a guided meditation with interval timer for my piriformis stretches. The topic of today’s guided meditation was suppressing and ignoring emotions.
This is a topic that I have a good deal of experience in. Although I disagree with part of what was said (ie: that you cannot bury your emotions for long, just as one example), I do agree with the overall message that it is healthier to deal with your emotions than bury them. I also agree that, while you probably can’t bury your emotions forever. You can bury them for a hell of a long time. But I think that to do it for an entire lifetime might cause a great deal more harm than good.
The method of dealing with difficult and unpleasant emotions that is mentioned in this meditation, was to step aside and examine them as an observer, then return to deal with them. Although I think that this might be a good method for a lot of people, I think that “stepping aside” like that for me? Would be just too close to stepping away instead. Too tempting to distance myself and then say “fuck it” and push them aside.
As is hinted at in the word “nostalgia” above, this card usually deals with positive memories that bring someone pleasure or joy to bring up to the surface.
What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of today’s card is a combination of the warm purity provided by the shades of white and gold, combined with the two figures in the center. Today, when I look at this card, I see the woman handing a cup of flowers to the girl…. but I see them as the same person. The young child and the woman different ages of the same woman as she looks back on a beautiful golden memory of her past, and the child reaches forward into the beautiful dreams of a future moment.
Together, these two figures bathed in the golden glow of hopes and memories, remind us that dreams can come true, even those idealistic ones we have as children and forget about as an adult. And when you accomplish a dream you hold close to your heart? It’s time to pause and look back at where you started and feel a fissure of pleasure.
DECK USED: TAROT OF HAUNTED HOUSE
Reading Summary: Balancing your new emotional growth (Ace of Cups), with the work ahead (Eight of Pentacles) is something that you have all the tools in your arsenal in order to do (The Magician).
Take Away: Okay, so I’ve managed to accept that I don’t have to lock my emotional growth away to protect it during the holiday rush, but that hasn’t really meant that I’ve come to understand how I’m going to balance them. The magical cycle this new moon in Libra is kicking off for me is about finding that balance and learning that I’m more than capable of doing this.
The cards are essentially saying, “You’ve got this.”
DECK USED: DARK MANSION TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsOct2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self care this new moon?
Take Away: This is a carry over from today’s Lionharts reading I did earlier, where I was worrying over how I’m going to balance my emotional journey and the holiday rush over the next ten weeks. In that reading it told me that I have the tools and abilities at my disposal to balance these things.
Here in this reading, we then see what these tools are and what to do with them. The cards are indicating that the only thing holding me back are my own doubts, uncertainties, and thoughts of failure. If I want this to work, I need to let go of these things and allow myself to get swept up in the enthusiasm. Instead of wading into the surf one inch at a time… dive right in and adjust on the fly.
DECK USED: TAROT Z
#MysticStarChallenge October Challenge Prompt
Question: What lesson would my Spirit Guides like to bring to my attention at this time?
Reading Summary: The topic is about balancing work life and personal life/self care. The figure in the imagery of the Two of pentacles points an arrow through the disk at the top of the Star and the World, indicating that these two cards are my target. The other two cards are both “end of a journey cards” indicating a choice to move from an old way of doing things to something new.
The message here is that I need to remember that the shit I’m walking away from wasn’t that good (Eight of Swords atop The Star). I have an opportunity now to move on from that more harmful way of doing things to something better (The World atop the Ten of Swords).
Take Away: My spirit guides want to remind me of what my target is, and that I’m in the process of transitioning between the unhealthy way I was doing things and this new healthier balance. These cards are a reminder to help me stay on track and not fall back into my old way of doing things.
DECK USED: HALLOWEEN SPIRIT TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: Do I have a spirit animal? If so, what qualities does it possess?
I didn’t draw the additional cards concerning what qualities the spirit animal might possess, because the Nine of Swords came up when I asked if I have a spirit animal.
The message is clearly that now’s not the time to be worrying about this, and to be honest? I’m fine with that.
I have a lot on my plate at the moment and am just starting to occasionally feel the differences between my intuition and messages from my spirit guides. There’s no need to over-complicate things by delving into the whole animals/humans/spirits/ghosts/ancestors side of things right now.