Living in a city
it’s easy to forget
just how dark
the night can be
but step beyond
street lights and
into the darkness
between the trees
will be reminded
just how alone
the dark of night
Prompt: “Halloween is just a week away! This week, draw (at least) three cards from your deck and use them to describe for us a (real or fictional) trick-or-treating outing or adventure.“
Mama convinced me to tell her about my dream and when I did, she got up right away and began packing our clothes into bags.
Strength – I told her I didn’t wanna go, but she convinced me it would be okay. She told me stories about the places we might go next, and the new friends I would make, and in the end I decided maybe it would be okay.
I helped pack up our stuff that night, and we hopped in the car with our bags in the back and drove off into the night with that old song by the 4 Seasons “Bye Bye Baby” playing on the radio as we drove out of town.
Death (continued) – We settled in a new town and school started. She was right! I did meet new friends, and the school is really great with lots of activities my old school didn’t have.
Temperance – I was really excited for Halloween to come, because I hadn’t been allowed to trick or treat for years. So this year I was going to go out with some friends, and Mama said it was okay as long as I didn’t stray too far.
The Devil – When the night came, I dressed up as my favorite cartoon character and when my friends came we went out to knock on some doors. It wasn’t scary at all, and I was having a great time! My friends wanted to go over to the next block, and I figured it wouldn’t be any harm, so I agreed. And that then turned into the next block after that… and the next one after that.
The Devil (continued) atop Hanged Man – As it got later, friends started to break off and head home, and I eventually found myself walking alone, heading back the way I came. I felt okay until this guy came up behind me and grabbed my arm! The moment he touched me, I knew he was the bad man from my dreams, even before I turned around to look at him.
Breaking his hold, I started to run away when he called out three words that made me pause. “I’m your father!” he said.
The news stole the breath from my lungs and I turned to stare at him for what felt like forever. Then I raced home to Mama to tell her what happened. Time to move again.
DECK USED: HALLOWEEN EPHEMERA TAROT
Today’s meditation was skipped because the day started very early and was go-go-go all day long.
Today’s draw is the Five of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, and conflict in the area of ones ambitions, intellect, education, or communications. This often translates into themes that have to do with arguments and intellectual debate, competition (especially at work or involving one’s ambitions), and the mentality of winning no matter the cost.
We all have a competitive side. It’s a part of human nature. For some, it can be triggered by just about anything, and for others it takes someone encroaching on what they feel is their territory.
Today’s card is a reminder that it’s okay to be a bit aggro now and then. It’s okay to stand up for yourself. It’s okay to want to win. It’s okay (within reason) to allow our competitive, contrary, or outright stubborn side to take the lead now and then. Embrace this side of your nature. Suppressing it just clips your wings.
DECK USED: LE TAROT DE L’ÉTOILE CACHÉE AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK
PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 26th and 27th
Balance and The Lovers – You need to make sure that you are making choices that help keep yourself and your life in balance. Don’t just fall headlong into the rush and forget to breathe. Stop trying to push yourself when you’re not quite ready yet, and don’t have to be quite yet.
What wisdom does the crow have for me today?
Connection and King of Pentacles – Make sure you are staying in close connection with what is going on in your finances right now. Keep that shit under your thumb. Extra monitoring and a bit more tight-fisted control is needed.
DECK USED: WISDOM OF THE SHADOW ORACLE AND GOTHIC HORROR TAROT
There is potential that you are going to go through a period of stagnancy within the dark half of the year. You will need to use your intuition and inner compass to guide you through this time. Don’t discount what they have to say and the guidance they provide. Self sabotage cannot be allowed to be an option.
What are my challenges for the dark half of the year?
Secrets, Two of Wands atop Four of Coins
Lack of communication and willful omission have the potential to create a situation where you are left torn between previously made plans and hunkering down in place.
(I’m going to have to remember to draw more cards on this later on.)
DECK USED: ORACLE OF NIGHTMARES AND LE TAROT DE L’ÉTOILE CACHÉE
I went to the dentist. I really wanted to just cancel and stay home, but I didn’t.
The Dark Fairytale Opens: What marks the prologue of your dark fairytale?
Scythe and Birds – Cruel comments and arguments, confrontations, disagreements with others, and other such communication struggles. This is an echo of my childhood, and the majority of my experiences with my father as I was growing up. These experiences are a part of the reason I am so very careful with my words, further exacerbated by a few similar issues later on in life when I’ve “fumbled” during an inopportune time and created a clusterfuck mess due to miscommunication.
The Curse: What imprisons you & torments you?
Crossroads – Often, when we have a variety of choices and the freedom to choose our path, it can feel like the generous grace of good fortune on our side. Other times? That same freedom and plethora of choices available to us can feel overwhelming. Right now I am in the latter state of mind, and instead of making choices and moving forward, I’m left at the crossroads spinning my wheels in the muck.
The Ghost: What haunts you and tortures you?
Anchor – From the lack of emotional stability provided through my childhood to the lack of stability in life that came after I left that environment, I now find myself in a constant state of scarcity. This is not reality, but rather an ever-present need for more stability and security.
Bramblewood: What are the dangers that surround you?
Child – I’m not sure if this is a perceived danger or a real one, but what I see in the Child card in this question is my fear that by being irresponsible or by having fun, that I can lose all that I hold dear. The the idea of being helpless is terrifying to me.
The Mirror: What is your deepest fear?
Book – This bleeds into the previous question, for it is through lack of knowledge that we are at our most helpless. That’s why children are protected. They haven’t learned all that they need to know yet, and thus their independence is sacrificed for safety while they learn what is needed to keep them safe. Although this is not something I express often, my deepest fear is loss of knowledge. My deepest fear is being an idiot. Helpless to take care of myself or “steer my own boat” due to lack of intellect needed for that simple goal.
The Sword of Truth: What will set you free from your dark fairytale?
Rider – Pursue what I want out of life. It is through energy, zeal, and a constant forward movement that I keep on top of my memory loss and cognition issues caused by the accident that damaged so much of my body over fifteen years ago. Gideon helps me with this a lot, taking me down memory lane again and again, helping me to remember what I lose, helping me strategize new ways to remember what I need to, and building new pathways through the threads of memories to knit them back together when they begin to fray.
Awaken from slumber (Part 1). What grounds you in your reality?
Woman – Those in my life that nurture me. L, Z, Gideon, J… all of these people are a part of my life in a way that is not just companionship, but also supportive. They care about me, care -for- me, and help remind me what is important.
Awaken from slumber (Part 2). What makes you invincible?
Moon – My intuition and the guidance of my spirit guides through my intuition’s voice. These skills create an extra layer of knowledge and guidance, assist me in seeing what is needed when I would otherwise be blind and unaware. Also encompassed here is my creativity, which then blends into my adaptability.
DECK USED: TEA BATS LENORMAND
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Ten of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of satisfaction and stability in the area of one’s finances, resources, home, health, manifestations, and the physical world.
In the image if this card you see a depiction of something having gone horribly wrong. The toxic waste cans, the gas masks, the damaged home in the background and jaundiced sky above. And yet, the family is still all together, close and connected and cared for.
This card combines with the affirmation card for the day to remind us that even when life is a mess, there are still things to be grateful for. It’s important to look at your priorities and discern what is truly important to you. If you can find what this is, even if the rest of the world falls apart, when you nurture this thing you value and prioritize above all else, you can feel as if you have stable footing and a sense of stability.
DECK USED: TWISTED TAROT TALES AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK
Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 25th and 26th
The ability and good fortune to be able to choose your own path, to follow your moral compass and what is right for you, instead of being forced to conform or hide.
It was through my ancestors doing the same in their own ways, through fighting or hiding, through travel, sacrifice, or relocation… that I have the good fortune to be open about myself and my beliefs, and that I am able to not need to conform, but instead be myself. They followed their compass, their path, and what was right for them, which has allowed me to do the same.
The witch, the craft, the moon, the veil, what will this Samhain unveil?
Candle and Ace of Swords
Purpose and a healing of your ambition that will set you free of the stagnancy you’ve been experiencing.
I can’t decide if I’m struggling with the onset of depression, a general moody malaise caused by Gideon being away on vacation, or just having issues with the transition period between where my focus has been most of the year and where it will need to be for the next six or seven weeks.
DECK USED: SILVER WITCH ORACLE AND ALL HALLOWS TAROT
During this time of limbo and transition (it’s a bit of both) as the holiday rush approaches and prep for that rush is in focus (or at least should be), I find myself in a place of self sabotage as I drag my feet and want nothing more than to bury my head under a pillow and pretend the world at large as well as my responsibilities don’t exist.
This, of course, is damaging and unhealthy for me on a number of different levels, but even in knowing that? I’m struggling to make healthier choices for myself at this time.
What Action to Take – Four of Swords – Allow yourself the rest and recovery that you need. It’s not crunch time just yet.
This card indicates that it’s okay for me to rest right now instead of “lighting a fire under my ass” as I feel like I should be doing. It doesn’t help that I feel guilty for resting and not doing prep work… which is making rest difficult.
What to Wait On – Seven of Wands atop The Devil – Don’t fall into battle mode just yet. It’s okay to let those old habits lie and ease up on yourself for a bit longer.
Perhaps I need to return to re-read this reading a few times a day over the next few days or something.
What positive generational gift has been passed down to me from my ancestors?
King of Cups atop Six of Swords
The ability to know what you truly want and go after it, abandoning what isn’t healthy for you in the process.
I have displayed this behavior again and again throughout my life from the rejection of my father’s demands on my choices to emancipating from my parents at sixteen. It is displayed in how I run my life, the relationships in my life, and how I deal with employment.
DECK USED: TWISTED TAROT TALES
I had my smoothie, and my tea. Although… I missed my vitamins. And I discovered that at least one night this week, at some point, I missed my nighttime meds.