Finding The Groove

IMG_0302Today’s meditation was just over twenty minutes long (cuz I might’ve maybe napped in the middle for a few minutes.  I’m petty sure).   It was a self guided meditation based upon the quote posted to the right.  I didn’t make the graphic, but rather I ran across it on IG and used it as a prompt for my meditation.

Sometimes I forget to take that extra bit of time to savor the moment, and sometimes my meditation needs a bit of a focus.  This reminder of something that I often forget to do in my day to day life was the perfect prompt to give me something to focus on.   I don’t think dozing off was a “failure” in this meditation, but rather an indication of just how relaxed I was able to become during the process.

Cent Proverbes Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support CardsToday’s draw is the Page of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, intuition, and creativity. This receptive energy often translates into themes concerning emotional growth, learning creative pursuits, and allowing imagination and curiosity to take the lead.

What stands out to me in the imagery on this particular Page of Cups card today is that the man stands alone.  Content… and alone.

I’ve been having a hard time getting back into the swing of things as I begin to pick up on my work after taking the week off.  With many orders waiting to be created and prepared for shipment, I’ve been trying to space out the work so that I am not overwhelmed the closer shipment day comes.

Today’s Page of Cups and his solitary nature combined with the Thera-Pets card for today indicated that i would “find my groove” in my creative endeavors today, but it might take a bit and be a bit of a struggle.  That it -could- be done though, if I’m tenacious about it.

I found that the secret to tapping into my creativity today and getting the work done that I needed to do was about tactile sensations.  It was about the fun of playing with little charms and admiring their tiny details, feeling the delicate weight of each one between my fingertips, and really sinking into the tactile experience of the creative process.  I did find that creative connection, but I had to look for it… and not allow distractions to detract from my sinking into that groove once I’d found it.


The #httSelfImprovementTarotChallenge Prompt
: How can I feel more secure?

Dreaming Cat Tarot

Reading Summary: Take charge (King of Wands) at home (Four of Wands), and use reason and logic (Ace of Wands) to help in sorting out misunderstandings (Five of Wands).

Take Away:  In other words, sit everyone down and let’s talk it out. Conflict happens in close quarters.  Sometimes there’s just no way to avoid it, you know?  It happens between me and the girls, between the girls themselves, and between me and them individually at times.  It’s just a lot sometimes, and we all have strong personalities and strong opinions that usually align… but not always.

During those times when we disagree, it can really upset that sense of security that I foster in the home, and the advice here is that during those times I need to take charge of the situation and facilitate communication instead of just staying out of it and risking whatever the disagreement is having a destabilizing influence.


#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Cent Proverbes TarotReading Summary: If you depend on the good opinion of others for your self-esteem (Sun moving into the Six of Wands), you will continually be disappointed (Three of Swords atop The Sun) and end up even more miserable and stressed (Nine of Swords) out as a result (Justice Rx atop Nine of Swords).

Take Away:  For self care moving forward from the new moon, I needed a reminder to look to myself for my self esteme and self-worth… not to others.  This can be a slippery slope for most people, and I’m no exception.  Sometimes it feels really good to get praise from others, or to be looked upon favorably by others.  It just does.

The key, though, is to not let those good experiences transform into approval seeking behavior.  When that happens, you start to then lose control of your own self esteem and self worth.  You begin depending on others to provide that for you.  And that’s not healthy.


Daily Self Kindness

I made chocolate chip cookies.  But… not the long and entailed recipe of chocolate chip cookies.  I mean that’s the BEST kind, true.  But rather, I made them from frozen dough because I just wanted cookies without the work.

Morning Bonus Read – Life Tests

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
Standardized testing season starts this week in our local schools. This week, do a reading about the tests in your life.

Adorable White Rabbits Playing CardsWhat tests are you facing right now?
Six of Spades

Finding  a healthy harmony between my ambition and my need for self care. My efforts to move on from the slave driver mentality of how I’ve treated myself in the past includes many opportunities to backslide into bad habits.  Keep moving forward.

What steps in your past have prepared you for these tests?
Nine of Hearts

I have been learning over the past few years how to be more grateful… more conscious, aware, and mindfully grateful of those things and people that make my life pleasurable and happy.

What steps can you take in the present to help you navigate your present tests?
King of Spades

Own my shit.  Be self aware and pragmatic instead of caving to the unreasonable inner pressures of my history and my habits. Own my ambitions, but come at them from a grounded and responsible way.

What tests await you in the near future?
Jack of Hearts

A continuation of my emotional growth is what lies in my near future.  This is not surprising, but rather planned for.  I want to continue the growth of my emotional intelligence, and learning about my emotions and how best identify and handle them in a healthy way.   I know this is a long journey, perhaps a lifelong one, but I am anticipating (and hopeful for) another “growth spurt like the one I worked through last spring/summer.

What steps can you take in the present to help prepare yourself for these future tests?
Queen of Spades

Deal with your “mommy issues”. [This was recently brought up in a previous reading and is an echo of that previous reading’s advice.]


Take Your Time

Today’s meditation was skipped in preference for a nap instead.  We played really late last night, and I needed the extra sleep.

TPagan Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal Cardsoday’s draw is the Devil card, which is traditionally a representation of self inflicted situations brought about through themes dealing with temptations, addictions, and obsession.  For some this can speak directly to self destructive tendencies, while for others it is more about unhealthy urges that are not so much about self destruction as they are about pleasure or enjoyment… but can lead to detrimental outcomes if indulged in too often.

The thing is?  Almost anything and everything can be bad for you if you don’t apply a bit of moderation and control.  Anything.  And that is the message that the Devil card offers us more often than not.

In this particular card, the theme is more about peer pressure and doing things against your better judgement in the pursuit of approval. This theme in particular, combined with today’s Thera-Pet card is an indication that sometimes rest and recuperation is needed and you shouldn’t let the judgement from others keep you from taking that rest and recovery time that you need.

Healing takes time, and everyone heals at their own rate.  What one person might bounce back from in a few days may take someone else months to recover from.  This is true whether it’s about a physical injury, a mental health issue, a blow to one’s confidence, and many other scenarios where recovery time is needed.

Don’t allow your own unreasonable expectations nor those of others to push you into rushing your recovery.  Heal at your own pace, the pace that is healthy for you.  If they can’t understand that?  That’s their problem… not yours.


The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
: Taurus Season is Coming – In which areas am I being stubborn or bullish?

Quirky Creatives Tarot

Reading Summary:  Standing tall and ignoring the bad stuff (Strength) doesn’t mean the bad stuff goes away (Nine of Swords), it just spills over in other ways (Temperance Rx).

Take Away: These cards are essentially saying “Hey jackass, it’s not going to be the end of the world if you show a little bit more vulnerability to those around you.”  I have a habit of ignoring that which does not serve my means and ends.  Which means a lot of times when things are bothering me, I will turn away and ignore it, try to bury it, and just move on.

The problem?  My mind does not allow it to be that easy and as a result, these things can sometimes fester under the surface and end up causing anxiety and other stress related issues.  These issues then spill over to begin disrupting the inter-connectivity and balance going on in the rest of my life.


#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
: What does it mean to live a good life?

Pagan TarotReading Summary: There is a time in life for seriousness and responsibility (Ten of Wands). There is a time in life for frivolity and having fun and being irresponsible (The Fool).

It is being able to differentiate between the two and applying each in its proper place that helps build good life (Two of Swords).

Take Away: You need both. Living a good life involves having both serious and responsible aspects, and balancing them with fun and frivolity. Too much of one or the other leads to an imbalance. So too can indulging in the wrong one at the wrong time.


Daily Self Kindness

I started working again today.  I didn’t really want to, but it’s for the best that I at least worked on getting a few things done so that life won’t be quite as stressful in the next few days as I prepare to get orders done and shipped out.