An Iconic Love

Today’s meditation hasn’t happened yet, as I decided to hurry my ass up and get outside and get some fresh air in the woods rather than spending the time in meditation.   So… I will do the meditation before bed tonight.   Thank you so much for deciding to come with me on my walk in the woods today, man.    I love you.

Forager's Daughter Tarot - Two of CupsToday’s draw is the Two of Cups, which is traditionally traditionally interpreted as indication of connections, partnerships, and attractions focused in the areas of emotions and relationships. The key factor in these attractions, partnerships, and connections is the mutual aspect within them.

What stood out to me the strongest today in this card when I saw it this morning was the pouring of water from the two cups above the ducks.   I didn’t understand why I was so drawn to the flow of water from these cups at the time, but I do now.  It is, essentially, the “rain on my parade”.   The water flowing from those cups splashing down upon the ducks below was an indication that things were not going to go as I had planned.

I missed the message in the moment, and only see it now in retrospect.

That aside…  The positive message in this card is not the splashing of water from the cups but rather the mallards themselves.  They are a representation of you and I… and our relationship.   Long standing… and universally understood. No matter where we are, no matter where mallards are, the connection between male and female are seen and understood as a connection between one soul and another.  A connection of love.


#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
: How can I move forward with more loving kindness toward myself?

Mystical Manga Tarot

Reading Summary: Set down my coins (Two of Pentacles) and take some time to celebrate (Four of Wands) the good stuff (The Lovers).

Take Away: This is a reminder from the cards that I need to keep myself from diving so deeply into work and responsibility that I forget about the good stuff.  I have fallen into bad habits over the past two weeks that are exactly along this line, and I need to return to focusing upon stretching out my obligations and responsibilities and creating space… rather than allowing old habits and ways of doing things to slip in and steal away my “good stuff”.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
: Do Spread #4

Cosmos Tarot and OracleWhat has allowed stress to take root in my life?:  The Dorado card indicates that by focusing too much upon my responsibilities and obligations I have allowed stress to take root. I am putting too much focus and value on work and responsibility.

What is the core stressor in my life I can change?:  Instead of just “intending” to create balance between my responsibilities and my need for more space in my life, I need to actually step forward and do it.  They Cygnus card indicates that intentions are only as good as the strategy you develop to bring those intentions to life… and sometimes you have to battle yourself to get there.

What can I do to ease my current stress and anxiety?:  The Comet card indicates that my stress and anxiety is the “harbinger of change”.  If I want to ease my current stress and anxiety, I need to do more than plan and strategize. It’s time to actually make changes instead of just thinking about them.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How do I choose relationships that bring out the best in me?

Mystic Faerie Tarot

Reading Summary: Choose those that understand my goals (Ten of Pentacles), that have Gideon’s mark of approval (King of Cups), and accept that I will always bounce back eventually (Knave of Swords).

Take Away:  It’s easier to find healthy and positive relationships when you look for those that, even if they don’t hold the same goals as you, understand where your core values and goals lie and accept them as a part of you.

The second card is Gideon…. and it speaks of your love for me and your need to protect me from those that do not have my best interests at heart.  You gives me the freedom to choose my friends as I wish (as I wouldn’t have it any other way), but as the King of Cups, you often have observations and insights into people that I don’t see or understand at first.   Your input is often crucial in me finding those friends that are healthy and long lasting.  

The third card is about my ability to “bounce back” from hardships and struggles. It’s about finding those that support me in that rather than those that encourage me to wallow or remain in a negative headspace after struggle or misfortune has brought me to my knees.


Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Mystical Manga Tarot, Fae of the Forest Oracle, Jeremy Miranda Oracle

EarthThe Moon, Knight of Cups, Nine of Clubs (Lady of the Tree) – There is going to be a sense of uncertainty this week in the area of the home and finances.  This uncertainty could easily spill over into an emotional outburst or impulsive action based off of an emotional reaction if you don’t take time to ground and find your center in the cacophony of emotions that uncertainty can breed.

AirNine of Wands and Queen of Clubs (Green Woman) – Instead of allowing your emotions to get the upper hand as mentioned above, lean into your skill set.  Lean into those things that bring you passion and joy and use them to help you find some balance.

Water – Nine of Swords and King of Diamonds (The Apple Tree Man) – The Nine of Swords refers back to that emotional turmoil seen in the Earth position of this spread.  It’s going to be a struggle to keep yourself on even keel and again we see the encouragement to find that grounding and centering.  Lean into your connection with nature and seek good council from someone you trust to speak of financial matters with.  This could be your accountant, considering this is the week that you drop off your taxes with him.

FireThe Lovers and Seven of Diamonds (Dryad Maiden) – Take a leap this week.  With so much going on between your emotions and your sense of stability in the home and finances department, you will need a bit of a distraction. The best place to put your focus in finding that distraction is in those things that inspire you.

WaningStability – In this image there is solid ground and steady well organized rows of books.  All of the chaos is outside and you stand in a place of stability and surety.  In this position, this is what you are moving away from this week.  Understandably, this is not exactly going to be comfortable for you.

WaxingIndigestion – Calm on the outside, a burning block of coal in your gut.  This is not so much about indigestion about the sizzle of anxiety that thrums just beneath the surface and can make it hard to breathe… but not so hard that it can’t be covered over by a placid expression and projecting a sense of calm.

Take Away –  The key here isn’t in projecting that calm, but absorbing it.  It’s going to be a stressful week and you’re going to need to stay grounded and centered to make it through.   Repeatedly ground and center… and seek council when you need it.  When things feel like they’re getting to be too much?  It’s time to step aside and delve into something that sparks your interest and passion in order to get a bit of escape from the strain.




Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was my third time using the chimes and harp plucking for meditation rather than a guided meditation with a closing message about this or that.   I am still having some very positive effects from this form of meditation, and I plan on continuing with it until I either become bored with it and want to try something different, or if it begins to be less effective for me and I need to move back to another style.

Maruco Animal Tarot - Eight of SwordsToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, having a victim mentality, negative self talk, and restrictions imposed upon oneself.  This card is not about another’s influences upon you, but rather about your own influences upon yourself.  It is about turning a blind eye… or closing your eyes entirely.

There is nothing specific in the imagery that stands out to me today, which indicates that this card’s message is one with the card’s traditional interpretations.

The message here is very clear, and needs little interpretation.  The words were there in my mind the moment the card was turned over, and the pop of red in the card’s imagery only makes the message that much stronger.

What is that message?  “You can’t ignore it anymore. You’ve already made the appointment… Get your ass together and finish your goddamn taxes.”


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
: Write something free form inspired by the cards.

Star Spinner TarotThe young woman sat upon the park bench, hours passing as she sits lost in thought about her soldier that has been gone for so long and traveled so very far away.  Her mind is filled with plans as she waits for him to return… anticipation humming along the sharp edge of the blade tucked safely out of sight within her jacket pocket.


Working For It Makes It Worth More

Today’s meditation was another ten minute session like I had described yesterday.  This session was also relaxing, and I found myself “seeing” the notes of the harp in a sort of spacial energy type of way as drops of water landing on the surface of a lake to create ripples.  The actual physical sensation of the harp’s notes are more of a numb tingling on the backs of my forearms, which in a slow pace like is played for this meditation, is not aggravating or distracting, nor so overwhelming it starts to feel as if it’s creeping up onto my biceps.

Forager's Daughter Tarot - Nine of WandsToday’s draw is the Nine of Wands, which traditionally is often interpreted as

I’m not really sure how I feel about the imagery in this card for the Nine of Wands, to be honest.  Because I often associate the Nine of Wands as a card as a blend of exhaustion and vigilance, this imagery doesn’t really “fit” with my “comfort zone” for the card.

What I see here?  Is more along the lines of the 9 of Clubs when reading off playing cards.  That is to say that the imagery here is about striving for something that holds your focus and your passion.  So close… so very close… almost there.  And that thing is all you can focus on to near obsession as you reach for it… strive for it.

That message is congruent with what really stands out to me in the imagery of the card today as well, which is the little gray mouse and the glowing blackberries at the very top that the mouse strives for.  The mouse is so close and he just needs one last bit of oomph to make it.

The message in today’s card is about determination and strength. It’s about that old adage that says that “the things worth having are worth working for”.  That includes having a safe home and a place to go back to work… thus why I put myself in danger today to make sure both were safe and secure.

I’m sorry I worried you, man.  I love you.


#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
: How can I honor or uphold my heart’s message?

Light Visions Tarot

My Heart’s Message: Take time to enjoy imperfections (Four of Chalices), and remember that not everything needs to be “just so” (Alkamest).

To Honor This Message: Remember that sometimes shit just doesn’t balance out right away (Wheel of Fortune), and you have to be patient and let it develop over time (Death). Trust that the laws of cause and effect will balance things out (Justice).

Take Away:  The thing is that sometimes? I just get too wrapped up in making everything perfect.   In truth?  There is no actual “perfect” to be had, but I somehow forget that in my efforts to always do better and better.   And because I spend so much of my focus and time on being and doing better?  There are times I forget it’s okay not to be like that.  It’s okay to be happy with the here and now and to let the future take care of itself.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
: What is the biggest lesson that I have learned this month?

Fairy Tarot by Doreen VirtueReading Summary: How to be more grounded and centered (Queen of Autumn) in times of uncertainty (The Moon), and how to continue to move forward in making choices (Two of Winter) regardless of the uncertainty surrounding me at the time.

Take Away:  This is (obviously, from my past) a quality that I already possess, and yet with each repeat of that lesson it shows me a different way, a different aspect, and a new perspective as if each time another puzzle piece gets tucked into the big picture, and I can see just a bit more as my skills advance.  This is why lessons are sometimes repeated.  Not because you didn’t learn the first time… but because there’s even more to see and learn. 


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I better protect my personal space?

Tarot of the 78 Doors

Reading Summary: Don’t allow yourself to get distracted or confused (Eight of Wands). Instead, move towards being centered for a better sense of stability (The Wheel), and focus on your passions with a balanced blend of authority and enthusiasm (King of Wands).

Take Away: When I’m centered and grounded, my attention is better focused on what’s important, on what is needed, and where the cracks and chinks in my armor lie as well as how to either fix or protect them better.   The cards here are speaking of that need to stay grounded and centered in my efforts to better protect my personal space, and to do so by filling that space up with my personal energy in order to make it very clearly mine for any that may come near.


Pause and Consider

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and I am trying a new method for a few days to try and mix things up again.   With this new method, I have found a couple of tracks where someone is just randomly plucking strings on a harp.  I have set it up as background noise and set a quiet tone to chime every two minutes for the stretch of my ten minute meditation.

I’m using the plucking of those strings as a focus, and the two minute intervals for the hold on my piriformis stretching.   Today was the first experiment with this, and it was really nice.   Very relaxing and oddly? Not as difficult as usual to stay centered.

Maruco Animal Tarot - Seven of CupsToday’s draw is the Seven of Cups, which traditionally is often interpreted as representing a time when one is confronted with an abundance of options to choose from, or overwhelmed by them. In my readings, this card also often includes a message about making sure you look over your options thoroughly and choose wisely.

What most strongly stands out to me in the imagery of this card today is the dragon, and secondarily, the plant wreath growing out of the cup beside it.   I think that it’s important to note (and the contrast between the dragon and the plant are a prime example of this) that each of these cups is full.  In some cups there is good stuff, in other cups there is bad stuff.  In some of the cups, what looks good could actually end up being bad.

This really all boils down to making good choices, though. And the message that I get from today’s card is that I need to take time to really weigh my options rather than making rash decisions.  Make sure to look beyond the surface level and really dig deep to make sure I’m getting what I want… and not just what I think I want.

With so many decisions being made in my life right now and so many choices before me to work through and sort out, I think that this is actual advice.  And in a very literal way? This card is reminding me that I have tax crap to get done, and I need to get on that before the procrastination is too far out of hand to recover from.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
: What is a better way to confront and/or deal with my fear of loss?

Spiritsong TarotReading Summary: Keep calm and foster the kindness within you (Temperance) while allowing your intuition and imagination free reign (Page of Shells) to carry you through (The Chariot).

Side Note:  I love a rhino as the Chariot.  I think it’s a spectacular choice for that card.

Take Away:  The cards indicate not to let fear have free reign, as that is a sure way to instigating the thing I fear the most into happening.  Instead, make sure that I am giving my imagination and my intuition all the room it needs to grow and thrive.  In doing so, the times when I risk losing both are lessened because they will have grown strong and more easily be able to stay in control.


: How can I connect with my supporters on a deeper level?

Cosmos Tarot and Oracle

Reading Summary: Communication and interaction (Jupiter). Pay attention to ascertain how they are doing and what they need (Lynx). And by using the tools available to me to better their situation and allay their fears/help in their struggles (Aries).

Take Away:  There is some sort of really huge appeal to me in the combination of imagery between these two cards. The color correspondences between the three are breathtaking to me and really make their differences pop as well.

The cards indicate that the best way to connect with my supporters on a deeper level is to support them in turn, and make sure I am staying in contact and paying attention so that I know when I am needed and can be there for them at that time.


Two For The Price of One

Today’s meditation has not taken place yet.  I’ve been feeling a  bit out of sorts today, and while I know that meditation might be able to help this, at the same time I’ve been feeling very contrary and resistant… so, it hasn’t happened.  I will make sure to meditate before bed though, and try to put a little more effort into making sure it gets done in the mornings, as I know I benefit a great deal more from morning meditation than I seem to by doing them in the evening.

Forager's Daughter Tarot - The FoolToday’s draw is the Fool card of the Major Arcana, which is traditionally read as a card representing innocence, new beginnings, naivete, and boundless enthusiasm. There is a novice and untried air to the Fool, as he has yet to have tripped over a single pebble or stubbed his toe on a single root yet on his journey.   There is also a hint of anticipation, as adventures await the Fool, and he’s eager to begin.

I have to admit that as the Fool, I struggle with this card a bit.  Not me as the Fool, but this imagery as a representation of the Fool.  Because the taproot in this imagery looks like it is going through the egg (as opposed to behind it) this card feels far more to me like the World card than it does the Fool card.   Granted, the World and the Fool are connected by the Major Arcana’s cycle… so it is still fitting.  It just… fits more to me as the World.

That aside.    What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery on this card today is the Monarch butterfly working at wiggling its way free of the cocoon.  That imagery does indeed speak to me of the Fool and the World.  It speaks to me of the Fool because the butterfly is breaking free into a brand new form never experienced before.  It is eager for freedom and fights to get free of the cocoon in order to spread its wings.  At the same time, the other cocoons not yet open speak to me of the World.  For there is an ending and a beginning within those dangling pods, a transformation in the making.

There is a transformation happening in my life at the moment as well.   As I plan at returning to more regular work, and begin sorting through responsibilities and obligations, I am transforming how I used to do things into a new plan and a new norm.  The Fool has been a secondary stalker card for me over the past few weeks, trailing along behind the Ace of Cups, it appears again and again, just not quite as frequently.

The Fool’s message is twofold.  New beginnings and fresh starts take a change of mindset… and, that the change of mindset needed is one of wide eyed curiosity and eager optimism.


#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
: How can I honor or uphold my body’s message?

Animal Wisdom Tarot

Reading Summary: Find a way (Fox), even if it feels like stealing time from something else (Magpie). You need the perspective provided (Bat) to help join emotion and intuition (Dolphins) for that growth that involves both (Nautilus).

There is, through color and mood of the skies in both cards, a connection between the Bat and the Fox that speaks of using my ability at being able to see multiple new perspectives to help me in finding a path to what my body needs.

There is also a connection between the Dolphin card and the Nautilus that involves a great deal of color combination as well as the spiral beneath the water in the Dolphin cards and its corresponding spiral of the Nautilus shell.   These correspondences reinforce a message in yesterday’s read about the interconnection between the emotions and intuition on this journey of growth that I’m on.

Take Away:  I can honor my body’s message (which is that I need to take better care of my body so that I will feel better overall) by shuffling my crap around to find the time to get in a bit of exercise, keeping in mind that if I do not there’s a good possibility I’ll end up stunting the growth I’ve been trying to foster in myself lately.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
: What loss do I fear the most?

Stella's TarotReading Summary: The death of hope (The Star) and happiness (The Sun) closing me off to the world and sinking me into my own inner hell (Nine of Swords) as it obliterates my ability to see multiple perspectives (The Hanged Man Rx).

Take Away:  So the true fear of loss here has to do with losing my ability to view things in an unbiased manner and see multiple perspectives. The death of hope and happiness is the path to that outcome.

The thing is, that it really terrifies me to actually think I could lose that.  That perspective.  That ability to step back and really see things from “both sides” or multiple views.  It worries me that without that ability, I would become closed minded and hard… which is something I would never want.


: Given the current restrictions, how can I give and receive support to those important people in my life?

TaRat Rat Tarot

Reading Summary: You have to take action (Three of Wands) to celebrate what you have (Four of Wands) even in the worst of times (Ten of Swords). homecoming = reaching out

Take Away:  The Four of Wands is not just a “celebration” card, but also holds roots in the concept of “homecoming”.  Which is to say that in this case that ‘celebration’ seen in the cards has more to do with enjoying what I have…. enjoying my loved ones and taking action to enjoy them in the ways I am able… even when things are more difficult or feel impossible.  This is where phone calls and other forms of communication come in, as they allow that celebration of our connection, even from afar.