Today’s meditation has not taken place yet. I’ve been feeling a bit out of sorts today, and while I know that meditation might be able to help this, at the same time I’ve been feeling very contrary and resistant… so, it hasn’t happened. I will make sure to meditate before bed though, and try to put a little more effort into making sure it gets done in the mornings, as I know I benefit a great deal more from morning meditation than I seem to by doing them in the evening.
Today’s draw is the Fool card of the Major Arcana, which is traditionally read as a card representing innocence, new beginnings, naivete, and boundless enthusiasm. There is a novice and untried air to the Fool, as he has yet to have tripped over a single pebble or stubbed his toe on a single root yet on his journey. There is also a hint of anticipation, as adventures await the Fool, and he’s eager to begin.
I have to admit that as the Fool, I struggle with this card a bit. Not me as the Fool, but this imagery as a representation of the Fool. Because the taproot in this imagery looks like it is going through the egg (as opposed to behind it) this card feels far more to me like the World card than it does the Fool card. Granted, the World and the Fool are connected by the Major Arcana’s cycle… so it is still fitting. It just… fits more to me as the World.
That aside. What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery on this card today is the Monarch butterfly working at wiggling its way free of the cocoon. That imagery does indeed speak to me of the Fool and the World. It speaks to me of the Fool because the butterfly is breaking free into a brand new form never experienced before. It is eager for freedom and fights to get free of the cocoon in order to spread its wings. At the same time, the other cocoons not yet open speak to me of the World. For there is an ending and a beginning within those dangling pods, a transformation in the making.
There is a transformation happening in my life at the moment as well. As I plan at returning to more regular work, and begin sorting through responsibilities and obligations, I am transforming how I used to do things into a new plan and a new norm. The Fool has been a secondary stalker card for me over the past few weeks, trailing along behind the Ace of Cups, it appears again and again, just not quite as frequently.
The Fool’s message is twofold. New beginnings and fresh starts take a change of mindset… and, that the change of mindset needed is one of wide eyed curiosity and eager optimism.
DECK USED: FORAGER’S DAUGHTER TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I honor or uphold my body’s message?
Reading Summary: Find a way (Fox), even if it feels like stealing time from something else (Magpie). You need the perspective provided (Bat) to help join emotion and intuition (Dolphins) for that growth that involves both (Nautilus).
There is, through color and mood of the skies in both cards, a connection between the Bat and the Fox that speaks of using my ability at being able to see multiple new perspectives to help me in finding a path to what my body needs.
There is also a connection between the Dolphin card and the Nautilus that involves a great deal of color combination as well as the spiral beneath the water in the Dolphin cards and its corresponding spiral of the Nautilus shell. These correspondences reinforce a message in yesterday’s read about the interconnection between the emotions and intuition on this journey of growth that I’m on.
Take Away: I can honor my body’s message (which is that I need to take better care of my body so that I will feel better overall) by shuffling my crap around to find the time to get in a bit of exercise, keeping in mind that if I do not there’s a good possibility I’ll end up stunting the growth I’ve been trying to foster in myself lately.
DECK USED: ANIMAL WISDOM TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What loss do I fear the most?
Reading Summary: The death of hope (The Star) and happiness (The Sun) closing me off to the world and sinking me into my own inner hell (Nine of Swords) as it obliterates my ability to see multiple perspectives (The Hanged Man Rx).
Take Away: So the true fear of loss here has to do with losing my ability to view things in an unbiased manner and see multiple perspectives. The death of hope and happiness is the path to that outcome.
The thing is, that it really terrifies me to actually think I could lose that. That perspective. That ability to step back and really see things from “both sides” or multiple views. It worries me that without that ability, I would become closed minded and hard… which is something I would never want.
DECK USED: STELLA’S TAROT
Question: Given the current restrictions, how can I give and receive support to those important people in my life?
Reading Summary: You have to take action (Three of Wands) to celebrate what you have (Four of Wands) even in the worst of times (Ten of Swords). homecoming = reaching out
Take Away: The Four of Wands is not just a “celebration” card, but also holds roots in the concept of “homecoming”. Which is to say that in this case that ‘celebration’ seen in the cards has more to do with enjoying what I have…. enjoying my loved ones and taking action to enjoy them in the ways I am able… even when things are more difficult or feel impossible. This is where phone calls and other forms of communication come in, as they allow that celebration of our connection, even from afar.