Fertilized Roots

Today’s meditation was skipped (again).

The Lost Tarot - Two of WandsToday’s draw is the Two of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of planning, direction, looking ahead, and future planning that often involves strategy and decision making.

A child playing dress up as the knight he’ll some day become. That is what I see in the imagery for today’s card.

We all had dreams and aspirations when we were young.  Often, they change as we grow older. Our dreams to become princesses and space men turn into more practical things with age.  That’s what growing up is all about.

Today’s card is a reminder of those long ago dreams. It’s about where we come from… and where we’re going.  It’s about looking at those dreams of childhood and acknowledging that they are the fertilizer of the roots from which we have grown, and appreciate how they have influenced who we have become.


ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Questions for May 17th thru 19th

Tarotgazing Deck and The Hero's Journey Dream OracleWhat desires and drives have escaped my control?

Six of Vessels and The Thin Thin Veil – The influences of your past are still dictating a great deal of your current behavior, proving that when someone passes on, their influences continue to remain for as long as you allow them to.

How can I develop self-mastery?

The Star and You Are Invited – Work at lifting yourself up. Optimism and positivity can give you the strength to break through recalcitrant behavior and join the world more fully. This in turn will give you greater control over your unhealthy habits.

What limits does reality impose on my dreams?

The Tower, The Call atop Be Reborn Daily – Reality will continue to tear things down so that you have to rebuild them into something better. Sometimes this is going to impose limits on your dreams, and at other times it will be a catalyst to changing your dreams entirely into something new and better.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 17th and 18th

The Lost TarotHow can I say no to others and be kind?

Be sensitive to their fears (The Star) and use the tools at your disposal (The Magus) to turn around the rejection into something new (Death).

Build hope instead of just shooting someone down on the spot. You can always offer a different perspective or a new opportunity out of a rejection instead of just leaving it as a rejection in and of itself.

What makes it difficult for me to say no to others?

It’s hard for you, in new relationships and friendships (Ace of Cups), to be able to predict how people are going to react (Wheel of Fortune), and you often then worry that if you say no it will turn into a huge chaotic mess of a problem (The Blasted Tower).

This is not usually a problem until you are feeling vulnerable, because during those times conflict isn’t something that you’re particularly prepared to deal with gracefully.


Daily Self Kindness

I’m still playing catch-up and like the last couple of posts, I don’t remember what I might have done as self-kindness during this time, but I know that it was during my time off so I at least got some good rest.

Shining Light Into the Darkness

Today’s meditation was skipped.

AlcheMystical TarotToday’s draw is the Moon card, which is traditionally a representation of uncertainty, illusion, fear of the unknown, anxiety, and the subconscious.

The brightness of this card is what draws my attention in the imagery for this deck.  It’s so very bright that there are no shadows.  Nowhere to hide.  Nothing that cannot be seen clearly, as if it were the sun hung in the sky instead of the moon.

This card’s message for today is to take the time to think through the things you are worried about, identify where you are stuck in a rut due to fear of the unknown, and shine a light on those things so that they will become less intimating and more manageable.


ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Questions for May 14th thru 16th

Messages From the Ancestors Oracle and The Zenned Out Journey TarotWhat has been my foundational experience with love?

Five of Pentacles and Earth – Scarcity of love, support, and stability while growing up, perpetuated by those that should love you unconditionally.

What kind of people am I attracted to?

Nine of Swords and Caregiver – Those supportive of my mental health struggles. While I don’t need someone to hold my hand all the time, when I am struggling with a major depressive episode, I require people around me that are willing to be both patient and supportive.

What kind of people do I attract?

Ten of Cups and Holy One – You attract those that want to be a part of things. Those that respect your spiritual path and help in supporting your pursuit of personal happiness that includes them in the mix.


The #MysticStarChallenge for May Prompt
Questions for May 17th and 18th

AlcheMystical TarotHow will this Spring Cleaning impact me?

Six of Water and Eight of Air – It will provide an opportunity to reconnect with things in the past that you have previously been willfully blind to.

How can I nurture myself so that I can release all that I can right now?

The Hanged Man and Eight of Fire – Remember that one perspective is never the only perspective. Don’t jump to conclusions too quickly.  Instead, take the time needed to consider multiple angles before acting.


Daily Self Kindness

I’m still playing catch up.  I know that I got a lot of rest during this stretch of time off, though.

Pity Parties Are Not Productive

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Kittycorn TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victimized mentality.

The imagery in today’s car is about drama… so much drama.  It’s about the idea that when you are too wrapped up in the drama, it can blind you to the truth of the situation and the world around you as a whole.

Don’t allow feelings of upheaval, self pity, and negativity hold you back from seeing the path forward.  Take a moment to breathe and untangle yourself from the drama and upheaval it causes within you, so that you can look at things more clearly.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for May 15th
: Do Spread #2
Question: How can I foster more motivation to get things done in my life?

Vintage Cartoon Post Card Set and Japanese Anime TarotReading Summary: There is a lot of color in the base card for today’s reading. The other cards in the reading are then bringing certain colors to the forefront in the base card. Usually it’s the base card that determines where connections in color lie and the satellite cards then work off of that base card. Here we see it is the other way around.

The Three of Wands in the Six of Wands connect on their own due to their similar color scheme, the arc of stars in each card’s background, and the fact that out of all the characters present in this reading they are the only two not looking directly at the viewer. This then connects with Sailor Moon herself and the skirt of the Sailor Mars character on the right.  The combination of S Moon and S Mars, joined with these two cards, speaks of finding a balance between one’s inner compass and what social expectations.

The Magician is blue dominant, and connects with the Sailor Mercury on the left in Sailor Moon’s entourage. The two characters even have a similar smile.  Sailor Mercury’s personality is quite timid, quiet, and peace loving. Connected to the Magician card, we see here a need to keep one’s ego in check.

Furthermore, the character in the Six of Wands it’s looking directly up into the Sailor Moon card and all of the characters collected there, drawing attention to the fact that comrade can be a powerful motivator. The Three of Wands, meanwhile, is looking away and towards the past as if to say you can’t depend on others for everything when following your own path.

Take Away: The answer in these cards is that in order to foster the motivation needed in your life right now, you need to not depend on yourself alone.  Yes, some of it needs to come from within and with the knowledge that you are capable and strong, and able to reach for and accomplish the things you need to do.  But there is also another part that needs the input of your social circle, the help of others in lifting you up and sparking that motivational fire within.  It’s a balance of both that is needed here.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 16th and 17th

Kittycorn TarotWhat loss do you fear the most?

The Sun and Eight of Pentacles – I fear the depression coming in and stealing away everything that I’ve worked so hard for in life. It’s so easy when you’re in the pit and there is no light and it looks like there is no future for anything except the darkness you feel eating away at you inside to give in and let go. Should I give in and let go I would lose everything.

This isn’t about suicide, although I’ve had far more than enough of that urge in my past. It’s about giving up and just allowing the depression to swallow me whole, which in turn would cause my life to implode.

What is a better way to confront and/or deal with fear of loss?

Six of Swords and King of Cups – It doesn’t have to be a solitary value and you need to move away from a mindset that tries to convince you you have to do it on your own. Lean into those who support you emotionally and will be there to help you stay as balanced and stable as possible during these times.


Daily Self Kindness

I am playing catch up at the moment, so I don’t exactly remember what my self care was for today.  It was my second day in my time off, though.

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Le Tarot Aux Ramures Étranges, Mystical Musings Oracle, The Wooden Wildera Lenormand

EarthLa Tempérance and Stars – Take your time this week when it comes to spending and stay on track with your plans. You know there are some large expenses soon to come, so be a bit more careful than usual with what you spend your money on this week.

AirLe Jugement and Snake – You’ve spent a long time in the pit with that negative inner narrative whispering in your ear and no light to be seen. Make sure you are reaching for the light this week, and leaning into optimism and positivity, as it will help you heal from the damage done during the depression.

WaterL’impératrice and Chain – You’ll need a bit more connection to earth this week in order to find security and balance in your emotions, so make sure that you’re getting out in nature and spending enough time with bare feet to bare earth and your hands in the soil.

FireNine of Swords and Keys – Things that often feel like a catastrophe are actually the key to opportunity. Make sure you are not catastrophizing things this week. Look for what the things getting your anxiety worked up about actually have to offer you.

WaningBroom and Crossroads – It’s time to sweep away the old and choose a better path. There are more opportunities out there for you if you’re willing to wash away the stagnancy and reach for them. This week is not so much about the washing or the reaching, but about being aware of what’s possible and prepared mentally for that change in perspective.

WaxingBook and Sun – Lean hard into a positive mindset an optimism. Seek out those that can help you in adopting this mindset and making it yours.

Take Away – Today’s week is all about practicing financial moderation and leaning into optimism in the face of adversity, as well as how leaning into that optimism can assist in improving my life in swath of different ways.


Self Inflicted Wounds

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Le Tarot Aux Ramures Étranges - Nine of SwordsToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victim mentality.

The figure in the imagery of this card looks as if she is injured and bleeding. There are thorns upon her bindings, and red taints the skin, hair, and even the thorns themselves.

The message in today’s cards is that when you choose willful ignorance, victim mentality, and other negative inner narratives, the damage goes beyond the moment and stretches into the future.  Wounds are created and need time and attention to be healed.  The longer you ignore the problem, the longer it will take to tend and heal these wounds.

Tend your wounds instead of ignoring them.  Self care requires acknowledging what needs tending, and making the effort to resolve the problem instead of sitting in the misery.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for May 14th: How am I different in romantic relationships?

Magic Flower Movement TarotReading Summary: I need someone who I can learn from on an emotional level (Page of Cups), and who is okay with having differences of opinion as long as we’re willing to hash it out (Five of Wands). Someone that understands that alone time is important to my well-being (The Hermit).

Take Away: These cards are about sharing and trust. In a romantic relationship, I am far more trusting than I am with other relationships in my life. I need that trust between myself and my romantic partner. Trust that they will guide me without selfish reasons when I need guidance, trust that they will hash out differences with me when they arise.  Trust that they will understand my needs and strive to help me in fulfilling them even when those needs might go against their wants.

Gideon fills all of these needs for me and is, in fact, my first and only romantic relationship. I’d have a lot of flings and did a lot of sleeping around before him, but I’ve not had another romantic relationship other than him… ever.


The #MysticStarChallenge for May Prompt
Questions for May 14th thru 16th

Coastal Curiosities Oracle and Le Tarot Aux Ramures Étranges - Nine of SwordsWhat card symbolizes the Spring Cleaning that I need to focus on?

Le Diable and Admire – You need to get going on the sorting and culling of your collection. This means that you need to go through things that need going through, donate what needs donated and get things organized in order to get the shelves up and get things going in that direction. You’ve put it off long enough.

How can I utilize this Spring Cleaning to my advantage?

L’amoureaux and Pursue – It will help you in getting on the right track to making positive and healthy choices for yourself in other areas of your life. Once you get the ball rolling, it will then begin to pick up momentum to continue forward on its own.

How can I support this cleaning process for my Greater Good?

As de Pentacles atop Reine de Pentacles, Depth – Dive in! Connect with your inner strengths that allow you to find your balance, and treat this as a new passion project as well as an opportunity to support yourself and make positive change. New and old will combine into something better.


Daily Self Kindness

I had a lazy day today.  Other than pulling cards, I haven’t really done much of anything productive with my day.  I slept in.  Enjoyed a nap.  And just pretty much tooled around throughout the day.

🌕 Full Moon & Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio – May 2022

Tonight is the full moon, and like all new moons and full moons, I did a spread aligned to the moon’s current themes as a part of my recognition of the moon’s cycle and influences upon us. Today’s spread is about the medicine within, and brought to you by Ethony‘s Tarot by the Moon series.

Full Moon & Lunar Eclipse In Scorpio Oracle Reading with the Korean Wildflower Oracle

Where in my life can I seek deeper meaning?

Amur Adonis – Remember that there is a difference between perception, and truth. Seek a deeper understanding of those things that you think you know so well, for there is more underneath yet to explore.

What shallow shit needs to stop?

Five Leaf Chocolate Vine – Stop discounting yourself. You are resilient. You are a survivor. And you are capable of far more than you give yourself credit for.

What instincts do I need to trust?

Siberian Geranium – Just because your emotions speak a language that you rarely understand, doesn’t mean that they aren’t valid and don’t need the freedom to express themselves as they arise.

What relationships do I need to tend to?

Cape Jasmine – All of them. A well tended garden blooms many flowers. So, any relationship that you want to thrive needs careful tending.

How can I express my sensual side?

Lily of the Valley – Seek out what makes you happy instead of using deprivation of joy and pleasure as a punishment on yourself.

Full Moon advice from the Minoan Goddess Amalthea.

Terebinthaceous Hogfennel and Catchfly – It’s natural to look back on your past and the mistakes you’ve made and feel foolish. You were young and you had much to learn, and the mistakes you made helped you to become the man you are today, so don’t fall into the trap of feeling ashamed or embarrassed about what you see when you look back on the past.