Shedding Uncertainty

Today’s meditation was skipped due to an overwhelming urge to get out of bed and find my pain pills.  GOD FUCK I hurt today.  Just sayin’ but damn.  So yeah… I didn’t meditate.  I did extra physio instead in an effort to ease some of the tension in my muscles.

Friends Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the King of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, imagination, and intuition.

There’s really no one aspect in particular in the imagery of today’s card that stands out to me today except when I look closer.  Then, what stands out is kind blue eyes and a self-assured smirk.

Before meeting Gideon (my very own King of Cups), I had a but of an odd relationships with the court cards in the Cups suit.  Perhaps I still do.   But what I see here in this card is kindness and confidence.  Strength through knowing oneself and knowing others, and being able to see the inner urges and drive that causes people to react as they do. The maturity to understand these things, and react to them in a way that is both strong and yet gentle.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, what I see here is a gentle reminder to be kind and not allow uncertainty to get in the way and drag you down.

DECK USED:  FRIENDS TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

LionHart’s Sacred Self Divination Challenge Prompt
Question
: What more can I personally do in support of my best self?

Tarot of Baseball

Reading Summary: Keep working on your emotional growth (Ace of Gloves atop Eight of Balls). There isn’t an “end goal” or a battle to be won (Five of Caps) and looking at your growth in this manner will only make a mess of things (Justice).

Take Away:  I often have a habit of looking at things at a challenge with an end goal.  Even things that I shouldn’t…. like my emotional growth and delving into fostering my own emotional intelligence.  I’m still at the very beginning of this journey, and yet there are time when I fall into this mentality and have to check myself, remind myself that this is not a destination… it’s a journey.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF BASEBALL

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: Do Spread #3

Friends TarotYouAce of Cups – A carry over from the previous reading, here we see myself represented as the newly hatched egg of emotional growth.

Your GoalSeven of Swords – Sneaky shit.  I’m not going to spell it out here because it’s just a wee bit on the side of illegal, but suffice to say the contemplation of this sneaky shit has been ongoing.

What’s holding you back?Three of Wands – Lack of a definitive direction.  These goals go against the path I’ve chosen for myself and the moral compass that has directed my life from a young age.

Advice to overcome what’s holding you backThree of Swords Rx – Don’t do it.  Find another way.  Nothing good can come from moving forward with “the thing”.  Instead, find a better way that is more in line with my path and my moral compass. Turn things around so that the blades slide out instead of sinking in deeper.

DECK USED:  FRIENDS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I hung curtains today for my peace of mind.  It didn’t bother me much with the construction going on next door, until one of the drivers of the dump trucks waved at L through the window.   I then realized that shit was not quite as private as I thought it was, and with first construction workers and eventually apartments going up just across the alley from our windows, I feel it’s time.   So I hung curtains.  It was an ordeal and a huge pain in the ass (and back), but I’m happy with the results.

Not All Prizes Are Physical

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was one of the guided meditations on the Calm app with an added interval timer for my piriformis stretching. I can definitely “feel it” that I haven’t been doing my hip flexor stretches recently.  Although things loosened up quickly, getting there was far more painful than usual.

The focus of today’s meditation was about learning how to focus on gratitude instead of the harshness of judgement.  It spoke on how it is through a practice that involves gratitude that we combat negative inner narratives that can often rise up to be directed at ourselves or others.

Twilight Rabbit Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Ten of Passions (Cups), which is traditionally a representation of emotional satiety, and euphoric contentment.  It is the card that speaks of having obtained one’s heart’s desire and wallowing in that feeling of completion.

A meadow full of happy bunnies wallowing in the grass and a message from the Thera-Pets cards saying it’s okay to be scared, you’ll get there anyway?   What I see here is a reminder to keep your eye on the prize.

Not the monetary prize.  Not the responsibilities and work…. but the prize your heart truly desires.  The wishes and dreams.  Make sure that you’re not forsaking these things, and don’t let your self doubts and fears swerve you from trying to obtain them.

DECK USED:  TWILIGHT RABBIT TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

LionHart’s Sacred Self Divination Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is my biggest strength at this time {card 1}, and how am I asked to use it right now {card 2}?

Cute Cat Tarot

 Reading Summary: You’re a fast learner and damn good at the things you choose to put your effort into (Eight of Pentacles). Hold back on the “get it, get it” and do a little research first (Page of Wands). It will help you feel more connected to the process (The Star).

Take Away:  At the moment it’s more important to focus on learning and practice than going after anything concrete and taking actions to chase those dreams.  You need to feel more connected to your ideas, your creativity, and your interests.  Allow yourself the time to learn more, and hone your skills.  Then when you decide to act?  You’ll enjoy it more instead of feeling stress bred from a sense of disconnect.

DECK USED:  CUTE CAT TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What gifts does the peak of the spring season bring with it for me?

Twilight Rabbit TarotReading Summary: Time with Gideon (King of Passions). As the spark of spring’s energy begins to shift (Death atop Ace of Clover), you will find yourself pushing for more of the time together you both enjoy (Jack of Clover).

Take Away: The peak of spring season and shift of energy extending into summer’s beginnings will bring with it a passionate enjoyment of time spent with Gideon on the things that we enjoy the most.  More time together. More time playing.  More time. 

It is important to not just pursue this time, working to make room for it whenever I’m able, but also to savor it mindfully and with a grateful heart.

DECK USED:  TWILIGHT RABBIT TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Still playing a bit of catch up at the moment. Although… considering this was Monday, I’m pretty sure I didn’t do anything at all to be kind to myself other than ask for help from the girls in getting orders and packaging done.

Sharing Is Caring

Today’s meditation was thwarted twice… er, well, three times.  The first time, it was interrupted by a phone call from Ms B giving us all an update.  The second time, I might’ve kinda dozed off a bit.  Okay so I accidentally napped.  The third time?  It was Ms B calling again.

Tarot Morandi and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Queen of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s intellect, reason, education, aspirations, and communication. This often translates into the theme of someone who is strong and intelligent, has a good deal of advice and help to offer, and is able to listen before opening their mouths, so that the advice they give is informed by what has been said.

When combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message here is that it’s in our uniqueness we find the things that we are best at, and the things that we are able to offer others advice and guidance on.

If everyone was the same, we would all have the same strengths and the same weaknesses, the same experiences and the same blind spots.  There would be no opportunity to share with each other the things that make us each unique, and teach each other things that the other may not know or understand.  Instead, because we are all different and unique, we have things to offer each other, help to give… and that is not just unique, but very special.

DECK USED:  TAROT MORANDI AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Do Spread #2
Question: Why am I not so ready and eager to hop back into my creative endeavors?

Tarot MorandiReading Summary: The Ace of Coins and The Empress both face in the direction of the past, speaking of enjoying the newness of taking better care of myself and enjoying the grounded feeling it provides.

The Queen of Swords faces in the direction of the future, speaking of a harsh taskmaster and a return to going back into my head.

Two against one, I’m pulled towards that grounding and self-care right now Instead of responsibilities and practicality.

Take Away:  Essentially I crave being nicer to myself and I’m struggling with “buckling down” to work when what I really am craving is a bit more personal time and quiet.

DECK USED:  TAROT MORANDI

Daily Self Kindness

I am currently playing catch-up on posts… and I can’t remember what I might’ve done on this day to be kind to myself.

Finding The Groove

IMG_0302Today’s meditation was just over twenty minutes long (cuz I might’ve maybe napped in the middle for a few minutes.  I’m petty sure).   It was a self guided meditation based upon the quote posted to the right.  I didn’t make the graphic, but rather I ran across it on IG and used it as a prompt for my meditation.

Sometimes I forget to take that extra bit of time to savor the moment, and sometimes my meditation needs a bit of a focus.  This reminder of something that I often forget to do in my day to day life was the perfect prompt to give me something to focus on.   I don’t think dozing off was a “failure” in this meditation, but rather an indication of just how relaxed I was able to become during the process.

Cent Proverbes Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support CardsToday’s draw is the Page of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, intuition, and creativity. This receptive energy often translates into themes concerning emotional growth, learning creative pursuits, and allowing imagination and curiosity to take the lead.

What stands out to me in the imagery on this particular Page of Cups card today is that the man stands alone.  Content… and alone.

I’ve been having a hard time getting back into the swing of things as I begin to pick up on my work after taking the week off.  With many orders waiting to be created and prepared for shipment, I’ve been trying to space out the work so that I am not overwhelmed the closer shipment day comes.

Today’s Page of Cups and his solitary nature combined with the Thera-Pets card for today indicated that i would “find my groove” in my creative endeavors today, but it might take a bit and be a bit of a struggle.  That it -could- be done though, if I’m tenacious about it.

I found that the secret to tapping into my creativity today and getting the work done that I needed to do was about tactile sensations.  It was about the fun of playing with little charms and admiring their tiny details, feeling the delicate weight of each one between my fingertips, and really sinking into the tactile experience of the creative process.  I did find that creative connection, but I had to look for it… and not allow distractions to detract from my sinking into that groove once I’d found it.

DECK USED:  CENT PROVERBES TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The #httSelfImprovementTarotChallenge Prompt
Question
: How can I feel more secure?

Dreaming Cat Tarot

Reading Summary: Take charge (King of Wands) at home (Four of Wands), and use reason and logic (Ace of Wands) to help in sorting out misunderstandings (Five of Wands).

Take Away:  In other words, sit everyone down and let’s talk it out. Conflict happens in close quarters.  Sometimes there’s just no way to avoid it, you know?  It happens between me and the girls, between the girls themselves, and between me and them individually at times.  It’s just a lot sometimes, and we all have strong personalities and strong opinions that usually align… but not always.

During those times when we disagree, it can really upset that sense of security that I foster in the home, and the advice here is that during those times I need to take charge of the situation and facilitate communication instead of just staying out of it and risking whatever the disagreement is having a destabilizing influence.

DECK USED:  DREAMING CAT TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Cent Proverbes TarotReading Summary: If you depend on the good opinion of others for your self-esteem (Sun moving into the Six of Wands), you will continually be disappointed (Three of Swords atop The Sun) and end up even more miserable and stressed (Nine of Swords) out as a result (Justice Rx atop Nine of Swords).

Take Away:  For self care moving forward from the new moon, I needed a reminder to look to myself for my self esteme and self-worth… not to others.  This can be a slippery slope for most people, and I’m no exception.  Sometimes it feels really good to get praise from others, or to be looked upon favorably by others.  It just does.

The key, though, is to not let those good experiences transform into approval seeking behavior.  When that happens, you start to then lose control of your own self esteem and self worth.  You begin depending on others to provide that for you.  And that’s not healthy.

DECK USED:  CENT PROVERBES TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I made chocolate chip cookies.  But… not the long and entailed recipe of chocolate chip cookies.  I mean that’s the BEST kind, true.  But rather, I made them from frozen dough because I just wanted cookies without the work.