The Little Pleasures

Today’s meditation was skipped again. I’m working on the not just not doing something because of emotional “meh” feelings, but I didn’t manage it today where meditation was concerned.

Beauty of Horror Tarot and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Nine of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of anxiety, worries, insomnia, nightmares, and depression.

I think sometimes we forget just how amazing some of the most simple and small things can be. Take a flower, for example.  In the theme of today’s draw, someone can be filled with worry and anxiety, stressed out and restless and absolutely miserable.

But, in taking just five minutes (that’s 1/288th of a day) to focus on said flower mentioned above, to linger and admire the shape of the petals and shades of color, the sparkle of iridescence on the petals and delicate bits and parts.  Just in taking that five minutes to look at something so simply, ordinary, and every day… we can lower blood pressure, ease anxiety, and give our minds a moment’s rest and a bit of “fresh air”.

That is the basis behind the phrase “stopping to smell the roses”.  Sometimes, we need to look at the little things just to give ourselves a breather and a moment of peace in times when there is no peace to be had anywhere else.


#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
: Do Spread #3

Dominic Murphy's Secret TarotSmoky Quartz: How can I best purge negativity from my life to develop greater stability?

Guerra – Battle the negativity by arming yourself with truth, faith, and hope as you move forward. Allow these qualities to lift you up and strengthen your foundation as you resist the negative inner narratives trying to take hold.

Apple: What insight is needed to improve my physical health at this time?

Radix – Dig into the roots of what is causing you to feel restless and out of sorts. Where are you struggling and why?  What is creating that “going nowhere fast” struggle in your soul right now.  Don’t ignore it or try to bury it.  Ask Gideon for help in digging it out if you are struggling to focus on it on your own.

Chrysanthemum: Where do my defenses need bolstering to foster my growth?

Somnium – You need to find a way to get some useful rest. You’ve been doing a lot of “trying to rest” without actually managing to really rest at all.  You need true rest, not the rest of the restless. Your balance and equilibrium can’t recover without it.

Aquamarine: Where can meditation bolster my confidence by promoting more calm in my life?

Saturn – Meditation allows the ego to ease and quiet within the brain, providing a different perspective and distance from the inner whispers that try to take up the whole of your mental narrative the rest of the time you are awake, and even at times when you are asleep.

Mint: What factors in my relationships need reevaluation and (possibly) adjustment?

Unitate – Take some time to consider if you are getting what you need, or if a shift in power might help you feel more settled. “A balanced diet creates a balanced mind and body.” – Dominic Murphy

I am not feeling the need to top, nor to express aggression in a physical way.  At all. I think this is what the cards are hinting at, and perhaps the encouragement here isn’t so much about changing anything, but taking a bit of time to consider where that more aggressive side of my nature has gone and why it hasn’t raised it’s head in so long.

Carnelian: In what ways can including more creativity in my life lighten my daily outlook?

Devil – Tease that addictive quality of your nature to lean into the more creative side of your business. Feed that creative spark and set it ablaze.  It will peter out eventually, but during the busy season it will bring a greater amount of joy and pleasure in your work, and a feeling of accomplishment you wouldn’t have otherwise.

Pomegranate: What wish of mine is ready to be manifested into reality at this time?

Wheel of Fortune – Dependability is all about adaptability.  You have the ability, the skill, the experience, and the strength to shift gears at the drop of a hat.  The problem is, this transition period is moving slower than you are comfortable with.  As always, there is a liminal moment of limbo here in the time between prep and the beginning of the holiday rush. Don’t worry so much about if it’s going to be a success, just focus on keeping your feet steady and being ready for when the wheel turns and things start moving so fast you have to rush to keep up.


PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 24th and 25th

Mildred Payne's Oracle of Black Enchantment and Beauty of Horror TarotWhat wisdom does the owl have for me today?
The Angry Mob atop The Black Cat, The Star atop Two of Swords

At the moment, you are sitting at a crossroads, struggling and unable to move one way or another.

It is with the help of others that you can begin to move forward.  Allow those around you to lift you up and set you in the direction you need to go.  You have the ability to write your own future in this moment.  Don’t let it pass you by, but instead turn this moment to your advantage.

Where should I be flying higher?
The Seance atop The Healing Witch, Eight of Swords

There is encouragement here to allow the spirit guides a stronger voice and more open hand in your life. Although you’ve been working on becoming more in contact with them and having a more open relationship with them, there is still a great deal more to be done.  Reach deeper, seek more.  Allow them to help you and heal you.

And…. I just realized that in the first part of this reading the “others that can help me begin to move forward) wasn’t talking about L or Z or Gid. (Having one of those hand-to-forehead-slapping moments.)


Daily Self Kindness

I had my smoothie today.  I also made sure that I got some actual quantifiable work done today instead of continuing to put it off and avoid it.

Motivation Comes In All Forms

Today’s meditation was skipped.  I just didn’t do it.

Tarot of Haunted House and the How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Knight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of an active beta energy, personality, or person in the area of ones passions, drive, principles, and willpower. As with all wands, this isn’t about a physical thing, but rather about that inner spark of energy that “lights a fire under your ass” and “makes you tick”.

Sometimes?  That fire that’s lit under our ass actually comes from someone else. Today’s cards are a reminder that it’s okay to take inspiration from other’s kind words.  When someone says something that they admire about you, or speaks encouraging words to you, don’t allow them to roll off your back like rain off of a slicker.

Instead, take a moment to enjoy them and let them sink in.  Allow them to lift you up and inspire you. It’s okay to feel good about yourself, and those good feelings, no matter their origins, are a healthy way to spark your inspiration.


Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 23rd and 24th

The Hollow Wood Game Cards and Old Whispers TarotI know without knowing, I feel in my bones, that this could be one thing, that I am to hone:
Retreating Shadow, Raging Dragon, The Chariot

You need to work on how to better discern when it is time to walk away when things get too hot. There is a great deal of power in a strategic retreat.

Gentle and easy, or passionate thrills, what is a desire, that I should fulfill?
Hearth, Home, Three of Pentacles

Now is the time for you and L to work together and find your groove. Get things ironed out now for the harmony of your home over the busy season ahead.

A message from my spirit guides for me today.

Ten of Pentacles – More gratitude is needed for all that you have accomplished and all that you have.


The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 23rd thru 25th

Southern Gothic Oracle and Tarot of Haunted HouseWhat can I expect ahead of a merge between myself and my Alter Ego?
Bottle Tree, Justice atop Two of Cups

A time of kicking myself for my priorities as things feel out of balance, followed by a merging entanglement of two contrasting sides of the same coin that will most easily be sorted out through pause and reflection.

How will this merge help me heal?
Conch Shell and King of Wands

It will help you find your groove in both your passions and responsibilities, as well as in your need for self care activities and adequate rest.

How will this merge help me connect with my intuition?
The Mockingbird and Queen of Cups

As finding your balance always does, it will open up your intuition for easier communication, and allow a more fluid and comfortable connection with the different voices your intuition has to offer in its communication with you. Everything flows better when there’s not a bunch of crap in the way… that includes conflict and opposition between the alter ego and self.


Daily Self Kindness

I forced myself to have my smoothie even though I really wasn’t into putting in the work.  I’m trying to not allow my emotions to dictate so much of what I do…. or, more accurately, don’t do.

To-and-Fro… Balance to Come

Today’s meditation was sort of skipped?  I did some breathing exercises in the car as a passenger, but I didn’t do a full fledged meditation.

Skeleternity Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Two of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of the duality of balancing health and home with one’s ambitions and work responsibilities, struggling with multiple priorities, time management, and the ability to adapt as needed to juggle one’s commitments.

I have been working at creating a more healthy balance between my personal care and my work life over the past couple of years. It’s been slow going, and I still struggle with it.  It seems the closer I get to a healthy balance, the more I struggle not to fall in the other direction now… that is to say, I no longer feel the same motivation to work that I once did.

And yet, I still find ways to neglect myself and self sabotage.

Today’s cards are a reminder that self care and finding that balance is not a waste of time. It’s needed.  And things -will- balance out eventually. Imbalance can never last forever, so… even though I’ve swung perhaps a bit too far in the opposite side of the coin?  Sooner or later I’ll find that balance that allows for both enthusiasm and motivation… as well as self care and recuperation.


#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 21st and 22nd

Bird ov Prey Oracle and Flux Arcana TarotWhat echos from the past are trying to resurface for me right now?
Indestructible/Enlightenment and Page of Pentacles

This is a reminder of the importance of my meds and the gratitude of finding meds that work.

Once, a long time ago, I was put on a med called Paxil, which turned me into a danger to myself and others. I truly felt indestructible and did a lot of risk-taking behavior. Only once I stopped taking this medication did I come to discover the mess I’d made, and the potential for it to have been much, much worse.

This was a learning experience for me about respect for my body, the things I put into it, and how I might react to those things. I’ve since found a medication that works well for me, but that lesson sticks with me all the same.

How can I safely explore echos from the past that are trying to get my attention?
Miss You Already and Judgement

Take the lessons learned and carry them forward so that you do not repeat them.


PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 21st thru 23rd

D'oracle du Clothilde and Skeleternity TarotWhere in my life do I need to ghost out?

Travail and King of Cups – Gid is on vacation, which allows you more time to do holiday prep. Don’t waste this time.

What area of my life am I at a crossroads?

Surprise and Ten of Pentacles – You are feeling out of sorts financially at the moment. Take a deep breath and a beat to let that jolt of “well fuck” ease off, and reflect on what is most important.

Who is the werewolf in my life?

Passion and Ten of Cups – The werewolf in my life (otherwise known as the catalyst for change) is Gideon. He has helped make me into the man that I am today, and I will continue to grow and change through his influence.


Daily Self Kindness

Still playing catch up, but I know for a fact that I took a nap after I got home from doing my errands.

Don’t Be Discouraged

Today’s meditation was just over twelve minutes long, and was the sixth installment of the Foundations III series on the Balance app. This meditation dealt with the labeling of thoughts and sensations, and introduced special awareness through sound and (towards the end) sight.

Pazzol Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Knight of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of  an active beta energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, manifestations, home, health, and the physical world.  This often translates into an active pursuit of these particular themes, alibi… usually a slow moving pursuit, as the Pentacles suit as a whole has a tendency to take its time.

Today is an orders day, and I am…. so not interested.  I say that a lot recently, don’t I?  But it’s true.  I’m not experiencing the joy I once did in my work and that in turn means that I’m not getting the same amount of enthusiasm.   I keep trying to get back in touch with that enthusiasm, but… It’s not happening.  At least not quickly.

These cards are a reminder to keep trying. Keep going.  Things might be going slow and they may not feel like they’re moving fast enough, but they -are- moving.  Just keep going… it’ll be fine.   This message is about keeping the faith, and keeping your eye on the prize, no matter how discouraged you might feel in the moment.


Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 21st and 22nd

Seasons of the Witch Samhain Oracle and Ritual Abuse TarotFor each full cycle, each moon to come, what am I to conjure before the end of ’21?
Transformation and Page of Swords

Focus on improving your communication with those around you.  It’s not always easy to get yourself across the way you want.  Remember this struggle is something we all deal with, and you can foster better communication by making sure that you are being open about your struggles instead of trying to pretend you’re not struggling and everything’s fine… which comes off a bit heartless when you are fumbling the message.

I embrace all that makes me, and all that I do, what path am I crafting for ’22?
Creativity and Four of Pentacles

As I move towards 2022, you are building a path that includes a deeper sense of rooted security, comfort, and dependency upon your creative spark, and a greater appreciation for what that spark does for you.


#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 21st

Patrick Valenza's Abandoned Oracle and the Pazzol TarotYouDismemberment and Ten of Wands – Feeling discombobulated and overwhelmed. The thing is? This isn’t lighting a fire under my ass the way that it would normally.  Instead I seem to be feeling a bit like I’m spinning my wheels and not going anywhere.

Your Current PathThe Crematorium and Five of Cups – Nothing is going to be good enough this holiday season, and you are going to be burning the candle at both ends. This is not unusual for the six weeks or so of the holiday rush, and is a path you have tread upon again and again.

Potential OutcomeThe Madwoman and The Lovers – The outcome of this path is a time of forced recuperation as your body and mind revolt from the abuse, and it begins to feel like the world is falling apart around you when really it is you falling apart. As you arrive at the end of the holiday rush, you are at the end of your rope and exhausted, struggling with sleep deprivation, and in need of some healthy choices to help bring yourself onto a track of recovery.


Daily Self Kindness

I’m playing catch up on posts at the moment and I have no idea what self kindnesses I might have done on this day. I know that I had my smoothie, though, and that I added a large pinch of spring mix added in.

Don’t Forget

Today’s meditation was skipped.  I suppose I could have done it while lying on an ice pack, but I ended up falling asleep instead.

Dead of the Night Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Six of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of your roots within the past, nostalgia, reflecting on past events, and childhood experiences.

Those that have grown up in an environment of abuse often struggle with feeling that they matter in life.  This is not the only experiences that can give root to these feelings, though.  Sometimes it can be hard to look back on our pasts and see anything of value, no matter what lies back there behind us.

The truth is though?  We would not be the people we are today without the past there to teach us, guide us, and… sometimes show us just exactly what not to become.

Today’s cards are a reminder that the past holds the building blocks that create who we are in the present, and who we will become in the future.  What we do and the lives we touch change the lives of others, just as they change ours.  To someone?  You matter.  You always matter.  Just existing makes a difference in someone’s life.  Don’t forget that.


Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 19th and 20th

Oracle of the Shapeshifters and Mio Im's TarotLike howling wolves that call for the moon, what instinct am I, to follow soon?
The Faery Ring, The Magician atop Three of Hearts

You excel at all that you put your mind to and adapt quickly to new circumstances. These qualities are a part of you that you will be given the opportunity to share with others soon. As you advance and learn new tools and skills to put under your hat, take these others with you.

Triple Goddess of moon and tides, share your wisdom, for my path, tonight…
Little Brother Little Sister, Seven of Cups atop Four of Hearts

Staying caged (Ie: staying home) is an emotional choice, and your sister needs your help right now.

So, I guess I’m going to my sister’s full moon circle tonight. I’m always welcome to join in her coven’s activities, but being solitary, I’m not a big fan of group ritual and practices. I’ll be making an exception tonight, though.


#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
: Is there an afterlife?

Dead of the Night TarotReading Summary: Depending on how you die (The Tower), and what you’ve got going on on the inside (Strength), there are some that stick around to try and deal with unfinished business (Skeleton in the Two of Wands is facing the Past).

Take Away: So… yes.  Obviously if some of us are sticking around to deal with unfinished business, there is an afterlife. I would imagine that it’s not what is generally imagined it to be, and that there are a variety of different scenarios (the one mentioned above being merely one of them), but the answer makes it clear that there is indeed the possibility of life after corporeal death.


Daily Self Kindness

I’ve been using an ice pack on my back off and on all day.  It’s feeling both painful, but also quite unstable today.

Look Up

Today’s meditation was skipped in deference for sleep today.

Spooky Cats Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Four of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of apathy and disinterest, dejection and reflection, as well as times of quiet meditation. The key here is in the hand that offers the fourth cup, and the fact that the figure either does not see the offer, or is rejecting it in an apathetic response.

When struggling, sometimes it can be hard to see beyond the misery of the moment.  I’ve dealt with this a lot in life when dealing with my major depressive episodes and times of recovery after injury.  It just… you feel stuck. Stuck, and alone, and miserable.  It can be hard to realize that the misery is only temporary… hard to believe in those times that there is an end in sight and things will get better.

It can be equally hard to see that there are people out there that want to help… are trying to help.

The reminder in today’s cards is to make sure that you look up and see what’s being offered during these times, welcome the help that people are offering instead of closing yourself off and assuming you are all alone. It’s not easy, but it helps those times be a little less painful, and eases the amount of misery experienced while waiting for things to feel better.


PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 18th thru 20th

Flowers From the Dead Oracle and Sugar Skull TarotWhat area of my life is full of tumbleweed?
Hawk and Death

Your ability to see changes in your life clearly is currently compromised. This is natural, and normal, but it makes going through these changes more difficult as there is an element of blindness involved, and this uncertainty can create hesitation.

What do I need to resurrect?
Chicken, The Lovers atop Wheel of Fortune Rx

Ensure you are approaching troubled times with bravery and the mindset of making healthy choices. You can’t always just trust everything is going to come out okay.  You have to actively make choices that will turn things the way you want them to go. This focus on making healthy choices will carry you through, instead of enabling you to self-sabotage and sink.

What needs to grow in my life?
Fox and Queen of Wands

It’s important to continue focusing on finding harmony between your indomitable drive and your self care. You can balance both and give up neither, but finding that balance is going to take time. More time, that is.


The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 18th, and 20th thru 22nd

Spooky Cats TarotWhat fears do I have?

Page of Brooms atop Seven of Cups – You fear that you’ll miss out on what could be a fucking spectacular opportunity due to hesitation. There is a lot of holding back lately, and a lot of letting opportunities go in the hopes that they will come back to you later. This has caused the fear of “losing out” to rise and grow recently.

What actions am I afraid to take?

The Empress – You worry that all this focus on self care is going to make you soft and weak. Stamina has always been a corner stone of your ambition and drive, and you’re afraid to be too nice to yourself or too kind to yourself and, in the process, end up “losing your edge”.

Why do these actions scare me?

King of Pumpkins – The idea of losing your edge through self-kindness and self-nurturing scares you because you are so hyper focused on stability and security. In losing your edge, there is a risk of losing that stability and security that you’ve gained.

How can this help me and my Alter Ego merge?

Queen of Cups atop Four of Cups – By allowing me to see that we are there to help each other. That driven alter ego that these readings over the month so far have been about, and that side of myself that wants to treat myself better and be healthier… they are two sides of the same coin. They are both me, and they can help each other and support each other (instead of conflicting with each other) if given the chance.


Daily Self Kindness

Bless the angel of midday naps.  The fire safety people were here at the building to do their inspections today, and the gas people were also here to do their job checking the lines and getting pilot lights lit in fireplaces. That shit started even before I made it home from the farm and the constant alarms going off and people in and out was exhausting.  So, after it was over I took the most wonderful nap ever.