Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.

The Hermit – You are seeking alone time and feeling a desire to retreat from the world at this time. As mentioned in the blue moon reading done yesterday, the trick to this at the moment is in finding the motivation to engage in healthy alone time instead of the unhealthy variety.

The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.

Seven of Coins – Don’t over-complicate long term endeavors. Just because something takes a long time to accomplish doesn’t mean it has to be complicated, or need your full attention all the time. Like some plants, some endeavors thrive under neglect rather than constant attention to detail.

What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.

King of Coins – Resource stability. With taxes done for both personal and business, your property taxes paid, the levy on your building paid, your accountant paid, etc., you are feeling the need to recover financially and work on reestablishing some solid footing.

Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.

The Empress – Don’t pamper yourself to the point you become lazy or lackadaisical. Not all self-care is about languishing. Sometimes it means getting in the garden to work among the flowers and/or otherwise building up a sweat in the sunshine and shade.

The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.

Time / Wheel of Fortune – Do some of the things that tend to cause you to lose track of time. Your time and attention is not strictly regimented right now, which means it’s the perfect time to lose yourself in the activities where time doesn’t really matter.

The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.

Ace of Cups – Take time to revisit some of those emotions from the past that you found confusing or difficult to identify and deal with. You may find them easier to identify and/or deal with now that there has been some time and space between you and them. Sometimes a little distance helps put things in perspective.

Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.

Page of Wands atop Ten of Coins – In both the present and the past, you’ve enjoyed feeding those you care about foods that you have grown yourself. This year that may be your teas and herbs, but don’t give up the dream idea of growing more on your balcony next year.

A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.

The Hanged One Rx – Take care to pay attention to your initial reactions to things, and take time to observe and consider before you actually act or respond. You don’t want to jump the gun, as that won’t provide you with the results you desire.

Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.

Three of Cups – That togetherness you’ve been feeling lately with others holds a great deal of promise if you nurture it.

Message from the Spirit World – Take your time when in the company of those you enjoy spending time with. Linger and enjoy rather than taking these moments for granted or rushing through them.

Message from the Mind’s World – The stability you desire is going to take some time and soul searching. It will return, though, with a little perseverance to get you there.

Message from the Physical World – That new balcony garden plan you’re considering needs some more planning, and now is the time to do some of that planning. Don’t put it off til later, because it’s going to come together in fits-and-starts.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Wood Fern for Exorcising Negative Influences
Foraged Oak Branch with Moss and Lichen for Perseverance
Foraged Parmeliaceae Lichen for a “Breath of Fresh Air”
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: THE YELLOW HOUSE TAROT

Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.

Center – Awakening. There is a first blush of awakening upon you right now. You left the light on all night through the darkness and your struggle… and now the sun returns, coming back to illuminate the world once more.

The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.

Center Left – Over the past six months or so you have been functioning in a state deep shadow. Although the light cast within your sphere has allowed you to fumble your way forward, it has created more shadows than you’ve been able to deal with on your own. It’s time to work at leaving those shadows behind and stepping into the light. Open the blinds and let the sunlight in.

What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.

Center Right – You want to hold within you an unflappable strength, but you need to remember that that kind of strength comes with a frigid amount of cold. Perhaps you need to consider a warmer approach instead.

Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.

Center Bottom – That cold mentioned above is not your friend, and thus why looking for a warmer approach is a good idea. Don’t freeze others out, and take care not to freeze yourself in. It may look like strength, but it’s actually doing more harm than good.

The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.

Center Top – Don’t just “open the blinds” as mentioned in The Slough position of this reading, but tear them down so that the light can come in more fully. There’s always going to be dark spots in your life that you struggle to illuminate and have the ability to take over from time to time. Now is an opportunity for you to shed light as far as you can and beat that darkness back.

The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.

Bottom Left – Sometimes when alone feels safe, it’s really just loneliness giving you a false sense of security. After all, when you’re alone, the only person who can hurt you is you. This may provide a sense of serenity, but it’s counterproductive to what you really need.

Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.

Bottom Right – If you want to spend some time with yourself and wallow in alone time, make sure that you’re doing so in healthy ways, with bare feet on bare earth or your fingers in the soil. Pull up a chair and settle in when presented with these healthy options.

A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.

Top Left – Don’t fall for superficial bullshit. Especially when the real thing is so easily accessible to you.

Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.

Top Right – Remember that there are two sides to every coin, and you need to take every opportunity that you have to look on the positive side instead of wallowing in the negative one. Just because the negative one seems more comfortable doesn’t mean it’s the right one for you, or healthy for you either.

Message from the Spirit World – Lean into the nurturing of nature. Get yourself outside. Allowing yourself to be secluded inside all the time is not healthy for you and thus has a direct impact on everything around you.

Message from the Mind’s World – It’s time to cast light on the beliefs you hold that hold you back from connecting with others and keep you at a distance. Especially in your efforts towards positivity and optimism.

Message from the Physical World – Your body is going to be much happier if you connect with nature and get your ass outside rather than freezing yourself back into a pattern of solitude.

DECKS USED: THE MIRANDA DECK