Today’s meditation was about 20 minutes long, and the mist peaceful I’ve had so far since coming to visit mom’s house. That is because everyone went out to shop for a new recliner and I was left at home alone.
The meditation itself was not guided, but instead a full body scan with a bit of stretching mixed in.
Today’s draw is the Lovers card, and the reading off of today’s card is intuitive rather than through traditional meanings.
What I see in today’s card is synergy. In my experience, when you dance ballroom style (as in the photo) while blindfolded, there is a connection necessary that goes beyond familiarity and the physical. It becomes a give and take of energy, an ebb and flow of two becoming one. There is no lead and follow, no you and them. It is a synergy, a melding, a swirling together into one entity guided by music.
When it’s right, and you both feel it, it is perfect. In my relationship with you, there are times when I have felt this as well. It is magic… a very special type of magic.
Today’s card is simply a reminder of those times, and how amazing and precious they are.
DECK USED: OSTARA TAROT
Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthNovember
Question: What negative thought pattern should I leave behind?
Reading Summary: Keeping everything to myself (Nine of Pentacles) because if the worry that sharing my emotional enthusiasm (Ace of Cups) will lead to unpleasant consequences (knight of Swords), and so choose to show a facade that I’m fully in control (King of Pentacles) using distractions to keep other’s attention elsewhere (Six of Cups).
Take Away: This is all about my perception of vulnerability associated with emotion. It is also about the Less-Than whisper. Sharing my emotions with others is a struggle for me, as I see my emotions as a vulnerability that, when shared, opens me up to manipulation and pain.
This is not to say that I am not genuine or true to myself, but it means that I muffle and tone down the emotional side of myself so that most only ever see the ripples on the surface and not the strong currents beneath, or I use distractions to direct people’s attention elsewhere so that they miss seeing much of anything at all.
(Side Note: This is a part of why I found you so intimidating when I first met you. You would not be distracted. Instead you looked beyond the ripples and into the depths, and refused to look away.)
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE LITTLE PRINCE