There Is Light at the End of the Tunnel

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and wasn’t really focused on anything in particular even though it was a guided meditation.   The guide took me through a breathing exercise and then spoke near the end about the new year and how important it is to step forward into the future with a mentality of hope and anticipation rather than pessimism.

The Emperor - Ostara Tarot Today’s draw is The Emperor of the Major Arcana.  I really love the imagery for this Emperor card, which speaks to me of not just dominance and control, but an earthy power behind that strength as well.

The Emperor’s appearance on this last day of the year is an encouragement.  I have been feeling very adrift and struggling with an awkward sense of directionless discomfort over the past week since the holiday rush ended.  The Emperor is a reminder that it won’t always be that way and I’ll find that familiar sense of grounded strength and surety once again soon enough.


Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question: How can I make the most of this coming year?

Fateshifter’s TarotReading Summary:  Set aside my inner conflict (Five of Swords) and instead embrace the new beginnings that the new year represents (The World) and jump in with both feet (Eight of Wands).  Give and Take (Six of Pentacles)

Take Away:  Sometimes how you take your steps forward into the future is an inspiration to others, and sometimes the way others do so can be an inspiration to us.  The cards in today’s draw is telling me to look outside myself and seek out the guidance of others to help me in embracing  the new year and all that it entails with open arms.


Year’s End Reflections

Today’s meditation was not guided and not particularly eventful.   It was a body scan that started at the top of my head and moved slowly down to the tips of my toes before focusing upon certain areas that were showing tension that needed a bit of extra work.

I often do some of my physio and stretching during my meditation, as it allows me to breathe and pause for long moments in a stretch, and that is what the second half of my meditation was is that stretch and pause routine with breathing exercises to keep me focused.

Judgement- Tarot of the Little Prince Today’s draw is the Judgement card of the Major Arcana.  The Judgement card is often about looking at the “big picture” of a person’s existence and ascertaining the value of what has been offered and done.  It is about seeking out “the right thing” and knowing whether or not you are on that path.   It is about one’s moral compass, and how one follows that compass not just in a moment or event, but overall upon one’s life path.

The message in the appearance of the Judgement card in today’s draw has to do with the year coming to an end and looking back on what I have done over the past year, taking store of the good and the bad and the lessons learned, and moving forward to do better in the year ahead.



Question:  Where can I challenge myself moving into the new year?

This Might Hurt Tarot

Reading Summary:  I need to look at finding a more seated and secure way of doing things (Nine of Pentacles) rather than allowing conflict (Five of Wands) and struggle (Seven of Wands) to always be a challenge in my path. Instead, it is important to lean upon my expertise (Eight of Pentacles) and skill to find a better way (Death).

Take Away:   There are a lot of times that I find I feed off of the stress of being overburdened with work.  I think it is probably an adrenaline thing.  The thing is, though… it’s not healthy.  Not physically, or mentally, or emotionally.   One of the challenges I have decided to take on for the next year is finding a stronger footing and more rooted and secure way to “get my stuff done” that abandons that need for an overwhelming amount of stress.  The cards indicate the path forward to that change is through leaning on the skills and abilities I have honed over the years in relation to my craft and business.



December Story Time (Part 4 Continued from December 16th)

The Light Seer’s Tarot Into the Sunset ( The Conclusion)

Indeed, the traveler does end up needing the dragon’s help along his journey, perhaps even more than the little dragon needs his.  She keeps his hopes and spirits high (Queen of Wands) when he feels despair that they will never get free of the woods (Three of Swords), and instead of being dependent upon him, she works with him (Three of Pentacles) to find their way through the dark tangle of foreboding shadows.

As they travel together they discover a vastness to the forest which hides many secrets (The High Priestess) and they discover that although dangerous, it is also a place of exploration and discovery (Three of Wands).

As the traveler becomes more and more comfortable in the forest, and less inclined to leave (Death), he and the dragon become a team, and develop the mastery of survival in among the trees (Eight of Pentacles).

The man discovers he is happy, and no longer feels the longing for the accolades he once craved (Six of Wands).  Instead, he he finds that the companionship of the dragon has created a sense of balance (Justice) and contentment (Ten of Pentacles) in his life.

He has learned that life is better with someone to love in it, and someone to love you in turn.  Solitary life may have its benefits, and may allow for the freedom to strive for certain goals, but when you find someone to share your life with, your outlook changes and so do your goals. (The Hermit)





It’s Okay to Take It Slow

Today’s meditation was just under eleven minutes long, and focused on the shame some feel when taking a break or a needed rest.

To be honest?  I’m guilty of this.  I have a hard time allowing myself to rest and relax, and taking a break always feels like a waste of time.   It’s not.  I know that it is not a waste of time.  I know I need sleep and that sometimes I need to step aside and allow my focus to falter and my body and mind to both have a rest.   But it is…. so very difficult to let go.

It feels like if I take a break I’m wasting time I could use to make whatever I’m doing better or get more done of all that needs to be finished.

It’s something I need to work on, and this meditation today was a reminder of this, and of how it is not wrong nor a failure to rest and relax now and then.

Ten of Wands - Ostara TarotToday’s draw is Ten of Wands, which is a reiteration of the topic of my meditation for the day.   Today, the appearance of the Ten of Swords is about being overburdened and struggling under the weight of it all.

This card is a reminder that the holiday rush is over.  I am struggling with finding my balance after the whirlwind and the Ten of Wands has come to tell me to breathe, and that I don’t need to fill every minute of every day with everything that needs to be done.

It’s okay to set down some of the things I want or need to do, and take my time with others.  It’s okay to put a few things on the back burner and just ease up on those burdens instead of allowing myself to continue trying to ride the stress and adrenaline forward when there’s no need.


Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question:  How can I best honor myself in the coming year?

Sinking Wasteland Tarot

Reading Summary: Be generous with my time (Six of Pentacles) in the planning stages of new adventures (Three of Wands, because there are pitfalls (Nine of Swords) in acting too quickly (The Chariot).  Wheel of Fortune is my year card this year, and its presence in this spread indicates the ups and downs that the year has in store with me.

Take Away:  In the coming year there are going to be a lot of ups and downs.  It will be important, throughout them all, that I keep in mind the need for planning and taking my time.  Rushing into any situation that needs even a modicum of planning first will only cause problems.



Self Care Saturday (on Sunday)

As I’ve mentioned before, these readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and are not meant as a predictive reading.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?


JumperSeven of Pentacles – Be sure to allow yourself a sense of accomplishment in all areas and aspects of your experiences this week. Appreciate all you’ve done and accomplished as this year comes to a close.

EarthFive of Wands and Blue Morpho – You may need to do some fighting to obtain a level of happiness and joy in the area of work this week, but it will be worth it.

AirThe Empress and Geode – Focus on caring for the self and being kind to the self this week. Your inner self needs some love, so be sure to give it the nurturing energy and attention it needs, especially concerning your thoughts and how you talk to yourself.

WaterAce of Cups and Caiman – The new depth of emotions from the fall is starting to resurface. Be ready for hints of its arrival, as it can be sneaky and might take you by surprise if you’re not ready for it.

FireNine of Wands and Asphodel – It’s time to release the guarded feeling I’ve had concerning ideas and creativity since the fall. This week, try to focus on letting go and making peace with your creative spark, and give that inner flame a chance to breathe a bit.

WaningRaven’s Wand – Perfectionism is something that I strive for constantly, and yet I know is not something I can actually achieve. It’s time to ease up on myself and my drive to always be perfect. This doesn’t mean I have to give up on doing my best, only that I need to let go of feeling like nothing I do is good enough.

WaxingIndependence – “Good organization is the cornerstone to empowerment.” This is a quote from the guidebook for this deck, and I think it speaks volumes about where I need to focus on moving into in the week ahead. I need to ground my feet and steady myself, than move forward centered and strong.

Take Away – Acceptance, especially of the self, is key this week. This includes not just acceptance of those things that are good and right, but also your flaws and struggles. By integrating all of these things, and accepting them as a part of who you are, strength can bloom that will create the stability and strength needed to move forward confidently into the new year.


Finding Footing

Today’s meditation was non-existent, because my day turned into a bit of a clusterfuck the moment my feet hit the floor.   I did enjoy doing the char creation thing at the end of the day though.  The graphics part of things was very relaxing to me and I really appreciated that you were okay with that.

The High Priestess - Ostara Tarot Today’s draw is The High Priestess card of the Major Arcana, which means that the card is not about any one aspect of the human experience, but rather deals with more of a “big picture”.

The High Priestess card is usually an indication of the subconscious and/or intuition, but what I am really picking up from this card in today’s draw is that I am repressing.  It may not be intentionally…. in fact, I feel that it’s definitely not intentionally.   But there’s a sense of limbo over the past few days that is odd.  It’s as if I can’t quite find my stride after the holiday rush, and am still struggling with the strain even though the actual stressors from that time are no longer a part of my day.

The positive message here is in awareness and acknowledgement, and which will assist in finding a way through that limbo and back on solid footing.


Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question:  How should I greet 2020?

The Fairy Tale Tarot

Reading Summary: With an attitude of openness to new perspectives (Hanged Man) and grounded authority (The Emperor) while keeping in touch with the lessons I’ve learned in the past year (Six of Cups) when moving forward into seeking a new path with my business (Princess of Pentacles)

Take Away:  This is a continuation of my draw of the day, which spoke of finding my footing.  As the new year approaches, now is the time to find that footing and the balance I need, and to do so might mean entertaining new perspectives on how I structure my life and my time.   This is not surprising, as I am moving forward into restructuring how I run my business (behind the scenes) over the new year, and as I do this, it will be important to keep in mind the lessons I’ve learned about what works (and what doesn’t).



Timing Isn’t Always Necessary

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and focused on planning for the future.   A lot of times it seems we wait for the perfect time to start things.   The “perfect time” to find a new job, the “perfect time” to take a vacation, or the “perfect time” to fall in love.

The thing is?   There’s never a perfect time.   There’s always going to be stress going on and distractions that can get in the way.   Today’s meditation focused on this fact, and that if there’s something you want to do that might enrich your life, or something you want to experience that you are holding back on while waiting for the “perfect time”, maybe it’s time to consider that the perfect time is now.

We can always think up roadblocks and other issues to hold us back, but sometimes? It’s worth it to just take a leap and do whatever it is.  Life will continue and adjust to fit in whatever it is, and you can adapt to accommodate it as well.

Six of Swords - Tarot of the Little Prince Today’s draw is the Six of Swords, which traditionally is a representation of harmony, cooperation and vitality, as well as humanity issues and limitations in the area of the mind, intellect, and communication.  Because it comes after the conflict of the Five in this suit, it also holds representation for transitions and letting go of the bad to move on to something better.

As the young man in the card’s imagery and his trusty fox have trudged through the maze of sharp swords to get to a better place (the well), I have trudged through a lot of difficulty over the past year, and struggled a lot with being overwhelmed and over-burdened.   This is a self-caused issue, as I am the one that filled my plate to overflowing, but that didn’t make it any less overwhelming.

As I move past the holiday rush and towards the new year, the appearance of the Six of Swords is an expression of the transition that I am making.  Not just from the busiest time of year to one that is slower and more manageable, but concerning the restructuring of how I deal with the business over the next year in an effort to try something new and more manageable than I’ve been doing thus far.


Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question: What parting message does 2019 have for me?

Darkness of Light Tarot

Reading Summary:  Learn from the lessons this year has taught me (The Hierophant) and move forward into the new year (The Universe) with a sense of optimism and hope (The Star) as well as a focus on finding a stable path forward (Four of Coins).

Take Away:  The center card is the focus in this reading, speaking of stability in the area of finances, and a need to be a bit more miserly in the upcoming year than I have been in 2019.  The cards surrounding the central theme speak of learning from the lessons I’ve picked up along the path, and remembering to stay open and optimistic in my path forward into the new year and new start it brings with it.



#IAmAFortuneTeller (non) VR to Mary-Grace Fahrun

Okay, so the Pagan Perspective is definitely on a holiday break.  So, I decided to do one of my (non)VRs today in place of a response to their regular videos.

One of my favorite content creators, Mary-Grace Fahrun, did a video on YouTube at the end of November about how she uses tarot and about the stigma behind the use of cartomancy for predictive readings. She included a tag for responses, and I very much enjoyed her video and wanted to do a response.


Like Mary-Grace, I grew up with cartomancy. In my case it was Lenormand cards, then playing cards, and then tarot. In my experience, Lenormand in particular is all about handing you a roadmap of potholes along your path.

I don’t know where the judgement against predictive readings stemmed from, or why it is so prevalent among modern day readers, but it is very prevalent and highly frowned upon by a large majority of card readers out there.

Somewhere in my teens was when I ran into this issue.  I was told that 3rd party readings and predictive readings are ethically wrong, and for a while I fought against using the cards in that way… but honestly? I gave up on that rather quickly.

Interestingly, I am not as strong at reading the past as I am at reading the present and future.

Intuition is intuition, and that information is going to come through whether I want it to or not. So I had a good look at my own moral compass and values and decided that for me? Both 3rd party and predictive aspects are a part of it, or I don’t read cards… because it just comes naturally. And I sure as hell am not hanging up my decks!!

I honestly do not understand why it is considered taboo or why people look down their noses at readers that do fortune telling (predictive readings, telling the future, etc).  I’ve had people say it’s about clients seeing the predictions as written in stone, or taking away choice, etc.  But the fact is?   That is in the presentation, NOT in the predictive aspect.

Doing predictive readings requires the responsibility and sensitivity to make sure those you read for are aware of the fluidity of the future, and how even just having the reading can have the possibility of changing the results, because knowledge is power.  It requires empowering people, so that they can build the future that they want, and be prepared for what is coming.

Any tarot reader, no matter the type of readings they do, has the ability to take away people’s choices and diminish their power.  Not just during predictive readings.  You are tapping into their needs and wants, desires, fears, and the depths of their psyche.  And that requires sensitivity and respect and a sense of responsibility.

So yes… I am a fortuneteller.  I am not ashamed of that.  It’s how my intuition works and fighting against my intuition or ignoring my intuition’s voice is just… not the path for me.


Stepping Out of the Cycle

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and focused on looking beyond the self.  In this case, it was about how we can at times get lost in our thoughts and allow them to create anxiety, discomfort, or negativity.

When you are lost in a thought and experiencing these things, sometimes it can help to take a step back emotionally and realize that they really are just thoughts. Often?  They are predictive thought that is baseless other than being created by riding on our worries or anxieties.

As our thoughts are often cyclical, once thoughts like this settle in, they begin to repeat and repeat, building on themselves again and again. In doing so, they can build on worries, stress, and anxiety as well, which can become overwhelming.  In stepping back and acknowledging that these thoughts are not reality but just thoughts, it allows us to set those thoughts aside, and eases those feelings of stress and negativity.

The Moon - Ostara Tarot Today’s draw is the Moon card, which is the eighteenth card of the Major Arcana, and deals with topics in in the areas of uncertainty and fear, anxieties and the unknown, the subconscious, and confusion.

The topic goes really well with today’s meditation. Sometimes uncertainty is a good thing because it gives you time to pause, think, and reassess.  Today’s meditation is about taking that pause, assessing what is real and what is just thoughts as a projection of what’s in your heart and head instead of reality, and reassessing the situation to find a better outlook.

I think that everyone falls into this habit of “doom day” type thought cycles now and then. I’m no different.  Today’s draw is a good reminder not to let myself get carried away by the unknown.


Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question:  What can I do to create better focus on the topic of yesterday’s read without overburdening myself?

Wayhome Tarot

Reading Summary:  To avoid burnout (Ten of Wands) I need to plot a course (Three of Wands) and stick to it (The Chariot) or I’ll have to pay the consequences (Justice).

Take Away:  (Just sayin’… but I really love this deck.)  Essentially if I don’t want to upset the apple cart and have my responsibilities and interests all come toppling into a mess on the floor, I need to make a plan on how I want to move forward.  One that will help me avoid giving myself burnout, which I am very good at doing.  And then, once that plan is made?  Stick to it.



Surprise Divination Activity

I would like you to follow along and do this one in comments.

Intuition Exercise:   Let’s see how the new year will go. Set a music playlist to shuffle then select the 4th song. Listen to it, and use your intuition to pick up on any messages or imagery that sticks out. What song did you get and how do you think your new year will be based on what you picked up from the song?

Interpretation:  Nostalgic and conflicted. I have a lot of restructuring of methods and practices to do over the New Year. Changing gears is hard and it’s difficult not to fall back on old habits. The lessons I’ve learned over the past year have made it clear I need to change up how I’m doing things, though. It’s just not going to be easy.

This style of divination is called Shufflemancy.

Exercise Source: Discord (Server name withheld due to server rules.)