Today’s meditation was just under eleven minutes long, and focused on the shame some feel when taking a break or a needed rest.
To be honest? I’m guilty of this. I have a hard time allowing myself to rest and relax, and taking a break always feels like a waste of time. It’s not. I know that it is not a waste of time. I know I need sleep and that sometimes I need to step aside and allow my focus to falter and my body and mind to both have a rest. But it is…. so very difficult to let go.
It feels like if I take a break I’m wasting time I could use to make whatever I’m doing better or get more done of all that needs to be finished.
It’s something I need to work on, and this meditation today was a reminder of this, and of how it is not wrong nor a failure to rest and relax now and then.
Today’s draw is Ten of Wands, which is a reiteration of the topic of my meditation for the day. Today, the appearance of the Ten of Swords is about being overburdened and struggling under the weight of it all.
This card is a reminder that the holiday rush is over. I am struggling with finding my balance after the whirlwind and the Ten of Wands has come to tell me to breathe, and that I don’t need to fill every minute of every day with everything that needs to be done.
It’s okay to set down some of the things I want or need to do, and take my time with others. It’s okay to put a few things on the back burner and just ease up on those burdens instead of allowing myself to continue trying to ride the stress and adrenaline forward when there’s no need.
DECK USED: OSTARA TAROT
Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember
Question: How can I best honor myself in the coming year?
Reading Summary: Be generous with my time (Six of Pentacles) in the planning stages of new adventures (Three of Wands, because there are pitfalls (Nine of Swords) in acting too quickly (The Chariot). Wheel of Fortune is my year card this year, and its presence in this spread indicates the ups and downs that the year has in store with me.
Take Away: In the coming year there are going to be a lot of ups and downs. It will be important, throughout them all, that I keep in mind the need for planning and taking my time. Rushing into any situation that needs even a modicum of planning first will only cause problems.
DECK USED: SINKING WASTELAND TAROT