Alacrity Can’t Always Be Logical

Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long and focused upon keeping in mind the temporary nature of negative emotions.

This is a practice that I use often, especially during my depression.   In fact, it is one of the things that very much helped me in getting hold of my suicidal urges during my Major Depressive Episodes prior to finding a medication that actually helped me with said urges.

The problem is that when you’re in the middle of a deep depression, it feels like it’s never going to end.  That darkness closes in and it feels like that is all there is and all there will ever be forever. Learning to accept that the experience is temporary, no matter how permanent it feels like it might be, gives you something to cling to.  And when there’s only room for one focus.  One thought.  One word…. “it’s temporary” becomes a mantra to get you through those darkest hours in the pit.

Ostara Tarot Today’s draw is the Knight of Swords, with the Eight of Wands as a jumper that fell out to land atop the Knight.   And that is a whole lot of action in the space of two cards, yeah?  Except what I’m seeing here is a bit of a mix between an intuitive hit and traditional meaning.

This is because what I see is that when I am feeling driven to act swiftly, sometimes you have to take your head out of the equation and act from the heart instead.   It doesn’t change the swiftness of the actions needed, but it is a shift in -where- that action comes from.   Sometimes, you have to listen to your heart and your gut, and set your mind aside so that what should be swift action doesn’t turn into conflict.

DECK USED:  OSTARA TAROT

Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question:  How can I continue a practice of growth and healing moving forward?

New Era Elements Tarot

Reading Summary: Acknowledge your inner strength (Strength) and resiliency that will allow you to transition through changes in life (Two of Earth) without falling apart emotionally (Son of Water).

Take Away:  Change can suck.  Even when it’s good change, there’s often a feeling of struggle and anxiety involved in the process.   This stress can cause an emotional reaction, but as I learn to better understand and deal with my emotions, my inner strength will continue to grow and I will, in turn, be better prepared for future changes to come.

DECK USED:  NEW ERA ELEMENTS TAROT

Self Care Saturday (on Sunday)

As I’ve mentioned before, these readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and are not meant as a predictive reading.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

SCS

EarthThe Moon, Six of Cups, Mandala – There is currently a restructuring and shift of focus going on, and I need to be sure that during this shift I am focusing on a sense of pleasure in those changes I like, rather than the uncertainty involved in the changes that might trigger my anxiety.

AirThe World and Community – As indicated with the Mandala card in the position of Earth, the World card indicates a change and shift. It speaks of the completion of the chaos that the fall has been for me and a return to a more harmonious time. The reminder here is to not discount the benefits of those around me and the support they can bring to the table during the transitions taking place.
I received the World card in my Winter/Yule spread today as well (with a different deck), also in the Air position. This indicates that the message here goes beyond just the week and may stretch through the season as a whole.

WaterThe Tower and The Message – Change is extremely difficult on the emotions, which is an area in which I am not the strongest confidence-wise to begin with. That can create a “the sky is falling” feeling that can turn my emotions into an fuck-all mess beneath the surface. The cards indicate this experience, but also provide encouragement for me to not close off. Instead, take care to remain open and receptive.

FireNine of Cups and The Owl – I don’t need to worry about what I need to move forward in my business at the moment. Everything is in order and when the time is right, it will be there for me. At the moment, I need to instead direct my intention towards more personal interests, including my spirituality.

WaningIntelligence – (intuitive hit off imagery) It’s time to get out of my head and stop over thinking everything.

WaxingMove and Kitchen Magick – This is an echo of the Fire position, and speaks of having what I need to move forward when the timing is right, but that for now I need to focus more upon personal interests and my spirituality.

Take Away – Set aside business matters and financial anxieties for the week ahead. Things are going to be slow. You know things are going to be slow. This isn’t a surprise, so don’t let it tangle you up in worry, stress, and anxiety to the point you think the end is neigh. Instead, now is the time to focus on self care and development. Allow yourself time to explore some of your more esoteric interests and re-align yourself spiritually for the year ahead.

DECKS USED: THE 5-CENT TAROT, L’ORACLE DES REFLETS, THE MAGICK AND MEDIUMS ORACLE