Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long and focused upon keeping in mind the temporary nature of negative emotions.
This is a practice that I use often, especially during my depression. In fact, it is one of the things that very much helped me in getting hold of my suicidal urges during my Major Depressive Episodes prior to finding a medication that actually helped me with said urges.
The problem is that when you’re in the middle of a deep depression, it feels like it’s never going to end. That darkness closes in and it feels like that is all there is and all there will ever be forever. Learning to accept that the experience is temporary, no matter how permanent it feels like it might be, gives you something to cling to. And when there’s only room for one focus. One thought. One word…. “it’s temporary” becomes a mantra to get you through those darkest hours in the pit.
Today’s draw is the Knight of Swords, with the Eight of Wands as a jumper that fell out to land atop the Knight. And that is a whole lot of action in the space of two cards, yeah? Except what I’m seeing here is a bit of a mix between an intuitive hit and traditional meaning.
This is because what I see is that when I am feeling driven to act swiftly, sometimes you have to take your head out of the equation and act from the heart instead. It doesn’t change the swiftness of the actions needed, but it is a shift in -where- that action comes from. Sometimes, you have to listen to your heart and your gut, and set your mind aside so that what should be swift action doesn’t turn into conflict.
DECK USED: OSTARA TAROT
Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember
Question: How can I continue a practice of growth and healing moving forward?
Reading Summary: Acknowledge your inner strength (Strength) and resiliency that will allow you to transition through changes in life (Two of Earth) without falling apart emotionally (Son of Water).
Take Away: Change can suck. Even when it’s good change, there’s often a feeling of struggle and anxiety involved in the process. This stress can cause an emotional reaction, but as I learn to better understand and deal with my emotions, my inner strength will continue to grow and I will, in turn, be better prepared for future changes to come.