Fertilized Roots

Today’s meditation was skipped (again).

The Lost Tarot - Two of WandsToday’s draw is the Two of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of planning, direction, looking ahead, and future planning that often involves strategy and decision making.

A child playing dress up as the knight he’ll some day become. That is what I see in the imagery for today’s card.

We all had dreams and aspirations when we were young.  Often, they change as we grow older. Our dreams to become princesses and space men turn into more practical things with age.  That’s what growing up is all about.

Today’s card is a reminder of those long ago dreams. It’s about where we come from… and where we’re going.  It’s about looking at those dreams of childhood and acknowledging that they are the fertilizer of the roots from which we have grown, and appreciate how they have influenced who we have become.


ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Questions for May 17th thru 19th

Tarotgazing Deck and The Hero's Journey Dream OracleWhat desires and drives have escaped my control?

Six of Vessels and The Thin Thin Veil – The influences of your past are still dictating a great deal of your current behavior, proving that when someone passes on, their influences continue to remain for as long as you allow them to.

How can I develop self-mastery?

The Star and You Are Invited – Work at lifting yourself up. Optimism and positivity can give you the strength to break through recalcitrant behavior and join the world more fully. This in turn will give you greater control over your unhealthy habits.

What limits does reality impose on my dreams?

The Tower, The Call atop Be Reborn Daily – Reality will continue to tear things down so that you have to rebuild them into something better. Sometimes this is going to impose limits on your dreams, and at other times it will be a catalyst to changing your dreams entirely into something new and better.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 17th and 18th

The Lost TarotHow can I say no to others and be kind?

Be sensitive to their fears (The Star) and use the tools at your disposal (The Magus) to turn around the rejection into something new (Death).

Build hope instead of just shooting someone down on the spot. You can always offer a different perspective or a new opportunity out of a rejection instead of just leaving it as a rejection in and of itself.

What makes it difficult for me to say no to others?

It’s hard for you, in new relationships and friendships (Ace of Cups), to be able to predict how people are going to react (Wheel of Fortune), and you often then worry that if you say no it will turn into a huge chaotic mess of a problem (The Blasted Tower).

This is not usually a problem until you are feeling vulnerable, because during those times conflict isn’t something that you’re particularly prepared to deal with gracefully.


Daily Self Kindness

I’m still playing catch-up and like the last couple of posts, I don’t remember what I might have done as self-kindness during this time, but I know that it was during my time off so I at least got some good rest.

Shining Light Into the Darkness

Today’s meditation was skipped.

AlcheMystical TarotToday’s draw is the Moon card, which is traditionally a representation of uncertainty, illusion, fear of the unknown, anxiety, and the subconscious.

The brightness of this card is what draws my attention in the imagery for this deck.  It’s so very bright that there are no shadows.  Nowhere to hide.  Nothing that cannot be seen clearly, as if it were the sun hung in the sky instead of the moon.

This card’s message for today is to take the time to think through the things you are worried about, identify where you are stuck in a rut due to fear of the unknown, and shine a light on those things so that they will become less intimating and more manageable.


ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Questions for May 14th thru 16th

Messages From the Ancestors Oracle and The Zenned Out Journey TarotWhat has been my foundational experience with love?

Five of Pentacles and Earth – Scarcity of love, support, and stability while growing up, perpetuated by those that should love you unconditionally.

What kind of people am I attracted to?

Nine of Swords and Caregiver – Those supportive of my mental health struggles. While I don’t need someone to hold my hand all the time, when I am struggling with a major depressive episode, I require people around me that are willing to be both patient and supportive.

What kind of people do I attract?

Ten of Cups and Holy One – You attract those that want to be a part of things. Those that respect your spiritual path and help in supporting your pursuit of personal happiness that includes them in the mix.


The #MysticStarChallenge for May Prompt
Questions for May 17th and 18th

AlcheMystical TarotHow will this Spring Cleaning impact me?

Six of Water and Eight of Air – It will provide an opportunity to reconnect with things in the past that you have previously been willfully blind to.

How can I nurture myself so that I can release all that I can right now?

The Hanged Man and Eight of Fire – Remember that one perspective is never the only perspective. Don’t jump to conclusions too quickly.  Instead, take the time needed to consider multiple angles before acting.


Daily Self Kindness

I’m still playing catch up.  I know that I got a lot of rest during this stretch of time off, though.

Pity Parties Are Not Productive

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Kittycorn TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victimized mentality.

The imagery in today’s car is about drama… so much drama.  It’s about the idea that when you are too wrapped up in the drama, it can blind you to the truth of the situation and the world around you as a whole.

Don’t allow feelings of upheaval, self pity, and negativity hold you back from seeing the path forward.  Take a moment to breathe and untangle yourself from the drama and upheaval it causes within you, so that you can look at things more clearly.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for May 15th
: Do Spread #2
Question: How can I foster more motivation to get things done in my life?

Vintage Cartoon Post Card Set and Japanese Anime TarotReading Summary: There is a lot of color in the base card for today’s reading. The other cards in the reading are then bringing certain colors to the forefront in the base card. Usually it’s the base card that determines where connections in color lie and the satellite cards then work off of that base card. Here we see it is the other way around.

The Three of Wands in the Six of Wands connect on their own due to their similar color scheme, the arc of stars in each card’s background, and the fact that out of all the characters present in this reading they are the only two not looking directly at the viewer. This then connects with Sailor Moon herself and the skirt of the Sailor Mars character on the right.  The combination of S Moon and S Mars, joined with these two cards, speaks of finding a balance between one’s inner compass and what social expectations.

The Magician is blue dominant, and connects with the Sailor Mercury on the left in Sailor Moon’s entourage. The two characters even have a similar smile.  Sailor Mercury’s personality is quite timid, quiet, and peace loving. Connected to the Magician card, we see here a need to keep one’s ego in check.

Furthermore, the character in the Six of Wands it’s looking directly up into the Sailor Moon card and all of the characters collected there, drawing attention to the fact that comrade can be a powerful motivator. The Three of Wands, meanwhile, is looking away and towards the past as if to say you can’t depend on others for everything when following your own path.

Take Away: The answer in these cards is that in order to foster the motivation needed in your life right now, you need to not depend on yourself alone.  Yes, some of it needs to come from within and with the knowledge that you are capable and strong, and able to reach for and accomplish the things you need to do.  But there is also another part that needs the input of your social circle, the help of others in lifting you up and sparking that motivational fire within.  It’s a balance of both that is needed here.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 16th and 17th

Kittycorn TarotWhat loss do you fear the most?

The Sun and Eight of Pentacles – I fear the depression coming in and stealing away everything that I’ve worked so hard for in life. It’s so easy when you’re in the pit and there is no light and it looks like there is no future for anything except the darkness you feel eating away at you inside to give in and let go. Should I give in and let go I would lose everything.

This isn’t about suicide, although I’ve had far more than enough of that urge in my past. It’s about giving up and just allowing the depression to swallow me whole, which in turn would cause my life to implode.

What is a better way to confront and/or deal with fear of loss?

Six of Swords and King of Cups – It doesn’t have to be a solitary value and you need to move away from a mindset that tries to convince you you have to do it on your own. Lean into those who support you emotionally and will be there to help you stay as balanced and stable as possible during these times.


Daily Self Kindness

I am playing catch up at the moment, so I don’t exactly remember what my self care was for today.  It was my second day in my time off, though.

Self Inflicted Wounds

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Le Tarot Aux Ramures Étranges - Nine of SwordsToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victim mentality.

The figure in the imagery of this card looks as if she is injured and bleeding. There are thorns upon her bindings, and red taints the skin, hair, and even the thorns themselves.

The message in today’s cards is that when you choose willful ignorance, victim mentality, and other negative inner narratives, the damage goes beyond the moment and stretches into the future.  Wounds are created and need time and attention to be healed.  The longer you ignore the problem, the longer it will take to tend and heal these wounds.

Tend your wounds instead of ignoring them.  Self care requires acknowledging what needs tending, and making the effort to resolve the problem instead of sitting in the misery.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for May 14th: How am I different in romantic relationships?

Magic Flower Movement TarotReading Summary: I need someone who I can learn from on an emotional level (Page of Cups), and who is okay with having differences of opinion as long as we’re willing to hash it out (Five of Wands). Someone that understands that alone time is important to my well-being (The Hermit).

Take Away: These cards are about sharing and trust. In a romantic relationship, I am far more trusting than I am with other relationships in my life. I need that trust between myself and my romantic partner. Trust that they will guide me without selfish reasons when I need guidance, trust that they will hash out differences with me when they arise.  Trust that they will understand my needs and strive to help me in fulfilling them even when those needs might go against their wants.

Gideon fills all of these needs for me and is, in fact, my first and only romantic relationship. I’d have a lot of flings and did a lot of sleeping around before him, but I’ve not had another romantic relationship other than him… ever.


The #MysticStarChallenge for May Prompt
Questions for May 14th thru 16th

Coastal Curiosities Oracle and Le Tarot Aux Ramures Étranges - Nine of SwordsWhat card symbolizes the Spring Cleaning that I need to focus on?

Le Diable and Admire – You need to get going on the sorting and culling of your collection. This means that you need to go through things that need going through, donate what needs donated and get things organized in order to get the shelves up and get things going in that direction. You’ve put it off long enough.

How can I utilize this Spring Cleaning to my advantage?

L’amoureaux and Pursue – It will help you in getting on the right track to making positive and healthy choices for yourself in other areas of your life. Once you get the ball rolling, it will then begin to pick up momentum to continue forward on its own.

How can I support this cleaning process for my Greater Good?

As de Pentacles atop Reine de Pentacles, Depth – Dive in! Connect with your inner strengths that allow you to find your balance, and treat this as a new passion project as well as an opportunity to support yourself and make positive change. New and old will combine into something better.


Daily Self Kindness

I had a lazy day today.  Other than pulling cards, I haven’t really done much of anything productive with my day.  I slept in.  Enjoyed a nap.  And just pretty much tooled around throughout the day.

All Kinds of Work

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Animated Movies Tarot - Eight of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Eight of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of hard work, expertise through practice, honing a skill, quality craftsmanship, handicrafts, and manifestations through skill and hard work.

Research is a part of skill development. To be fair, I would usually consider Bella from Beauty and the Beast to be of the Swords suit, as she was very an intellectual in nature. That said… research is absolutely a part of developing a skill and furthering that skill into an expertise, and that is what we see here in the imagery for this card.

Today’s card is a reminder that not all hard work is hard labor. Sometimes digging into this work is more about learning from others first.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for May 14th
: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this upcoming full moon?

Le Chakra Du Cœur OracleReading Summary: You need to take some time this full moon to look at what inner wounds you are continuing to hold onto (Amour de Soi), and take action to move past them (Libre Arbitre) so that you can embrace a healthier and more growth positive relationship with yourself and the world around you (Relation Différente).

Take Away: Throughout February through April, I dealt with a major depressive episode, and there continue to be lingering effects from this time.  The stain of it is still influencing me even now that I am out of the pit, and these cards suggest that this full moon is the time to begin making the changes needed that will shake off the remaining dregs of depression’s influence and so that I can move forward into something better.


ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Question for May 13th
: How have I challenged the status quo?

Animated Movies TarotReading Summary: You follow your own moral compass (Judgement) and choose what is right for you (Two of Swords atop The Lovers) instead of blindly following along to what others say you should think and do (The Fool).

Take Away:  I challenge the status quo by being my own man and the fierce independence that keeps me honed in on what my own intuition, moral compass, and ethics say rather than depending on others, society, or popular opinion decide for me what is right or wrong.  Due to this, societal pressures and peer pressure rarely have any influence other than providing me with a new perspective to consider.


Daily Self Kindness

I skipped going to Costco and Walmart yesterday.  I just felt like it would make the day too long.

Weighing One’s Alone Time

Today’s meditation was skipped.

The Returning of Panthera TarotToday’s draw is the Hermit card, which is traditionally a representation of solitude, self reflection and introspection, alone time, and inner guidance.

Usually, the figure in the hermit card holds a lit lantern that symbolizes enlightenment.  Here, the lantern is abandoned as the figure moves off into the vast landscape beyond.

To me, the shift in this imagery from the traditional poses the question whether one’s alone time is truly healthy, and filled with growth and introspection… or if it is unhealthy alone that is unproductive and leaves one feeling more lost than ever.

That is the message for today’s card.  It’s important to examine that alone time that indulge in and whether it’s healthy and productive… or unhealthy and holding us back.


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
: Draw or write something free form inspired by the card(s).

The Good TarotWith breathless wonder
I pause upon the trail
And take a brief rest
I look up into the canopy above

In silence and stillness
I hear the whispers of the trees
And then the tittering laughter
Of those hidden and watching

And my feet move to follow
To seek their fun and frivolity
And with one more step
I cross the veil
Into Faerie


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 12th, 13th, 15th, and 16th

The Returning of Panthera TarotHow can I heal from pain and disappointment?

Knight of Cups – Instead of focusing on what has caused this pain and disappointment, actively focus on what you want and what will make you happy.

What do I need so I can forgive myself?

The Lovers atop The Emperor – Prioritize healthy choices that are right for you over unhealthy controlling behavior that has you trying to cram yourself into a too small box. Square pegs don’t fit in round holes.

How does a close relationship challenge me?

Ace of Wands and The Hermit – Social obligations are something you struggle with due to your need for so much alone time. This often ends up making it difficult to express your enthusiasm for others and their company, regardless of how much they mean to you.

What are my relationship deal breakers?

Two of Wands Rx – Lack of consideration and forethought. Just as I do for them, I expect those I’m in a relationship with to consider my feelings before taking action.

Knight of Wands Rx – Lack of interest. I need relationships where they are willing to pester me into spending time with them. This balances out my solitary hermit-like inclinations.

The Fool atop Ace of Cups – Too much naïve frivolity. It borders on stupidity (and often insensitivity towards others) when one just chases after their “emotional sweet spot” all the time, and I just don’t have tolerance for that sort of behavior.


Daily Self Kindness

I added spinach to my tuna today.  I chopped it up in tiny pieces like chives and mixed it into the tuna, and you couldn’t even taste it was there… but gave me a bit of extra veggies for the day.