Sharing Is Caring

Today’s meditation was thwarted twice… er, well, three times.  The first time, it was interrupted by a phone call from Ms B giving us all an update.  The second time, I might’ve kinda dozed off a bit.  Okay so I accidentally napped.  The third time?  It was Ms B calling again.

Tarot Morandi and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Queen of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s intellect, reason, education, aspirations, and communication. This often translates into the theme of someone who is strong and intelligent, has a good deal of advice and help to offer, and is able to listen before opening their mouths, so that the advice they give is informed by what has been said.

When combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message here is that it’s in our uniqueness we find the things that we are best at, and the things that we are able to offer others advice and guidance on.

If everyone was the same, we would all have the same strengths and the same weaknesses, the same experiences and the same blind spots.  There would be no opportunity to share with each other the things that make us each unique, and teach each other things that the other may not know or understand.  Instead, because we are all different and unique, we have things to offer each other, help to give… and that is not just unique, but very special.


#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
: Do Spread #2
Question: Why am I not so ready and eager to hop back into my creative endeavors?

Tarot MorandiReading Summary: The Ace of Coins and The Empress both face in the direction of the past, speaking of enjoying the newness of taking better care of myself and enjoying the grounded feeling it provides.

The Queen of Swords faces in the direction of the future, speaking of a harsh taskmaster and a return to going back into my head.

Two against one, I’m pulled towards that grounding and self-care right now Instead of responsibilities and practicality.

Take Away:  Essentially I crave being nicer to myself and I’m struggling with “buckling down” to work when what I really am craving is a bit more personal time and quiet.


Daily Self Kindness

I am currently playing catch-up on posts… and I can’t remember what I might’ve done on this day to be kind to myself.

Finding The Groove

IMG_0302Today’s meditation was just over twenty minutes long (cuz I might’ve maybe napped in the middle for a few minutes.  I’m petty sure).   It was a self guided meditation based upon the quote posted to the right.  I didn’t make the graphic, but rather I ran across it on IG and used it as a prompt for my meditation.

Sometimes I forget to take that extra bit of time to savor the moment, and sometimes my meditation needs a bit of a focus.  This reminder of something that I often forget to do in my day to day life was the perfect prompt to give me something to focus on.   I don’t think dozing off was a “failure” in this meditation, but rather an indication of just how relaxed I was able to become during the process.

Cent Proverbes Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support CardsToday’s draw is the Page of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, intuition, and creativity. This receptive energy often translates into themes concerning emotional growth, learning creative pursuits, and allowing imagination and curiosity to take the lead.

What stands out to me in the imagery on this particular Page of Cups card today is that the man stands alone.  Content… and alone.

I’ve been having a hard time getting back into the swing of things as I begin to pick up on my work after taking the week off.  With many orders waiting to be created and prepared for shipment, I’ve been trying to space out the work so that I am not overwhelmed the closer shipment day comes.

Today’s Page of Cups and his solitary nature combined with the Thera-Pets card for today indicated that i would “find my groove” in my creative endeavors today, but it might take a bit and be a bit of a struggle.  That it -could- be done though, if I’m tenacious about it.

I found that the secret to tapping into my creativity today and getting the work done that I needed to do was about tactile sensations.  It was about the fun of playing with little charms and admiring their tiny details, feeling the delicate weight of each one between my fingertips, and really sinking into the tactile experience of the creative process.  I did find that creative connection, but I had to look for it… and not allow distractions to detract from my sinking into that groove once I’d found it.


The #httSelfImprovementTarotChallenge Prompt
: How can I feel more secure?

Dreaming Cat Tarot

Reading Summary: Take charge (King of Wands) at home (Four of Wands), and use reason and logic (Ace of Wands) to help in sorting out misunderstandings (Five of Wands).

Take Away:  In other words, sit everyone down and let’s talk it out. Conflict happens in close quarters.  Sometimes there’s just no way to avoid it, you know?  It happens between me and the girls, between the girls themselves, and between me and them individually at times.  It’s just a lot sometimes, and we all have strong personalities and strong opinions that usually align… but not always.

During those times when we disagree, it can really upset that sense of security that I foster in the home, and the advice here is that during those times I need to take charge of the situation and facilitate communication instead of just staying out of it and risking whatever the disagreement is having a destabilizing influence.


#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Cent Proverbes TarotReading Summary: If you depend on the good opinion of others for your self-esteem (Sun moving into the Six of Wands), you will continually be disappointed (Three of Swords atop The Sun) and end up even more miserable and stressed (Nine of Swords) out as a result (Justice Rx atop Nine of Swords).

Take Away:  For self care moving forward from the new moon, I needed a reminder to look to myself for my self esteme and self-worth… not to others.  This can be a slippery slope for most people, and I’m no exception.  Sometimes it feels really good to get praise from others, or to be looked upon favorably by others.  It just does.

The key, though, is to not let those good experiences transform into approval seeking behavior.  When that happens, you start to then lose control of your own self esteem and self worth.  You begin depending on others to provide that for you.  And that’s not healthy.


Daily Self Kindness

I made chocolate chip cookies.  But… not the long and entailed recipe of chocolate chip cookies.  I mean that’s the BEST kind, true.  But rather, I made them from frozen dough because I just wanted cookies without the work.

Take Your Time

Today’s meditation was skipped in preference for a nap instead.  We played really late last night, and I needed the extra sleep.

TPagan Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal Cardsoday’s draw is the Devil card, which is traditionally a representation of self inflicted situations brought about through themes dealing with temptations, addictions, and obsession.  For some this can speak directly to self destructive tendencies, while for others it is more about unhealthy urges that are not so much about self destruction as they are about pleasure or enjoyment… but can lead to detrimental outcomes if indulged in too often.

The thing is?  Almost anything and everything can be bad for you if you don’t apply a bit of moderation and control.  Anything.  And that is the message that the Devil card offers us more often than not.

In this particular card, the theme is more about peer pressure and doing things against your better judgement in the pursuit of approval. This theme in particular, combined with today’s Thera-Pet card is an indication that sometimes rest and recuperation is needed and you shouldn’t let the judgement from others keep you from taking that rest and recovery time that you need.

Healing takes time, and everyone heals at their own rate.  What one person might bounce back from in a few days may take someone else months to recover from.  This is true whether it’s about a physical injury, a mental health issue, a blow to one’s confidence, and many other scenarios where recovery time is needed.

Don’t allow your own unreasonable expectations nor those of others to push you into rushing your recovery.  Heal at your own pace, the pace that is healthy for you.  If they can’t understand that?  That’s their problem… not yours.


The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
: Taurus Season is Coming – In which areas am I being stubborn or bullish?

Quirky Creatives Tarot

Reading Summary:  Standing tall and ignoring the bad stuff (Strength) doesn’t mean the bad stuff goes away (Nine of Swords), it just spills over in other ways (Temperance Rx).

Take Away: These cards are essentially saying “Hey jackass, it’s not going to be the end of the world if you show a little bit more vulnerability to those around you.”  I have a habit of ignoring that which does not serve my means and ends.  Which means a lot of times when things are bothering me, I will turn away and ignore it, try to bury it, and just move on.

The problem?  My mind does not allow it to be that easy and as a result, these things can sometimes fester under the surface and end up causing anxiety and other stress related issues.  These issues then spill over to begin disrupting the inter-connectivity and balance going on in the rest of my life.


#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
: What does it mean to live a good life?

Pagan TarotReading Summary: There is a time in life for seriousness and responsibility (Ten of Wands). There is a time in life for frivolity and having fun and being irresponsible (The Fool).

It is being able to differentiate between the two and applying each in its proper place that helps build good life (Two of Swords).

Take Away: You need both. Living a good life involves having both serious and responsible aspects, and balancing them with fun and frivolity. Too much of one or the other leads to an imbalance. So too can indulging in the wrong one at the wrong time.


Daily Self Kindness

I started working again today.  I didn’t really want to, but it’s for the best that I at least worked on getting a few things done so that life won’t be quite as stressful in the next few days as I prepare to get orders done and shipped out.

Do The Thing

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was more of a quiet reflection time with measured breathing and piriformis stretching than the guided meditations that I’m used to.   That’s because I ran across this little graphic (to the right) and it really hit home on me today.

Resonating as it did, I decided to spend my meditation thinking on it, reflecting about what it had to say, and taking the advice given there to heart.  I know this advice is good, as it’s something that the cards have said to me many times.  Especially during recovery from my MDEs when I feel like I should be recovering faster, and yet the lingering traces seem to stretch on and on far longer than I’ve anticipated they might.

Inspiration Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is is the High Priestess card, which is traditionally about hidden knowledge and secret wisdom. It’s about the subconscious and an understanding of these quiet, secret places that we all have within us, and what lies within those places.  The High Priestess is about finding those places, about rousing one’s intuition, and reading between the lines.

There is an element of self love in the depiction of this particular High Priestess.  It lies within her posture and the tilt of her hand, the position of her hands, the eyes that lie closed instead of open indicating looking inward.

The addition of the Thera-Pets card indicates an experience earlier today when one of my clients reached out for a reading.  I was feeling a little unsure of myself as I’ve been feeling quite tender the last couple of days. That sensation of tender vulnerability can sometimes make reading for others difficult.   I did warn them of this prior to the reading, and they were good with going ahead anyway, though.

The reading went well and it turns out I really had nothing to worry about.  Sometimes?  You just have to do the thing and trust that it’s going to work out.


The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
How can I better ground myself at this time?

Petrak Tarot

Reading Summary: There is a color progression between these three cards that indicates how they should be red.  The depth of red in the Knight of Wands corresponds to the deep red in the lower half of the Six of Discs.  The connection here threads through the center Five of swords, but only barely.  The connection is also present between the center Five of Swords and the end Six of Discs through the depth of blue, also, the connection between the center card and the Knight of Wands is minimal.

What these connections say is that I need to make sure that I’m rooting myself in the Red.  Rooting myself, therefore, in the things that “light my fire” and spark my enthusiasm.  The blue is shared only at the top of all three cards.  The location of the blue hues combined with their depth speaks of the mind.  The Five of Swords touching upon the Six of Discs within the mind’s arena is about pulling back on the battle to reason my way out of doing the stuff that is good for me… avoiding being generous with myself.

Take Away:  The cards here are speaking about my time out in nature either hiking or forest bathing.  I have a great deal of pleasure and enthusiasm for this, and it helps me immensely in staying balanced and grounded.  But I find myself from time to time forcing myself to not do the things that help me feel better.  This is a self destructive urge manifesting into reluctance for self care… and the encouragement  here is to DO THE THING.  Be generous to myself and get my ass out there.


#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
: What piece of advice is needed right now to help you achieve your dreams?

Inspiration TarotReading Summary:  When uncertainty clouds your view (The Moon… eyes closed) make sure that you are tapping into your inner generosity (Six of Pentacles) and giving yourself room to ground, stabilize, and provide yourself the nurturing nourishment you need (Queen of Pentacles).  Also, take time to talk to Z (Six of Pentacles beside Queen of Pentacles)

Take Away: The message in these cards is twofold.  Both relate to situations and instances when I’m feeling the need to shirk away from confusion and feeling particularly uncomfortable with “being in the dark”.

During these times, these cards indicate that I need to pause and remember that it’s okay to be afraid and give myself the space, self care, and self kindness needed to get through these situations.

Secondly, this specific combination of cards (the Six of Pentacles combined with the Queen of Pentacles) is Z.  The cards here are reminding me that speaking to Z during these times can be infinitely beneficial.


Daily Self Kindness

I told Gideon about feeling tender the last couple of days.  I really don’t want him thinking I’m not interested in playing both the sets of chars that we made.  I like them both a lot.  I just have been feeling a bit tender and I guess that’s making me lean more towards the nurturing dynamic right now in play.