Move Forward With Confidence

Today’s meditation was skipped, although not intentionally.  I fell asleep.

The Prismatic Tarot and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Three of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of of the first steps that come after planning turns to action. It is about looking ahead, direction, and progress.

Just sayin’, but there’s a whole lot of nekkid swinging in the breeze in this deck that I wasn’t aware of when I first bought it.  Not that I’m complaining, mind you… but just sayin’.

Anyway… the nudity in this card serves a purpose.  It speaks of an openness, an honesty, and a comfort within oneself.  This is a man that knows where he’s going and how he’s going to get there.  He is not lost, but rather stands confident as he looks forward into his future, facing it head on without fear.

Combined with the affirmation card for today, what we see in today’s cards is an encouragement to go after those things that truly call to you without fear of the judgements of others or worry over the potential for failure. Stand confident and strong, and reach for those things that you feel a true connection to.


Mr Lionharts’ #TheJulyTarot #TarotSuitsChallenge Prompt
Questions for July 26th and 27th

The New Chapter TarotWhat have I created for myself in the months leading up to now?

Inspiring myself and others (Queen of Wands) to spend more time together (Three of Cups).

This is something I’ve been working on both in my work as well as my personal life. Taking time off to chill with others, or working alongside them and making it fun.  In both cases, it’s new and different, but a part of growing into a healthier way of doing things and dealing with the balance between my personal life, work life, and responsibilities.

What am I currently manifesting for myself?

The opportunity (Ace of Disks) to use my influence and strategic thinking (King of Swords) to stand strong for those things I believe in (Seven of Wands).

This is because I am giving myself time to heal and recover instead of pushing myself so hard all the time. It provides more time for soul searching and connecting with my values, principles, and inner compass.


Cosmic_Crow_Tarot’s #FreedomTarotChallenge Prompt
Questions for July 27th and 28th

The Prismatic TarotWhy do I still feel like a prisoner at times?
Two of Swords, Ace of Cups, Page of Wands

I hate feeling as if I’m always having to choose between all the new creative interests that pop up in my life from one day to the next.  This new path of taking things at a more sedate and moderated pace is something I often feel I need to struggle against.

I understand that this is a healthier approach, and I accept that I don’t have the energy to pursue all the creative interests that flit through my mind and my life on a regular basis. It just… sucks sometimes.

How can I free myself of this feeling?
The Empress Rx and Wheel of Fortune

Throw nurturing myself and my needs out into the wind and instead dive back in to playing the “up and down” game of manic creativity and oppressive burnout.

Obviously, this is not a healthy choice, and that is the point.


Daily Self Kindness

I made that amazing stewed tomato and garden herbs pasta dish again today.  It was amazing.

Morning Bonus Read – Invader Zim

Bagiue Lenormand

1. What to conquer

Mountain – Obstacles in your path.

2. What to question

Anchor – Where are you getting your stability from?

3. What to feed my soul

Cross – Your faith and belief system.

4. What to rage against

Clouds – Self doubt.

Side Note: This reading totally came off as a cheerleader chant. It’s almost hilariously succinct. I have never seen this cartoon/show so I have no idea how they talk or what the tone is concerning Invader Zim or the other characters in the show, but I sort of wonder if the cards are channeling their “tone” in the answers.


Day-to-Day Goodness

Today’s meditation was eleven minutes long, and what is the fifth installment of the introductory course for the balance app. The focus was again on the breath, and introduced the method of counting breaths in order to help with one’s focus.

Tarot of Plants and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is the Nine of Summer (Cups) /Strawberry, which is traditionally a representation of emotional satiation, comfort, and personal acknowledgement at having found your “happy place”.

I am a big fan of strawberries. Not in biting into them, as I like them mashed up.  It changes the flavor.  In fact, I enjoy strawberries nearly every day.  I add them to a smoothie made of probiotic yogurt, kefir, apple, and (occasionally) raspberries. This treat has changed (and massively improved) my digestive process, which used to involve a good deal of pain.  It’s also delicious and healthy… and oddly has nearly entirely circumvented what used to be a pretty constant craving for ice cream.

No matter what type of day I’m having, or what I have to do that day?  I always have my smoothy… and I always love it. Sometimes I mix it up with different fruits, like adding mango or pineapple or peaches, but I have this treat every single day with very few exceptions.

I share this, because today’s message is all about this.   It’s all about finding the things that make you happy.  The little things that bring joy to your life… and enjoying them.  It’s about not pushing them away for “another time” that might be more convenient, but rather incorporating them into your day-to-day in any small ways you can so that you can enjoy them even when you’re at your busiest or feeling overwhelmed, and in those times they can help lift you up and give you a bit of joy you otherwise would be without.


#DiscordTarotholicsJul2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for July 26th and 27th

Mermaid Cats TarotAs an adult, where do I take myself too seriously?

All my worries and anxieties (Nine of Swords) concerning others and my perceived responsibilities to them (Queen of Pentacles). Too much time spent standing up and standing strong (Seven of Wands) instead of having fun (The Sun Rx).

These cards are essentially telling me I need to ease up on looking after others and just let my hair down, kick off my shoes, and have more fun.

How can I go about lightening up in these areas?

Let them fight their own battles (Five of Swords). Build better personal boundaries for myself and others (Nine of Wands).

Think more selfishly, and use this mentality to create better boundaries both for myself to follow, as well as for others and what they expect from me.


Cosmic_Crow_Tarot’s #FreedomTarotChallenge Prompt
Questions for July 25th and 26th

Tarot of PlantsWhat am I most proud of?
Nine of Autumn (Pentacles) / Beet

How far I’ve come in life to pull myself out of the destitution and scarcity that I started in to the place of comfort that I now possess.

Although I am far from wealthy, I have done well for myself in dragging myself out of homelessness and near starvation, into a place of security and comfort. I’m proud of all that I’ve done to get to this place, and the strength it took to get here.

What do I need to take more pride in?
Ten of Spring (Wands) /Thistle and Seed of Summer (Cups) /Columbine

In moving away from the constant cycle of burnout and overwhelm that I was riding throughout the majority of my adult life, and choosing to begin exploring my emotions instead of closing them off and burying them.

Sometimes I wonder what in the world Gideon saw in me all those years ago that drew him in.  I was so closed off from my emotions, and working myself so hard. Pushing myself so hard that I had little time or patience for anything else, especially not anything that had to do with my own emotions.


Daily Self Kindness

I took some time today to make a new playlist on Spotify filled with smoky soft music that I enjoy listening to when I’m relaxing.

You Do You

Today’s meditation was a bit spotty, although I did give it a go.  It was intended to be a quiet breathing exercise turned into an on-again-off-again nap sort of thing.  I gave up after the second doze off and just let myself sleep. Clearly, I needed it.

Linestrider Tarot and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is the Five of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of conflict over one’s principles, values, or those things that we truly believe in and stand behind. This type of conflict often happens at work when collaborative efforts hit creative differences, but it is not the only area of life in which these types of conflict can arise by any means.

The Five of Wands is all about standing strong and personal perspective clashing with the perspectives of others.  Combined with the affirmation card today, what I see in the clash demonstrated in the imagery of today’s card is a reminder about where our sense of self-value comes from.

Today’s cards are a reminder not to let other people’s judgments of you break you down. Stand strong. They have their feelings and perspectives, their values and goals… and you have yours. Judge yourself on your own perspectives and values instead of through the eyes of others.


Mr Lionharts’ #TheJulyTarot #TarotSuitsChallenge Prompt
: A reminder of how I can remain in the moment this week.

Auset Gypsy TarotReading Summary: Leave behind (Six of Swords) impatience (Queen of Wands), as it only disappoints (Three of Swords).

Take Away:  When we are eager to follow our interests and our pursuits, invested and engaged in the things we love or helping others in engaging in their own passions, sometimes it feels like there’s never enough time to get everything done we want to do.

This feeling is an illusion created by our eagerness.  To truly be in the moment, to enjoy the moment, it’s important to let go of where we’re going and our expectations.  Only then can we truly enjoy being in the moment.   So set your ambition and your expectations aside and allow yourself to linger and savor instead.


#DiscordTarotholicsJul2021 Challenge Prompt
: Do Spread #2
Question: Is now a good time to rehire a housekeeper?

Linestrider TarotReading Summary: Make sure she’s been vaccinated (The Moon Rx) to clear up any worries in that area.

She can help you find a happier place with your emotions, because you judge your “dirty house” too harshly. (This is seen in the color coordination between the mask in Judgment and the subconscious lobster in The Moon. This connects to the crown that the Queen of Cups wears, indicating that these judgments are all about you and in your head.)

A theme of blue spread throughout. In the cards indicating one’s results (the Queen of Cups and Judgement), the shades of blue lie at the bottom of the card. These blue tones stink slowly from the main focus in The Moon card, to central background in the Queen of Cups, to the bottom of the card in Judgment. This indicates that ensuring she is vaccinated will take away any worries that are left concerning rehiring her at this time.

It also very likely indicates that she is vaccinated, but the Moon Rx says to check anyway.

Take Away: On the 27th I will be fully vaccinated (two weeks will have passed since my second shot). This is the milestone I have been waiting for in order to get a housekeeper back in here on a regular basis. Now I just have to make sure that she is vaccinated as well, and then all is good.


Daily Self Kindness

Aside from taking a nap today, I also got the challenge made for next month and a few other things done.  It really feels as if it lifted a weight off of my shoulders by getting these things done and catching up on my blog posts.

Balancing Out

Today’s meditation was… ugh…. you guessed it.  Skipped again.

The Fox Tarot Pips Edition and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is the Ten of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of painful endings, coming to the end of a difficult life journey, defeat (or defeatist thinking), and moving on.

Sometimes life is unfair. Sometimes, things have to come to a head. And yeah, sometimes it really sucks.  Everyone feels these moments of defeat and as if life is picking on them. Everyone.

That doesn’t mean that life is against you, though, or that you’re cursed with bad luck. What it means is that your life is out of balance in some way, and is trying to balance itself out and align itself along the path you need to tread. You’ve gone off course… and often, the crappy shit happening in your life is a course correction to put you back on the right path.

Don’t forget this during troubled times.  Trust that life is seeking balance.  Sometimes that means crappy shit has to happen.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
The Earthcraft Oracle and The Experiential TarotQuestion for July 24th + Bonus Question

If I could live my life more creatively, I would…
Drought and Six of Pentacles
…find myself struggling to contribute more to others.

The thing is?  I only have so much time in a day and so much energy to give out. More time pushed into creative endeavors means less time for other people, less time for myself, and less time in general.  Creativity takes time, and no matter how much I might enjoy it, I don’t enjoy the drought of energy and feelings of burnout that overextending myself can bring with it.

How can I balance my energetic output for a healthier and happier life?
You Are Sacred and Five of Cups Rx

Stop ignoring what you need. Treat yourself as if you are sacred, instead of as an afterthought. Your needs are important and shouldn’t be put off or ignored.

This is something I’m working on, although those six weeks of the holiday rush are coming, and as much kindness as I can give myself now, I know that time of energetic drought mentioned in the first question is coming.


#DiscordTarotholicsJul2021 Challenge Prompt
: Where in life do I need to be more serious and buckle down?

The Fox Tarot Pips EditionReading Summary: Moving away from (Three of Wands) allowing your childhood and past negative experiences (Six of Cups Rx) to influence the present and how you treat yourself in the now (Ten of Wands atop Nine of Cups).

Take Away: Although you’re taking time off, and you’re working on putting the past in its place, you’re still in a mindset where you’re trying to overwhelm yourself with things to do and that need to get done. It’s blocking your path to happiness and it’s something that you’re going to have to deal with, because it’s not going to go away on its own.

Work at building that severing gap between the present and the past, and remember that it’s okay to go slow, to take time for your self, and to dawdle when you’re enjoying yourself.


Daily Self Kindness

So, this is a bit different from my normal self kindness today.  I made the conscious choice to not get upset and worked up about EA and his super rude, thieving ways. Normally the kind of shit he pulled would really bug me a lot, but I feel like I just don’t have the “oomph” to really give a fuck where he’s concerned.

Morning Bonus Read – Self Valuing

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
This week, let’s value ourselves by looking for ways to accommodate our needs. Ask your divination tools:

Divination with the Archaios Muthos Playing CardsWhat is an area where I need extra support?

Four of Spades – You need to stop and rest more. Take more breaks while working. Intersperse rest and recovery into the every day more instead of reserving it just for special occasions.  You won’t get so tired and need those longer rests so much (and will be able to enjoy them more) if you allow yourself a bit of rest along the way.

What support or accommodations can I give myself in this area?

Three of Hearts – One of the ways you can accommodate yourself in this area is to let others help you more.  Not just help you in bearing the weight of work and responsibility, but allowing them to help you enjoy your down time, to help you decide when you need to take a break, and help you have more fun during those longer breaks as well.

What support or accommodations do I need from others around me in this area?

Four of Hearts and Eight of Clubs – Allow yourself to rest while they work. It will help them to pick up the speed on their own rather than you always being in the mix slowing things down.  They don’t need your constant supervision.  They are more than capable of doing these things without you there hovering all the time.

What outcome can I expect if I get this support?

Jack of Spades atop Eight of Spades – More time to sort out your own shit (especially mentally) rather than constantly pushing it aside. This isn’t about sorting through these things faster, but will allow for a higher quality of attention to be paid to this process, creating room for better results.

What outcome can I expect if I do not pursue this support?

Five of Diamonds atop Ten of Hearts – A happy family and no money.  ’nuff said.