Today’s meditation was once again not done in the morning, as I was again waiting for the helper. She did actually show up today, but she was late. I hate when the phone jerks me out of my meditation and was expecting her earlier, thus… no meditation. I will do my meditation before bed again tonight, and like last night, probably fall asleep part way through it.
These are both very strong cards that represent forms of dominance and control.
I had thought, when I pulled the cards this morning, that this was about work. But after this evening, I know that it was a push for something else. A push to find some time for you… and for us… and for the time we’ve had tonight and the “tension relief” involved.
I know that we were trying not to allow me to drown during the holiday rush, but I think I needed that release of control and the giving it over to you for a bit. I did drown, but it was just beneath the surface rather than deep within the depths, so hopefully the drop won’t be too bad. Honestly? If it is…. it was worth it. I needed this time with you and that dynamic between us, that control and intensity that is an integral part of you and us.
DECK USED: OSTARA TAROT
Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember
Question: What relationship evolved the most this year?
Reading Summary: At the beginning of the year I went through a severe depression (Five of Coins) and was very apathetic about the idea that my therapist had concerning a daily affirmation (Four of Cups). I decided, though, to to adjust the activity to something I could connect with (Death) which brought me to a place where I was more attuned to my emotions (Seven of Cups) and began to discover a new level of emotional depth within myself (Ace of Cups).
Take Away: The relationship that has evolved the most over the past year is my relationship with myself and my emotions. Thanks to the mental health card of the day activity that I do here on the blog every day, I have been able to not just heal and recover from my depression much faster than I have in previous MDE experiences, but I have found a new outlook as well, which as helped me in discovering and beginning to explore, and even accept, a depth of emotion that I quite honestly didn’t think that I was capable of.
DECK USED: DARKNESS OF LIGHT TAROT