Today’s meditation was non-existent today because I spent some time in the hospital instead due to an allergic reaction from a bug bite. I have no idea what kind of bug it is, but I had no idea that I was allergic to any types of bug. Still, it was definitely an allergic reaction and… well yeah. It took up a good portion of my day getting everything under control. I tried to meditate while in the hospital but god that was just impossible. At least not in the way that I usually do anyway. I mean, yes, not all meditation is the same and you can meditate anywhere, but it just wasn’t as… refreshing as I’d have liked.
Today’s draw is the Hierophant card, which traditionally is a representation of tradition and spiritual wisdom shared with others. It can also be an indication of institutions and conformity to expected norms.
It may be because the Hierophant card is my birth card, but I see the Hierophant a bit differently. I don’t see institution or conformity. I see a teacher. I see the energy of guidance and wisdom that is offered out to others. This perception goes a long quite well with the aspects that stuck out to me in the imagery for this card today, as what really drew my eye today was the Viburnum carlesii in full bloom above, and the toad’s stately posture below.
Viburnum carlessi (Korean Spicebush) is a beautiful plant that is both fragrant and eye-catching. It shares its celebration of spring with the world through the scent of its blooms, drawing attention to not just the beauty of spring but the freshness of the air and spring’s renewed spark of life upon the world. The toad’s posture (as opposed to the toad itself) is what drew my eye to the toad. It has a regal, posture of stillness and watchful patience that makes one think that he sees all and absorbs everything.
Both of these qualities combine to blend into a theme of taking in and absorbing the world around you, as well as finding hidden meaning in those observations.
When you do this, you then come to a place where you can share that meaning with others in a way that allows them to see what you see… and find meaning in the ordinary as well. I take a great deal of joy in this process, and the message in today’s card is a reminder of just how much enjoyment I get not just from the teaching and guiding of others, but in the listening… seeking… and observing of the world around me, and discovering those hidden meanings for myself.
DECK USED: FORAGER’S DAUGHTER TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I use that success to remind myself of my strength?
Reading Summary: I am protected (Left Card). I am clever at avoiding obstacles (Center Card). And I am grounded (Right Card).
Take Away: I need to remember that in having pulled myself out of that place of destitution, imbalance, and struggle… I have gained the skills needed to help me avoid falling back into that situation again.
I have learned how to protect what is mine and create contingencies for when things go wrong. I have learned how to think creatively in order to avoid mistakes and obstacles that could be fatal to my plans and goals. And I have learned how create the solid footing in my finances and my life.
All of these skills are strengths that ensure that I will not fall back into that place of uncertainty again.
DECK USED: DIXIT V2 QUEST EXPANSION PACK
Positive Quality I Have That Others Admire: Introspection and the ability to remain unbiased and level headed. Although my inner critic is vicious, people admire my ability to be honest with myself beyond just surface platitudes, and my ability to keep those judgements and criticisms self focused instead of turned outward upon the world or others. My ability to remain unbiased and level headed fosters their trust.
Positive Quality I Wish I Had That I Admire in Others: The ability to be… satisfied, satiated, and feel genuine contentment even when things aren’t at 100%. I spend so much time pushing myself to do more and do better that I find it extremely difficult to just “sit back” and be content. This isn’t to say that I’m not grateful for what I have and appreciative of all the positive and wonderful aspects of my life…. only that I still feel the need to always push myself harder regardless. I admire those that are able to step back and set that drive aside and covet that ability.
Steps I Can Take to Develop That Quality in Myself: It is a conscious choice that requires letting go of disappointment in myself for doing less. It’s not enough to just “do less” and practice gratitude… but requires actually forgiving myself for being “lazy” and shutting down that inner critic that is the slave driver constantly pushing me in the direction of my ambitions.
Steps to Make My Current Positive Qualities Shine: Instead of creating a feeling of self-doubt and uncertainty within myself, accept that there are times when every positive quality is actually a negative… and every negative quality is actually a positive. It is about how these qualities are perceived and used (or not used).
DECK USED: EMBROIDERED FOREST TAROT
Question: What do I need to do to incorporate more positivity into my life?
Reading Summary: Tools (Magician). Knowledge (Hierophant). Release (Three of Swords Rx)
Take Away: Lean into providing guidance and knowledge for others and it increase your sense of satisfaction and optimism as a result. Honestly? Sinking into the role of guide for others has become extremely comfortable and pleasurable for me.
Once upon a time I used to do guided hikes in the rainforests near my home and teach others about the earth and the rainforest, the vegetation and the cycles of the forest. When I lost my voice, this ended and there was a long period where the only sort of “guidance” I provided for others was through helping the farm I work for improve their land, providing advice for customers at the nursery I work(ed) for, and helping friends find a modicum of balance in life.
I mentored students in tarot here and there, but there was a long stretch where even that fell to the wayside. Then more recently, I began to reach out through the internet into pagan communities and tarot communities. I began providing perspectives, and at times guidance, for others… and I began teaching again. Sharing the skills and knowledge that I have has given me so much pleasure…. and has unleashed from within me a sense of well-being that I had been lacking for some time. The cards here are an indication that this path is a good one for instilling more positivity and optimism into my life on the whole.
DECK USED: I TAROCCHI VISCONTI SFORZA PICCOLO
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I say no and be kind?
Reading Summary: It’s like ripping off a band-aid (Eight of Wands)… just do it. But, use patience when confronted with their reaction (Knight of Pentacles) and help guide them toward choosing (The Dancing Lovers) to see the positive side of the rejection (Five of Chalices Rx).
Take Away: It’s not about saying no or doing it kindly. No is no…. and sugar coating it doesn’t protect anyone, it just waters down the message. The key to saying no with kindness comes afterward and how you treat the person as they process the rejection. To do this with kindness, it’s important to not leave them twisting in the wind, but encourage them to see how the rejection could be to their benefit.
DECK USED: LIGHT VISIONS TAROT