Today’s meditation was another ten minute session like I had described yesterday. This session was also relaxing, and I found myself “seeing” the notes of the harp in a sort of spacial energy type of way as drops of water landing on the surface of a lake to create ripples. The actual physical sensation of the harp’s notes are more of a numb tingling on the backs of my forearms, which in a slow pace like is played for this meditation, is not aggravating or distracting, nor so overwhelming it starts to feel as if it’s creeping up onto my biceps.
I’m not really sure how I feel about the imagery in this card for the Nine of Wands, to be honest. Because I often associate the Nine of Wands as a card as a blend of exhaustion and vigilance, this imagery doesn’t really “fit” with my “comfort zone” for the card.
What I see here? Is more along the lines of the 9 of Clubs when reading off playing cards. That is to say that the imagery here is about striving for something that holds your focus and your passion. So close… so very close… almost there. And that thing is all you can focus on to near obsession as you reach for it… strive for it.
That message is congruent with what really stands out to me in the imagery of the card today as well, which is the little gray mouse and the glowing blackberries at the very top that the mouse strives for. The mouse is so close and he just needs one last bit of oomph to make it.
The message in today’s card is about determination and strength. It’s about that old adage that says that “the things worth having are worth working for”. That includes having a safe home and a place to go back to work… thus why I put myself in danger today to make sure both were safe and secure.
I’m sorry I worried you, man. I love you.
DECK USED: FORAGER’S DAUGHTER TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I honor or uphold my heart’s message?
My Heart’s Message: Take time to enjoy imperfections (Four of Chalices), and remember that not everything needs to be “just so” (Alkamest).
To Honor This Message: Remember that sometimes shit just doesn’t balance out right away (Wheel of Fortune), and you have to be patient and let it develop over time (Death). Trust that the laws of cause and effect will balance things out (Justice).
Take Away: The thing is that sometimes? I just get too wrapped up in making everything perfect. In truth? There is no actual “perfect” to be had, but I somehow forget that in my efforts to always do better and better. And because I spend so much of my focus and time on being and doing better? There are times I forget it’s okay not to be like that. It’s okay to be happy with the here and now and to let the future take care of itself.
DECK USED: LIGHT VISIONS TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What is the biggest lesson that I have learned this month?
Reading Summary: How to be more grounded and centered (Queen of Autumn) in times of uncertainty (The Moon), and how to continue to move forward in making choices (Two of Winter) regardless of the uncertainty surrounding me at the time.
Take Away: This is (obviously, from my past) a quality that I already possess, and yet with each repeat of that lesson it shows me a different way, a different aspect, and a new perspective as if each time another puzzle piece gets tucked into the big picture, and I can see just a bit more as my skills advance. This is why lessons are sometimes repeated. Not because you didn’t learn the first time… but because there’s even more to see and learn.
DECK USED: FAIRY TAROT BY VIRTUE AND VALENTINE
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I better protect my personal space?
Reading Summary: Don’t allow yourself to get distracted or confused (Eight of Wands). Instead, move towards being centered for a better sense of stability (The Wheel), and focus on your passions with a balanced blend of authority and enthusiasm (King of Wands).
Take Away: When I’m centered and grounded, my attention is better focused on what’s important, on what is needed, and where the cracks and chinks in my armor lie as well as how to either fix or protect them better. The cards here are speaking of that need to stay grounded and centered in my efforts to better protect my personal space, and to do so by filling that space up with my personal energy in order to make it very clearly mine for any that may come near.