Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and another guided meditation with interval timer. The guided meditation today also included a chime which was intended to help keep the mind returning to the present and the breath. This is because the topic of the guided meditation was just that.
That is to say, the topic was about sinking into the present and not allowing fixation with the past or the future to diminish your pleasure in the moment. The thing is? Most of humanity has a tendency to do just that. To either get lost in thoughts of the past and memories, or distracted by plans for the future and daydreams. These distractions take our mind away from the present, and make it difficult to fully enjoy all that the present has to offer.
Part of mindfulness meditation is the effort to train your mind to spend more time in the present, so that we can then carry that mindfulness of the present forward outside of meditation and into your day to day lives.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Wands, which is a receptive alpha energy, personality or person in the area of one’s drive, passionate interests, enthusiasms, and willpower. This often translates into themes that have to do with determination, confident independence, and strong figures that encourage the drive and ambitions of others.
One of the lesser known interpretations of the Queen of Wands lies in the concept of dominant sensuality, as in the blend of dominance and sensuality. And that is what I see in the imagery of this card today. I see a confident woman filled with strength and aware of her power and allure. I see control in her hold on the trident of flames, and sensuality in the piano behind her (that might be just me because of my synesthesia).
The message here is about owning your power. It’s about knowing your strengths and playing to them instead of disregarding them as useless or yourself as unworthy. The message in this card is about making sure I know to step into tomorrow with confidence and determination, and place myself through my behavior and my inner strength in a place of power and control… thus owning that control rather than allowing my aunt to have it.
DECK USED: TAROT OF HAUNTED HOUSE
LionHart’s #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonOfTheWitchChallenge Prompt
Question: Ask your cards for something you are destined to explore or face. Draw as many cards as you see fit. Set an affirmation and conclude your reading with “… and so it is.”
When I look in the mirror, what do I see? Do I see the man that I am now? Or the child I used to be? (Six of Cups)
When I step into my entrepreneurial spark and allow it to fill my focus and time, do I carry with me the strength of the man I am? Or do I hear my father’s cruel bark? (Ace of Wands)
Instead of listening to that voice of old, it’s time to learn a different way. I need to find the optimism I’ve lost and a way to inject joy into my work… something I had always been discourage from doing in my youth. (The Sun)
By collaborating with others, they bring support into the equation, and allow room to foster joy. Let them help. Let them provide that spark of pleasure, and allow them to give me the space I need to breathe and lighten my heart that had once been caged. So it will be…. and thus so it is.
DECK USED: MURDER OF CROWS TAROT
The two left cards look into the past, but the wand in the center leans into the future. This speaks to me about how my lack of motivation (Four of Cups) and the desire to bump that motivation into high gear (Queen of Wands) both live in the past, but the practical advice on actually moving forward into my goals and allowing my emotions to have their own space does not lie back there, it lives in the future (tip of the wand in the Queen of Wands pointing to the right).
There is a hint of blue in the first two cards, one over the cup being ignored, and one upon the forehead of the Queen. This blue feels like the scars my past treatment of myself have created both on my emotions (the cup) as well as my inner dialogue (Queen’s head).
The Hierophant looks into the future and leans in that direction… but his hand is palm up in the direction of the past, as if to indicate that the past needs to be held back or to be given a pause.
Take Away: To give myself room to feel my emotions (even during the busy time) I need to leave my past in the past. This applies to my past habits, but also the treatment and events that taught me those habits in the first place. It’s only by allowing the past to be in the past. This isn’t about burying the past, but rather about accepting where it should live.
DECK USED: CURIO TAROT
#MysticStarChallenge October Challenge Prompt
Question: How will the lesson of staying focused on balance, instead of allowing old habits of overworking to have free reign, impact my life?
Reading Summary: It will allow me to have more focus on my work (Eight of Pentacles) without it damaging my intuitive abilities (High Priestess Rx)… which in turn will allow me to find a more stable center (Queen of Pentacles) and move forward towards my ambitions with clarity (Knight of Swords).
Take Away: When I overwork myself, it has a habit of fizzling out a good portion of my intuitive side. Things begin to feel unstable and I begin to feel lost and off center like I’m fumbling around drunk in the dark.
By staying focused on balance instead of allowing old work habits to rise up and take control, it gives me the opportunity to avoid being overwhelmed even while I continue with my work, allowing me to have that intuitive connection, stability, and direction that is lacking when I am flirting with burnout.
DECK USED: HEPHOE TAPO
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How important is my spiritual altar to me?
Reading Summary: It’s more of a reminder of tradition (The Hierophant), than something that I use all the time (Three of Swords). But, it has its place in my journey and in keeping me grounded, as well as in making me feel that I have what I need (Nine of Coins).
Take Away: I don’t use my altar all that often. I mean… daily for my daily devotional, but I don’t really need an altar to do that devotional. Aside from my devotional? I don’t use it at all actually. My spellcraft is not done at my altar, my research and studies are not done there either, nor do my rituals take place there other than the already mentioned daily devotional.
Ultimately, it is a beautiful spot that is a soothing display of my faith and my values. I enjoy it and the centered and grounded feeling that standing before it provides, and its beauty as well… but I wouldn’t call it necessary.