Today’s meditation was again curtailed due to the need for sleep. I didn’t mean to doze off, but I’ve just been so tired these last couple of days and the moment I settled in and relaxed? Suddenly I was out like a light.
I don’t know what it is about this card, but there’s something so… sexy here. I’m not sure what. Maybe it’s the shoulder. Or the hip. Or the fact that the hand appears to be holding that scrap of tartan in place. Whatever. It’s hot. And thus…. my brain goes to Gideon, because Gideon is hot… and is my King of Cups.
The thing that draws my gaze the most (along with the whole hotness factor) is the drape of tiny pearls. They hang from his hat, drape his body, as well as his right hand.
What I see here is a contrast between strength and fragility, power and delicacy. It displays a balance. The same sort of balance that Gideon shows me every day. The balance I crave… especially when I am feeling vulnerable.
DECK USED: MADAM LYDIA WILHELMINA’S TAROT
A Poison – The High Priestess Rx – Not listening to your intuition has the ability to poison both your actions, your motivations, and your confidence. It’s important to be able to trust yourself, and when you second guess your intuition, it breaks down that trust.
The Potion – The Wheel – Whether things are on the way up or on the way down, it is through the times that your intuition speaks to you that you learn to trust it in the first place. This takes repetitive practice.
The Magick – Queen of Pentacles – Only through experience can we develop that trust. It takes time and nurturing to make it happen, and it takes even more time and nurturing to help it flourish.
My Calling – The Lovers – Some people ignore their intuition, and thus it rarely speaks. Others accept their intuition and allow it to become a part of their lives. It is my calling to have this type of close relationship with my intuition, and to choose it’s voice over that of logic or reason again and again so that with each trusting step forward it grows healthier and stronger.
DECK USED: LUIS ROYO’S DARK TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsOct2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: You / Your Current Path / Potential Outcome
You – Death – I am going through an adjustment at this time in my life. Not just the gradual growth and adjustment that came with the emotional growth I’ve been focused on in the past year… but also the adjustment that comes from shifting out of the more relaxed part of my year into the chaos of the holiday rush. For me, autumn is all about adjustments and changes, shifting gears and transitioning.
Your Current Path – King of Staves – I am on the trajectory of diving into my holiday rush. Control and motivation need to be high, not just for myself but to lead those that work with me this year into the fray and give them the inspiration to keep going when things are at their peak.
Potential Outcome – Four of Swords – Exhaustion and a need for recovery. Ten weeks from now, I am going to be at the end of my rope. My eyes will feel like sandpaper, my body will feel as if I’m wasting away, and my mind will be a fuzzy blur as the adrenaline of the holiday rush begins to fade. Ten weeks from now I will reach the end of the chaos of the holiday rush… and it will be time to take a very much needed restorative break.
DECK USED: GOTHIC HORROR TAROT
#MysticStarChallenge October Challenge Prompt
Question: What message has my Spirit Guide been trying to send me that I have not heard?
Reading Summary: Be proactive (Knight of Swords) about making sure you’re getting enough rest (Four of Swords). Soon enough you’ll be up to your eyeballs in ambition and creativity (Queen of Wands) and dealing with being overwhelmed by the fray of the holiday rush (Five of Wands).
Take Away: These last couple weeks are the last bit of rest and relaxation I’m going to get for a wile. I need to make sure I get what I can while I can and not allow myself to fall into the “oh fuck oh fuck” panic of what’s to come. I’ve done the holiday rush before, and I’ll do it again. Don’t freak out and lose what chance for rest and restoration that I have left.
DECK USED: TERRESTRIAL TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How important is my health in my spiritual life?
Reading Summary: Think of it this way (King of Needles imagery)… Your loved ones (Three of Potions) are there to make you take care of yourself so that you can get the most out of life (Nine of Presents). If you don’t take care of yourself? No forward motion will be forthcoming (Three of Candles Rx).
Take Away: Just sayin’? But the way that King of Needles showed up was so funny. It’s literally telling me that I need to really take some time to sit and think about this message. The message being, of course, that my health is extremely important to my spiritual life. No health means no progress upon my path. Those that love me are here to help and make sure that I stay healthy, but their presence in my life is also an integral part of what makes me healthy as well.