Today’s meditation was ten minutes in length and was another of the guided meditations with interval timer for my piriformis stretching. I can’t honestly say that I paid all that much attention to the guided part of the meditation today, and it might be time to switch back to non-guided meditations for a bit since I seem to have toned out the voice entirely through a good part of the meditation.
The part that I did hear was about not allowing reactivity and/or anxiety to spur you into making impulsive decisions and snap judgements. Instead, in those moments, it is a time to pause and take a moment to process.
Today’s draw is is the Sun card, which is traditionally a representation of optimism, joy, playfulness, and positive opportunities. It’s about all those upbeat things associated with fun, positivity, and success as well as youthful exuberance.
I don’t see much of anybody having all that much fun int his photo. One kid’s looking back at the eldest with black eyes like there’s a serious problem, and the other is in the process of trying to squirm off their seat. It’s a family photoshoot gone wrong, and I feel like the contrast between the card’s imagery and its traditional meaning is where the message lies in today’s card.
The message here is to not let other’s attitudes or a crap-ass time drag you down into a place of pessimism and displeasure. Everyone has seen the truly optimistic as they move through the sludge of a bad day. They remain optimistic even in the face of road blocks and naysayers. Take a page from their book and keep your head up and a smile in your heart.
DECK USED: MADAM LYDIA WILHELMINA’S TAROT
Take Away: Transformation is the thought, the dream, and the hope in this reading. I truly desire to change how I’ve been handling my work and responsibilities (vs.) my self care over the majority of my life. I’ve made a lot of big leaps this year in that direction.
The thing is, though? It is important to remember is that transformation doesn’t happen overnight. It’s something you work at a little at a time, adjusting again and again along the way. And then one day you look back and realize you’ve made it to an entirely different place than the one you were in when you started.
Even as I track my progress, I need to keep in mind that it’s okay to take my time. It’s okay to backslide now and then, just as long as I catch myself and continue forward. This effort is not a sprint but a journey and it’s going to take time and patience as I move along that path.
DECK USED: TAROT OF VAMPYRES
#DiscordTarotholicsOct2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What needs… revealed / concealed / discarded
Revealed – Knave of Cups – Sometimes when I express my emotions, I feel as if I’m speaking into a bucket. My own voice reverberates back at me, but that’s the only feedback I get. I struggle with my emotions, even the good ones… even now. I struggle with being in touch with them, with expressing them clearly, and with understanding them. Sometimes I have no idea what the emotions I feel actually are or what the words are to express them. I know that this is a part of the learning process, but this is my confession. My vulnerability on this path of emotional growth revealed. I hate feeling lost and confused…. and sometimes on this journey, those feelings are the most overwhelming of them all.
Concealed – Seven of Wands atop Ace of Swords – I need to make sure that I’m fighting back against my negative inner dialogue as it tries to dig in and get a handhold. Every time those fingers curl on the edge of that rocky shelf, I need to make sure I’m smashing them back. This battle isn’t really something that needs sharing with others, as speaking what that negative inner voice is saying aloud will only give the words more power. Instead, remember that it is important to pay attention and stay on the defensive with that pessimistic voice. Be diligent and keep it in line.
Discarded – Six of Pentacles – You spend a massive amount of time throughout the year focused on others, giving your time to helping others and making time for others to come to you. At this time when you’re moving into the holiday rush? It’s just not the time for this sort of thing. You need to be focused on yourself and your business and not worry so much about others. You can go back to being your generous and giving self again after the holiday rush has come to an end.
DECK USED: XIII TAROT
#MysticStarChallenge October Challenge Prompt
Question: What is the significance on my journey of the lesson revealed yesterday?
Reading Summary: Holy crap to the double moon cards. Your uncertainties and fears (double Moons indicating an overwhelming power in these concepts) can lead to misguided thoughts and bad ideas to get interjected in your learning process (Page of Swords… partially based off imagery).
Take Away: Yesterday’s message was about staying focused upon and connected to my hope, to my spirituality, and to my progress through the transformation I’m working on, and not give up.
Fear, uncertainty, illusion, and confusion are all a part of changes and transformations. The thing is though? If you give these concepts/feelings power they will take over and you will become lost in them. The are them able to derail not just your trajectory on the path forward, but all of the progress you’ve made along the way.
By focusing on the optimistic side of things and staying connected to your hope, spirituality, and the progress you want to make, it helps in keeping those more negative emotions and fears reigned in so that they don’t cause you to fall off track.
DECK USED: TWISTED TAROT TALES
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I use Tarot and crystals together more effectively?
Reading Summary: When you are in conflict over which stones to use in your readings (Five of Wands), lean into learning to communicate more effectively (Jack of Spades) as opposed to allowing aesthetic to weigh in (Six of Wands).
Take Away: I regularly use crystals and stones in my readings. Sometimes my personal readings, but always my client readings. Sometimes? It’s true that I have a little bit of a debate going on as I pick the stones. “This one is more apt… but this one will look better with the cards and could also work.” The thing is? I could improve my use of crystals (and plant matter as well) in my readings if I let go of the aesthetic aspect and simply went with what will work best for the purpose needed.