Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and spent doing spinal alignment work with a bolster and a couple or rubber balls. I was going to do a meditation separately afterward, but it turned out that I needed the focus and breathing exercises that the meditation provided just to keep muscles relaxed and pliant during the process. This really goes without saying that my back hurts like a bitch today, and my hips too since I spent my meditation doing spinal work instead of my regular piriformis stretching.
Okay so… anyway. Today’s draw is The Fool card, which is traditionally a representation of youthful exuberance, new beginnings, naivety and innocence.
What stood out to me the strongest when I first saw this card this morning (aside from the uncanny resemblance to Thundercat’s Lion-O) is the Great Glyph of the Sidhe is carved into the Fool’s chest.
As a child I used to use this glyph as the basis for my circle casting, and as my sister lit candles for the elements, I would spin and spin and spin through the center, trailing my toe along the ground to create the spiral moving ever outward and finishing off with the dividing line during the lighting of the candles for Diana and Faunus.
This symbol, like none other, reminds me of my childhood. Of magic circles and bonding rituals between myself and my sister. Of romps in the woods and hours spent among moss and lichen, cedars and ferns. The message in today’s card is to remember that youthful fun, remember the freedom and allow the joyful innocence of those times to rise up within me and swirl through my life within the here and now.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE SIDHE
#TarotForGrowthAugust Challenge Prompt
Topic: I feel like I’m struggling to see clearly.
Question: How can I begin building more trust in myself and my lived experience?
Reading Summary: Own what you’ve done and experienced in life (Queen of Wands), and don’t allow yourself to hide behind addictions (The Devil). Instead, take the brave steps forward in learning from your experiences (Knave of Swords).
Take Away: One of my most destructive (and most prominent) bad habits is my urge to retreat into myself and away from others when I’m feeling vulnerable. In doing this, I also close myself off to myself, boxing up those small and vulnerable parts so that they whither and starve. This is not trusting in myself and my experience… it is picking myself apart into pieces and making those fragments “deal with it” on their own.
I am in the process of learning a new way, and I need to stay mindful during these vulnerable times to reach not for my past habits… but for my new and healthier methods instead.
DECK USED: MAGIC TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsAug2020 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question: Are you more of a dreamer or a believer?
Although I am a very motivated and grounded person as shown in the fact that the central card in this reading is in the pentacles suit, the Page of Wands and Ace of Cups bracketing this grounded energy speak of the fact that I am prone to flights of fancy and allowing my creative flow to take the reigns.
Take Away: Regardless of my need for stability, I am open to a vast array of possibilities that go beyond the known world. For me, seeing is not believing… feeling is. And I am willing to follow those feelings wherever they lead as long as they feel right and entertain my inner spark’s interest.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE DREAM ENCHANTRESS
Question: How can I fully embrace the abundance meant for me?
Reading Summary: The world is at my fingertips (The World), all I need to do is pick a direction (Two of Wands) and allow my inner spark and drive for manifestation to carry me forward (Page of Pentacles).
Take Away: It doesn’t tell me what that abundance is exactly, but the answer to embracing it is simply in accepting that it’s there for me. In doing that, I give myself permission to go for it, and begin the journey of moving in the direction to claim it for my own.
DECK USED: ANTHRO TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What do I need to change?
Reading Summary: Be more generous (Ten of Pentacles) with my capriciousness and frivolity (The Fool) instead of letting my self-perceived shortcomings keep me down (The Devil Rx).
Take Away: This is yet another encouragement to have more fun. Don’t allow my negative inner narrative and addictive impulses to keep me pinned down or tangled up. Set myself free to be open with my sense of fun instead of keeping it to myself. It’s okay to look silly sometimes… it’s okay to have fun. I seem to need this reminder a lot lately, and the cards are definitely following through on making sure I hear the message again and again.