Hope Lives… Even In Darkness

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and I was a little fidgety. I think it was because I got so much sleep last night that I ended up with a bit of excess energy trying to find a way free. Or maybe my body and mind just liked the hike so much yesterday that it was itching to go out for another one.   That is very possible as well.

Next World TarotToday’s draw is the Five of Pentacles, which is a representation of struggles, tests, trials, and conflicts in the area of one’s finances, resources, hearth and home, health, or manifestations.

The there was no one thing that really stood out to me in this card today, but what really stood out was the overall atmosphere.  All the buildings for sale and this girl sits with all her things packed up looking out at what surely feels like a wasteland at this moment.  In truth, the imagery really hit home considering the news that I’d gotten the other day about the possible fate of my own home.

I think sometimes we all have that feeling of the world falling apart around us.  When we’re in that moment, it’s hard to see that there might be a light down there at the end of the tunnel.  We don’t realize that we just can’t see it yet.

The message in today’s card is to not give up hope… even when things feel hopeless.  Even when things feel like they’re falling apart.   Don’t give up hope. This is just one more than that’s only temporary.

DECK USED:  NEXT WORLD TAROT

#TarotForGrowthAugust Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m plagued by anxiety.
Question: How is anxiety trying to help me?

Odd Hand Tarot

Reading Summary: My anxiety is trying to warn me when I become too confident (Six of Wands) in my security and stability (King of Pentacles)… so that I can make sure I’m seeing the path before me clearly and won’t end up tripping over anything along the way (Eight of Cups).

Take Away:  Sometimes when you get a little too comfortable in your current situation, you can forget to look ahead, and forget to keep in mind that hard times are sure to come again eventually in one form or another.  My anxiety is a reminder not to get so comfortable that I forget to look forward and watch my step.

DECK USED:  ODD HAND TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsAug2020 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #3

Magic TarotSeeds SownTen of Pentacles – Of the seeds that I planted in the spring concerning my emotional growth, what has managed to flourish and grow strong is that I’ve been able to find more a centered and balanced sense of fulfillment in what I have in the present and where I am in my life.

The Chaff Queen of Wands – Of those seeds that I planted in the spring, what has not flourished into fruition is that I didn’t get all of the creative things done that I wanted to accomplish this summer, such as the wood burning project. But that’s okay, and I need to let that disappointment go so that I can be “large and in charge” in other areas now that the fall is coming.

The Harvest Temperance – To prepare to reap the benefits of the seeds that have flourished, I need to make sure I’m practicing patience and moderation as I move into the fall so that I can give my harvest the best chance of coming to fruition.

DECK USED:  MAGIC TAROT

Lionharts #TheAugustTarot#ElementalChallenge
Question: What feelings serve me best explored instead of ignored?

Big Things In Small Packages Tarot

The Sun – Joy. This is a feeling that I struggle with feeling I deserve. Instead of ignoring it, though, it’s one that I need to embrace and enjoy more often.  Too often I push it away in favor of responsibility and obligation.

Three of Wands – The urge to turn down the troubled path rather than a healthy one is something I’ve always struggled with.  These self destructive urges are by their very nature… self destructive.  Ignoring them doesn’t make them go away.  Instead it’s important to sort through those feelings when they rise up, and figure out where they’re coming from.

Queen of Pentacles Rx – Self-indulgence as a way to deal with my emotions is another of my self destructive patterns. This is one of those unhealthy paths mentioned in the Three of Wands.  It’s just that we are getting into specifics.  This is about consumption. Like with most self destructive urges, it’s important to seek out why they have arisen rather than sweeping them under the rug.

DECK USED:  BIG THINGS IN SMALL PACKAGES TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I bring more joy into my life?

Anthro Tarot

Reading Summary: Make sure you have direction (Three of Wands), but at the same time don’t push so hard (Eight of Pentacles Rx) that it steals away your joy (Seven of Swords).

Take Away: The message here is not so much about bringing more joy into my life but allowing it to have space there so that it can flourish on its own.  When I push too hard towards the future and make myself work too hard towards goals I become too damned focused on?   It smothers out the joy in my life.   So it’s okay to have direction… but don’t go overboard.  Leave space for joy, and it will grow and flourish in my life all on its own.

DECK USED:  ANTHRO TAROT

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Spark and Pen Tarot, Flowers Oracle, Language of Flowers Oracle

EarthNine of Wands and Jonquil – This week it’s going to be important to make sure you’re not just aware of what’s yours but be willing to defend that claim if necessary.  Sometimes life allows a bit of lackadaisical relaxation and carelessness, but this week is not a time for such notions.  Yes, vacation is all well and good, but make sure you are not letting go of anything you should be holding on tight to.

AirPage of Swords and Stephanotis – A lot of new ideas are swimming around in your head right now, and writing them down so you can take your time exploring them is great.  But when it comes to exploring this week, make sure you allow others in on your ideas and get their perspectives and their help in whatever ways it is offered to you.  You’re not in this alone, so don’t try to function as if you are.

WaterThe Hierophant and Heartsease – You need to spend some time this week learning to be a little more gentle with yourself.  It’s time to seek out methods bringing yourself to that kinder place when  you need to access it.  Scolding yourself over being a dick doesn’t get you anywhere.  There has to be a better way.   This might be something Gideon can help you with. It’s not about “be nicer to yourself” but rather finding a method of identifying and triggering that kindness and compassion when it’s needed.

FireThe Tower and Tiger Lily – There are times when tearing shit down is the way to go… and times when taking the safe route is best. This week you’re going to be pulled in both directions, and you’re going to need to find the middle road between the two. Find a balance between the two that allows a bit of both.

WaningCherry Plum and Red Chestnut – It’s time to move away from careless abandon and worried tailspins. Neither of these are going to do you any good moving forward.

WaxingWild Oat –  Now is a time to look over your path and make sure you are moving in the direction you desire to go in.  Seek clarity in looking over how things are going, and seek out honest truths and understanding concerning your trajectory and the hurdles you may face or have faced.  A little latitude is good… a lot, not so much.

Take Away – This week is going to be a delicate balance between what needs to dealt with and the peace and quiet you need out of these days off. Unfortunately, you just can’t abandon all responsibilities, but there’s still plenty of room for relaxation and self care. There’s lots of teetering balance in this week’s theme it seems. And a need to be aware of my surroundings as well as where I want my path to lead.

DECKS USED: SPARK AND PEN TAROT, FLOWERS ORACLE, LANGUAGE OF FLOWERS ORACLE