Exploration and Discovery

Today’s meditation was skipped in sacrifice to the gods of work.  Essentially, I decided to put it off until bed time because I wanted to try and get my orders done a little earlier than normal.  You know…. so I don’t have to pull an all nighter, yeah?    So I did end up sacrificing a few things (like my meditation) in order to make that happen.

Next World Tarot - The SunToday’s draw is the Sun card, which is traditionally interpreted as a representation of joy and happiness and lighthearted fun.  It’s about successful endeavors and positivity.

No one specific aspect stood out to me in this card today other than the shining light in the sky that the girl in the picture reaches toward… and the fact that her shoelaces are untied (but tucked).

The laces actually bring back a memory.  For the first few months after I emancipated from my parent’s home, I wore my shoes like that.  Loose and untied with the laces tucked in out of the way.  I’d always wanted to wear my laces that way, but when you wear your shoes untied, there is a habit of scraping your heels on the ground (or you have to march in order to not do so).  My mother would not allow that, and thus it wasn’t until I was on my own that I tried it for myself.   Turns out?  The thunk of heels scraping with each step quickly got on my nerves as well.  Although this wasn’t the reason my mother objected?  It’s kind of funny that I ended up agreeing with her.

Hell of a digression, right?   But maybe it’s not that much of a digression at all.   For what I see in those shoelaces… and in the message of this card today, is that you have to try new things to know whether they’re for you or not.   Discovering the things that make you happy and create joy in your heart is a process of trial and error.

Never lose the curiosity that fosters the discovery of new joyous moments.


#TarotForGrowthAugust Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m struggling to move past trauma.
Question: How can I help prevent myself from comparing my healing journey to someone else’s?

Odd Hand Tarot

Reading Summary: Everyone has lessons to learn in life, and most people don’t learn by just being given the answers (The Hierophant).  Use your empathy (Queen of Cups) and communicate in an open and welcoming way instead of in a closed format (Page of Swords).

Take Away: The indication here is that in order to prevent myself from comparing my healing journey to someone else’s I need to remember that everyone’s path is different.  Everyone’s experiences are different.   Two people can, in fact, experience the exact same event… and process it entirely differently… this experience it entirely differently.  Listen to others with an empathetic ear and keep your eyes and ears open to how their experiences differ from my own.


#DiscordTarotholicsAug2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: I Blame Myself For… / I Blame Others For…

Tarot of the Dream EnchantressI Blame Myself For – I blame myself for when my mind and thought processes become fuzzy and clouded (King of Swords Rx) which then results in me dropping the ball concerning my responsibilities and obligations (Two of Pentacles).

There are times when I seem to step into this “foggy” brain space that will last for a few days or even a couple of weeks.  It’s not depression, but rather just a lack of clarity and mental “crispness”.  During these times, I often end up making a lot of stupid mistakes and my time management skills become pretty dismal.  That in turn effects my juggling of all the different responsibilities on my plate.

I Blame Others ForFour of Cups and Wheel of Fortune (imagery based) – I blame others for my apathetic opinion of society. There is so much about the world that I accept with ease, but society is not really one of those things.

The reasons for this are many… and yet they all boil down to other people’s behavior… other people’s mentality… other people’s stupidity.  With every year that passes, I find myself less and less optimistic about humanity at a whole, and more disappointing in what I see in so many.


Lionharts #TheAugustTarot #ElementalChallenge
Focus on your third eye and draw a card in answer to: Where am I asked to follow or listen to my intuition?

Luminous Void Tarot - Ten of DiscsTen of Discs – My dreams are very much based in the stability and security that is represented in the Ten of Discs.  It is, without fail, my greatest focus, and although I have over time adjusted what I consider to be the definition of that stability and security, and my view of how to achieve it… the concept of stability and security remains my focus.

The thing is, though, that following your dreams is about more than just logic and reason… no matter how comfortable it is to fall back on these things. Sometimes you have to follow your gut to know what to do, and to know what’s right. These things can’t always be reasoned out, but instead have to be felt.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What do I need to forgive myself?

Big Things in Small Packages Tarot

Reading Summary: Getting fucked over (Seven of Wands) sucks and its easy to internalize these bad experiences (Nine of Swords) and allow the experience to become a heavy burden (Knight of Pentacles Rx).  How you deal with these things determines whether or not you and your life stays in balance (Two of Pentacles).

Take Away:  The times I have been hurt by others, and I have chosen to internalize that hurt instead of placing the blame where it belongs… on them.  I have a habit holding myself culpable, even though the blame isn’t mine to own.  I need to release this blame.  Let it go.


Morning Bonus Read – Lessons

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
This year has been rough for us all, we’re just past the mid point fast approaching autumn.

General Admission Playing Cards by Kings Wild Project

What lessons have you learned so far?
Seven of Hearts, Queen of Hearts, Nine of Diamonds

Making choices using the heart isn’t as detrimental to that structure an stability I constantly crave that I thought it would be. I can’t say that it’s something I’d want to practice all the time, but it’s okay to choose to be kind to myself instead of pushing all the time. It’s okay to listen to what my heart says I need to instead of constantly directing all decisions through either the head or intuition…. allowing the heart to have a say will not be the end of the world.

How will it aid you in the coming months?
Ten of Hearts atop Nine of Spades, Ace of Hearts, King of Clubs

I will be able to use the emotional fulfillment that allowing my heart have a say provides to combat the hoard of anxiety waiting for me as the holiday rush approaches and then crests to crash over me. The new growth I’ve managed this year emotionally will help to reinforce my drive and determination during that time of heavy pressure and stress.

Take Away – I’ve been avoiding my emotions for the majority of my life, boxing them up, caging them away, and burying them deep. Not just bad emotions, but the majority of my emotions. This year I’ve learned that allowing emotions out to breathe isn’t going to cause everything I’ve worked for to fall down around me. I may not be able to always identify what I’m feeling, but I was wrong about the catastrophic destruction they would inflict upon my life. The cards in the second half of this reading indicate that the emotional growth I’ve experienced this year will result in making me stronger under pressure when it counts the most.