Today’s meditation was skipped in sacrifice to the gods of work. Essentially, I decided to put it off until bed time because I wanted to try and get my orders done a little earlier than normal. You know…. so I don’t have to pull an all nighter, yeah? So I did end up sacrificing a few things (like my meditation) in order to make that happen.
No one specific aspect stood out to me in this card today other than the shining light in the sky that the girl in the picture reaches toward… and the fact that her shoelaces are untied (but tucked).
The laces actually bring back a memory. For the first few months after I emancipated from my parent’s home, I wore my shoes like that. Loose and untied with the laces tucked in out of the way. I’d always wanted to wear my laces that way, but when you wear your shoes untied, there is a habit of scraping your heels on the ground (or you have to march in order to not do so). My mother would not allow that, and thus it wasn’t until I was on my own that I tried it for myself. Turns out? The thunk of heels scraping with each step quickly got on my nerves as well. Although this wasn’t the reason my mother objected? It’s kind of funny that I ended up agreeing with her.
Hell of a digression, right? But maybe it’s not that much of a digression at all. For what I see in those shoelaces… and in the message of this card today, is that you have to try new things to know whether they’re for you or not. Discovering the things that make you happy and create joy in your heart is a process of trial and error.
Never lose the curiosity that fosters the discovery of new joyous moments.
DECK USED: NEXT WORLD TAROT
#TarotForGrowthAugust Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m struggling to move past trauma.
Question: How can I help prevent myself from comparing my healing journey to someone else’s?
Reading Summary: Everyone has lessons to learn in life, and most people don’t learn by just being given the answers (The Hierophant). Use your empathy (Queen of Cups) and communicate in an open and welcoming way instead of in a closed format (Page of Swords).
Take Away: The indication here is that in order to prevent myself from comparing my healing journey to someone else’s I need to remember that everyone’s path is different. Everyone’s experiences are different. Two people can, in fact, experience the exact same event… and process it entirely differently… this experience it entirely differently. Listen to others with an empathetic ear and keep your eyes and ears open to how their experiences differ from my own.
DECK USED: ODD HAND TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsAug2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: I Blame Myself For… / I Blame Others For…
I Blame Myself For – I blame myself for when my mind and thought processes become fuzzy and clouded (King of Swords Rx) which then results in me dropping the ball concerning my responsibilities and obligations (Two of Pentacles).
There are times when I seem to step into this “foggy” brain space that will last for a few days or even a couple of weeks. It’s not depression, but rather just a lack of clarity and mental “crispness”. During these times, I often end up making a lot of stupid mistakes and my time management skills become pretty dismal. That in turn effects my juggling of all the different responsibilities on my plate.
I Blame Others For – Four of Cups and Wheel of Fortune (imagery based) – I blame others for my apathetic opinion of society. There is so much about the world that I accept with ease, but society is not really one of those things.
The reasons for this are many… and yet they all boil down to other people’s behavior… other people’s mentality… other people’s stupidity. With every year that passes, I find myself less and less optimistic about humanity at a whole, and more disappointing in what I see in so many.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE DREAM ENCHANTRESS
Ten of Discs – My dreams are very much based in the stability and security that is represented in the Ten of Discs. It is, without fail, my greatest focus, and although I have over time adjusted what I consider to be the definition of that stability and security, and my view of how to achieve it… the concept of stability and security remains my focus.
The thing is, though, that following your dreams is about more than just logic and reason… no matter how comfortable it is to fall back on these things. Sometimes you have to follow your gut to know what to do, and to know what’s right. These things can’t always be reasoned out, but instead have to be felt.
DECK USED: LUMINOUS VOID TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What do I need to forgive myself?
Reading Summary: Getting fucked over (Seven of Wands) sucks and its easy to internalize these bad experiences (Nine of Swords) and allow the experience to become a heavy burden (Knight of Pentacles Rx). How you deal with these things determines whether or not you and your life stays in balance (Two of Pentacles).
Take Away: The times I have been hurt by others, and I have chosen to internalize that hurt instead of placing the blame where it belongs… on them. I have a habit holding myself culpable, even though the blame isn’t mine to own. I need to release this blame. Let it go.