Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and one of the harp strings meditations. I had a bit of a problem getting still and staying that way. I’m not sure why I was all fidgety today, but I just really struggled with staying still. Not just in meditation either, but through my card drawing time, as well as the first hour or so once I finally sat down at the computer.
Today’s draw is the King of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances and resources, home life, health, and manifestations.
This card screams hyunta to me. You’ve worked hard and finally gotten what you so dearly have strive for and wanted, and now you’re stuck wondering… That was it? Is this it? That’s all? It’s a blend of both satisfaction, and keen disappointment. (Actually, the term originates from that post masturbation glow of having stroked one out and achieved your pleasure but then being on the other side of it you find yourself feeling like something’s missing…. but the sense of accomplishment and disappointment is very similar.)
The message here in this card for today is that goals are something to aim for, but not something to kill yourself over as you try to get hit them. Because once you get there, then you have nowhere further to go.
This is why it is so often said that life is about the journey, and not a destination.
DECK USED: NEXT WORLD TAROT
#TarotForGrowthAugust Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m struggling with boundaries in my relationships.
Question: How does devaluing my needs harm myself?
Reading Summary: It’s self limiting (Eight of Swords) to my ability to get a fresh start in going after my dreams (Page of Wands), taking control out of my hands so that I lose my way (The Chariot) along life’s path (The World).
Take Away: Devaluing my needs creates a cycle of destruction that is directed at my autonomy. It influences both my ability to see clearly and make good decisions concerning the direction I want to go in, as well as my ability to actually control my trajectory as a whole on my life’s path.
DECK USED: GYPSY PALACE TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsAug2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Weed Out / Replace With
Weed Out – Six of Cups Rx – I need to let go of my fear that continuing in the path of allowing myself to have more rest and less burden is going to fuck up everything I’ve worked towards. This fear is irrational and is not based in reality, yet my fear of shifting away from that mentality of being overburdened equals accomplishment and getting things done is holding me back from fully embracing my new path.
Replace With – Princess of Disks Rx – Continue to work at embracing a releasing of “industry”. It’s okay to take some time for yourself, and it’s okay to enjoy that time. Own your ability to relax and acknowledge that the world isn’t going to fall apart if you’re a bit selfish with your time and attention by directing it towards the self and self care rather than the business or the greater good.
DECK USED: TABULA MUNDI IN MINIMA TAROT
Question: What am I asked to create for myself starting this week?
Reading Summary: Get your shit together (Nine of Cups) and put your thinking hat on (The High Priestess) so that you can seize the reigns (The Chariot) and get moving at going after that new vision of the same dream (Knight of Wands).
Take Away: The new vision of the same dream mentioned here is about my business, and about how I have been trying to restructure how I do things so that I’m not so overwhelmed and overburdened all the time. In order to accomplish this new version of the same dream, though, there’s still some work that needs to be done. Especially as we now head toward the end of summer and slip into the time to prep for the holiday rush.
This prepping process requires planning, but it also requires a lot of doing… and it’s that dynamic that needs to be picked up and run with this week.
DECK USED: BIG THINGS IN SMALL PACKAGES TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is working for me right now?
Reading Summary: Taking things slow (Eight of Wands Rx) and letting my new emotional growth (Ace of Cups) have the time and space it needs to reconcile with my past and find the value in what has happened in my history (Ten of Swords).
Side Note: This is really interesting imagery for the Eight of Wands. I understand the representation in the imagery, though. The fact that sometimes? Things just move too fast.
Take Away: Although I fully accept the experiences I have been through, the new emotional depth I’m experiencing due to the growth I’ve been exploring this spring and summer has needed a bit of a reconciliation with those experiences. Because I closed all of these emotions off during those events in my past, I did not really emotionally process these things. I understand that and the cards indicating that this process is both healthy and ongoing.