I’ve fallen behind again… and I can’t remember whether I meditated on the 29th or not. So I’ll leave this empty this time around (and tomorrow too) as I finish up these posts that got started… but never published on the blog.
Today’s draw is Four of Coins, which is traditionally a representation of stability and security in reference to one’s finances, resources, and health. It can also go to far at times and be a representation of greed and/or miserly behavior.
What really stands out to me in the imagery of this card today is the footrest. And honestly? At what is only about two inches tall, I don’t really see it’s usefulness. Thus, it feels like a wasteful expenditure, and points out my own judgements concerning money and spending. Judgements that are almost always directed more towards myself than others.
The message here is twofold. First, it is that I need to be less judgemental toward myself and my spending. The second part of the advice seems contradictory, but it is more a compliment. It’s okay to spend, when you have the funds to do it. But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do so wisely. Search for the best prices, find alternative sources, check around and see if you really need to have the brand name of something and not the generic. All of these things are just smart shopping, and something to remember along the way.
DECK USED: MADAM LYDIA WILHELMINA’S TAROT
Reading Summary: Patience (Seven of Pentacles) with the ups and downs (Wheel of Fortune) and time with Gideon (The Lovers) added in to help balance things out (Two of Pentacles).
Take Away: As October draws to a close, to treat myself, now is a good time to spend some extra time with Gideon when it’s possible so that I don’t feel too overburdened by my responsibilities. Also, I need to make sure that I’m treating myself and my business with patience. Things are unusually slow the last two weeks. Don’t panic, just keep yourself focused on where you want to go and accept that it takes time to get there.
DECK USED: GOTHIC HORROR TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsOct2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: The last harvest is upon us. What needs to be discarded from my life?
Reading Summary: Worrying about a bunch of shit (Nine of Swords) that you just can’t know right now (Eight of Swords). And a vein of cruelty and pessimism (King of Cups Rx) over finances and running my business (King of Pentacles).
Take Away: What ifs and predictive worrying has taken over a lot of my worrying lately as a whole, and it’s something I need to let go of. The things I don’t know… the things I can’t know right now… they need to be left alone instead of constantly worried over. All it does is fuck up my confidence and my sense of well-being.
The other issue mentioned here is an echo of my COTD above. It’s a reminder that just because business is slow right now doesn’t mean it will continue to be, or that the holiday rush is fucked and thus my finances through the first part of next year are as well. This pessimistic attitude is not helping anything and needs to be discarded along with the anxiety and worry that have taken up a large footprint in my mind lately.
DECK USED: HALLOWEEN SPIRIT TAROT
#MysticStarChallenge October Challenge Prompt
Question: What is my Halloween message this year?
Reading Summary: Too much work (King of Wands decapitated), and too much bitchiness (Queen of Swords Rx) results in unpleasant repercussions (Justice). Get your shit together (The Emperor’s glare).
Take Away: Leave it to the Pole Ka to speak to me bluntly and without mercy. Although, I think it’s something I need to hear in the tone that I need to hear it in. I get a lot of what feels like conflicting guidance lately, and yet it’s not really all that conflicting at all, just my pessimism and cynicysm skewing it in that direction in my head.
The Emperor here in this spread is making it clear that I need to pull myself together and out of the tangled mess I’ve slid into the last week or two. It’s time for clarity and control, not a tug of war and anxiety driven actions.
DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLES PAR POLE KA
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How do spiritual moments impact me?
Reading Summary: Spiritual moments provide succor (The Lioness) and peace (The Bluebirds) to help calm the chaos (The Tower).
Take Away: Due primarily to my own inner dialogue and the self directed cruel streak that lives in my head, it can be really hard for me to find and accept nurturing comfort and peace in my life. It’s not that I don’t want the good feelings, but more that somewhere inside I feel that I do not deserve them.
When shit hits the fan, therefore, I’m left wanting to fold into myself and my wounds because I don’t feel deserving of the comfort or the peace and good emotions that others can provide me. I think it is also why during those times my intuition can sometimes become muffled, and thus I need to work on allowing myself not just my spiritual moments but a connection to them and my intuition…. especially during “tower moments” when the world feels like it’s falling apart.