The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“This week, let’s look at the flip side: fulfillment, gratitude, and joy. Did you know that one of biggest tools against burnout and stress is gratitude? (You know, apart from needed mental health treatment and care.)”
Where in my life am I experiencing fulfillment?
Ten of Spades
I’m actually feeling pretty good about myself lately. It’s about that whole “survival” thing. The fact that I have been through so much, dealt with so many devastating hurdles, and not just survived them but thrived in their wake. Remembering this gives me confidence, and a feeling of fulfillment that comes from a sense of accomplishment.
What is something in my life this year that I’m grateful for?
Nine of Diamonds
See, the thing is? Even though the pandemic has sucked ass, and even though I lost all but one of my part time jobs for a good part of the spring and summer… and have only really picked back up half the work load (working for others) that I had pre-pandemic? I have been able to adjust my finances to take the brunt of these changes without damaging anything other than the amount of time it will take to pay off my mortgage.
Yes, I want it paid off… but I’m relieved to have spent so much time busting my ass to pay the highest amount possible per payment because it prepared me for what’s going on now… when I need to pay less. Because of this, my situation is still stable… and I’m so grateful for that.
What is something in my life this year that brings me joy?
Seven of Clubs
I’m kickin’ ass, baby. Building off the previous question in a way, what has brought me (and brings me) joy this year is that I have been able to support not just my lifestyle and those that I love with my efforts, but also continue to keep my business thriving during this time when so much has swung out of sync and is not the norm.
What is something in my life this year that I am succeeding at?
Six of Spades
I am succeeding at finding a better way. A new path. It has taken a good part of this year to work through the psychological process of letting go of how I have done things in the past. It’s a struggle not to push myself beyond my limits, and actually allow myself the healing rest and recuperation I need. Walking away from that highly abusive dynamic I had going on previously is not an easy task, not a quick one. But I am succeeding at it, one step at a time.