Today’s meditation was curtailed by a woman on the sidewalk outside singing to strangers about God.
Yes, yes… I know that when you meditate, you should be able to allow the sounds and distractions around you to flow through you and around you without disturbing you… but you know what? Some crackpot chick telling people she’s the mouthpiece of God and that everything coming out of her mouth is directly from the Almighty then caterwauling to any that will listen and all that don’t wanna? That was just impossible for me to meditate through.
Poor homeless Larry that decided to talk to her go the serenade of his life and I bet he’ll think twice about talking to strangers in the future.
Today’s draw is the King of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition. This translates into an energy of authority or an authority figure that is in touch with the feelings and emotions of those around them and uses that knowledge to support and lead.
What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the dragon tattoo. It is a reminder, yes? Those that are in tuned to the emotions of others can often come off as wishy-washy or weak. Empathy can often come off as weak. But it is not weak, it is a strength all its own.
The message in today’s card is that being open to your emotions does not make you weak. It allows you to be in tune with the world around you through understanding mercurial elements within yourself and others. Those with a deep connection to their emotions and the empathy to relate to others on an emotional level are just as capable of being fierce and powerful as those that close themselves off. Perhaps, they are even stronger.
DECK USED: BOTAN TAROT
Reading Summary: With a central theme of cause and effect (Justice) we see that too much rest and reflection (Four of Swords) leads to a situation where you do not want to move forward and end up not just procrastinating, but outright trying to ignore what’s going on around you (Eight of Swords).
Take Away: I mentioned this the other day when speaking with Gideon. The fact that I feel that having taken time to rest and relax has made me feel like I’m lazy and made it hard for me to “dive into” my work in the way that I’m accustomed to. But is this really laziness? Is this really a refusal to deal? Or is it an adjustment period where I’m learning how to do things in a different way? The uncertainty here is something I struggle with.
DECK USED: HARDY TAROT
Reading Summary: Because I really don’t wanna juggle more on my plate (Two of Pentacles). I would rather ignore that it’s coming than deal with it (Six of Swords). Not to mention I don’t want to give up time with Gideon (The Lovers Rx).
The first two cards are connected through color schemes, making the juggling of the Two of Pentacles and the “not wanting to deal with it and run away instead” of the Six of Swords connected to each other and intertwined.
The bright red of The Lovers card combined with the lack of cooler tones causes this card to be the outlier. The design of the card itself in its reversed position looks like a double Hanged Man imagery creating the impression that both Gideon and myself (as lovers) will have to go through a time of delay and change of perception. The red in this position feels like flames, which brings to mind the holiday rush… which relates to this card in that it is roasting the two hanged men. Pressure… heat… strain.
Take Away: Gideon and I will get through the holiday rush together, even if there will be a lot of pressure and struggle involved (as there is every year). The procrastination stems more directly from the struggle I’m having with not allowing bad habits from the past to sneak in and hijack my efforts for doing things differently this year.
DECK USED: TAROT BY ALEXANDER DANILOFF 2012 IV EDITION
Question: What lesson does 2020 have for my soul’s journey?
Reading Summary: You reap what you sow (Justice), so make sure that you are working towards fulfillment (Nine of Pentacles on fire) instead of just defending what you already have (Seven of Wands).
Take Away: I know that I chose the topic for the Sunday spread for today as my procrastination, but… I really didn’t expect for all of my readings today to actually end up being on that subject. *LOL*
The cards here indicate that the lesson 2020 has for me is that I need to do more than just defend what I have. I need to make sure that I’m actively reaching for more. Does it have to be the “more” that I’ve always pushed for in the past? No. That level of push was too much. but I do need to continue to reach for something more. Stagnancy is not healthy.
DECK USED: ARCHEON TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I best put myself first?
Reading Summary: Fucking around (The Fool) means lack of ingenuity (Three of Coins Rx). Gather up your friends (Three of Cups) and charge head first toward your goals (Knight of Pentacles). Don’t rush and accept that it might be slow going (Knight of Coins and Lovers Rx).
Take Away: I can put myself first at this time by getting back on the path of progress. It’s okay to move slow, but just as another reading today has already stated… stagnancy is not healthy. So make sure that I’m using the help and support available to me, and get moving.