Today’s meditation was the site of an impromptu nap today. Which is to say that I did intend to meditate but I only made it in a few minutes before I ended up dozing off into a nap.
What I wanna know? Is how in the hell I can go from being all the way down to the wall with my legs propped up on the wall, fall asleep, and somehow wake up stretched full length on the bed. How did I manage to move all the way down the bed in order to stretch out without waking up?
Today’s draw is bunnies!! No, just kidding. I mean not kidding because it is bunnies, but that’s… right, okay. Anyway. Today’s draw is the Ten of Coins, which is traditionally a representation of satisfactory outcomes, contentment, and sharing the wealth you have worked so hard for with your loved ones to create fulfillment for all. It’s about wealth that goes beyond money and can include one’s health, home, stability, security, as well as their resources and manifestations.
This card is so damned cute, but what really stands out to me in this card today is the moon phases that run up along the left side of the card from the new moon at the bottom left all the way up to the full moon at the upper right corner.
The appearance of this cycle portrayed in this card speaks to me of manifestation over time. The new moon is the seed of new things, the beginning energy that grows and matures over the length of the moon’s cycle until it is at full power upon the full moon’s appearance, just as when you are building security and comfort, you have to start at the beginning and work over time to accrue what you need to get to where you want to be in life.
The message in this card today is about how the things worth having take time to accomplish. Nothing easy is as valued as those things you work for, strive for, build over time, and accomplish through hard work and patience.
DECK USED: BOTAN TAROT
Reading Summary: Passionate pursuit (Page of Wands) of my man (King of Cups) is providing me needed respite (Four of Swords) over new opportunities (Ace of Pentacles).
Take Away: In other words, enjoy this time with Gideon while you can. When I pulled these cards I thought that it would be an answer on what I need to express… but it turns out it’s something that needed to be expressed to me. These cards were meant to remind me that today is our last day to enjoy any decently large bulk of time together before he goes on vacation. I missed this message first thing when I drew these cards, although I did catch the part about valuing and enjoying the time I have.
The thing is? I’m extremely good at creating opportunities for myself, especially when it comes to creative pursuits and making money. So it can be hard for me to step back and rest, recover, and truly enjoy that respite instead of struggling against it and my nature to move forward and do more. What I needed to hear was that I need to step back, take a breath, and enjoy this last day of freedom.
DECK USED: 20TH CENTURY TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsSep2020 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Your Addiction / How to introduce Moderation
How to Introduce Moderation – Focus on the positive things you’ve done (Six of Wands) and stay vigilant against letting old habits resurface (Seven of Wands).
Take Away – I was actually expecting a different addiction to come up in these cards today. *LOL* This one works, tho. Anyway, it’s absolutely true. When I become involved in a project, I close myself off from the world and even from myself. During this time, I exist in this quiet grey area where the only thing that exists is the endeavor I’m working on, and the passage of time in block like increments. This allows me to work very quickly for huge chunks of time without feeling much in the way of negative effects physically or emotionally.
And… it’s not healthy. At all. This year has been all about trying to shift me into a place where I can get through the holiday season without doing that, so it makes sense that it would come up now in this reading.
The cards here indicate that the key to making sure that I don’t fall back into this unhealthy habit is to keep in mind just how good I have done this year at changing my work process and how I deal with not just stress but pressure… and stay vigilant against the appearance of warning signs that this old habit has started to try and sneak back in.
DECK USED: SAMIRAMAY TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: Do I feel I deserve love, compassion, and empathy?
Do I Feel I Deserve Love?
Queen of Swords – Lepidolite & Gentian
Lepidolite is a stone that contains high levels of lithium… an element that is used as a medication to stabilize moods. Gentian root is used to help in an array of digestion problems. Together, what I see in this combination is the need to take what creates your torment and turmoil and work through it. Consider what has happened and come to peace with it.
Examine the past to find strength in the present is the theme of this card. When I examine my past, I see that those in my past had made love something that is conditional. In the present, through Gideon, my sister, and Z I have discovered that true and abiding love is anything but. It’s not something to be earned, but is something that we all deserve, no matter who we are or how worthy we feel of it.
Do I Feel I Deserve Empathy?
Nine of Cups – Emerald & Rose
Both emeralds and roses are highly valued for their beauty throughout history, and are both strongly associated with themes to do with romantic love and domestic bliss.
Like love, empathy is something that everyone deserves but very few receive. The card here and blend of emerald and rose upon it indicate that I am very happy with where I am in the scheme of empathy. I am receiving what I need to in order to work through my trauma, and those that support me do so in the ways I need… including providing empathy when I need it.
Do I Feel I Deserve Compassion?
Eight of Pentacles – Garnet & Cherry
Garnet and cherry wood have something in common that most perhaps do not realize, but actually is the basis of their combination on this card. They are both excellent foundational building blocks to create something of great quality and beauty.
These “strong bones” (as they would say of a house) are a reflection of the foundation and strength that I have within me that allows me to weather one storm after another.
That said… Do I deserve compassion? Absolutely. But I am strong enough to continue on regardless of if others choose to bestow it upon me or not.
Being mute, this is something that you notice often is either present in your interactions with others or is not. In those that give it, there is an underlying strength that runs deep within. Being able to express compassion without pity is a beautiful thing, and something that is very, very rare.
In this way, this card reflects not just my own strong foundation, but also the strength of others that possess this rare quality.