Today’s meditation was about five minutes long before the fire alarm went off for the entire building and sort of… well yeah. I guess I could meditate through it, but it’s probably not the best idea. By the time I managed to get back upstairs it was time to spend time with you, so I decided to put off my meditation until tonight at bed time instead.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of finance, resources, manifestation, health, or the physical world. This is often portrayed through themes involving responsibility and practicality rolled up in a nurturing atmosphere or nature.
Probably not entirely surprising, considering the talk we had about this being one of the most racially divers decks I’ve ever seen (and published in 1988, no less), the first thing I noticed in the imagery of this card was that the woman depicted here is Asian. The second thing that stood out to me in the imagery of today’s card was the ruffled lace-like edge of her pink headdress, and how that headdress matches the flowers of the Althaea officinalis plant.
A lot of times when we think of the Queen of Pentacles, although there is that “mother earth” like energy, there is also a hardness there that comes with the practicality of the pentacle suit. The pink of her headdress softens this impression that is portrayed in her very rigid posture, and that softness of the lacy edge of the fabric continues that trend of softness, blending the hard and soft aspects together into one.
Marshmallow root is a soothing and cleansing herb that is used to gently cleans and heal the kidneys. The kidneys filter out dangerous toxins from our body, but sometimes they need a little extra help.
Sometimes? We all need a little help and a little bit of gentleness. And that is the message in today’s card. No matter how tough you pretend to me, or how rigid you hold yourself? There always comes a time when you need a little gentleness and nurturing, and when that time comes? It’s okay to partake in that and allow it to soothe and heal you inside and out.
DECK USED: HERBAL TAROT
#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I become more accepting of the parts of myself I shy away from?
Reading Summary: Actively work towards accepting (Knave of Swords) that sometimes re-ordering things (Two of Pentacles) takes some time and isn’t prone to instant gratification (Seven of Pentacles).
Take Away: The parts of myself I shy away from, in this case, are my impatience and negativity toward myself. My patience feeds that negativity, giving it something to pick at and gripe about in my internal dialog. By seeking out ways to be more accepting that sometimes (even for me) things will have to take a bit of time and that that is natural, it helps to quiet those inner voices that are constantly trying to tell me that I’m not doing enough.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS
#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What unresolved angst is my inner adolescent still holding onto?
Reading Summary: This is about having gone through struggles and imbalance and needing to heal myself instead of being able to depend on others (Temperance Rx). It’s about the uncertainty and poverty (The Moon) that I went through when I struck out on my own, and the need to create my own stability and security on my own (Four of Pentacles).
Take Away: By the time I turned sixteen, I was already an adult. I knew I needed to take care of myself, and I knew that I couldn’t heal myself or help myself while under my parents roof. I emancipated, renouncing my adolescence officially and legally in preference for becoming an adult and taking those steps into adulthood early. In doing this, I cast myself into a world of uncertainty and instability that I’ve never fully recovered from. The cards here indicate the reason that I have never fully recovered from the trauma of that time of instability (and thus the reason I am so hyper-focused upon home and financial stability now) is because my inner adolescent has not healed from it and is still angsty and upset about it.
DECK USED: HAPPY TAROT
#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: What part of my life needs more grounding at this time?
Reading Summary: Emotional fuckery (Knight of Cups) caused by too much too fast (Chariot) leading to retreat (Hermit). I stop the conflict (Five of Wands) and pick a direction (Two of Wands).
Take Away: This deck, I’m finding, has a really harsh voice sometimes. BUT, it’s not wrong. I need to pick a direction to go in before my emotions send me tumbling off the edge into chaos and in need of retreating into myself again. That inner conflict isn’t good for me, and when I sense it starting to rise, I need to not retreat, but find a way to work with it and through it instead.
DECK USED: STONE MARSEILLE TAROT