Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and another of the harp strings meditation sessions. It was uneventful and peaceful, and I got a really good stretch in through the process of it. I’m still searching for a similar sound track that uses randomly plucked cello strings instead of harp strings. No luck yet, but I’m searching.
Today’s draw is the Two of Winds (Wands) which is traditionally a representation of coming to a crossroads and needing to take a moment to make a clear choice. This impasse requires thought as the decisions here are not easy ones to make.
The imagery in this makes me think of a corrupted version of Plato’s split-aparts.
“Once, a long, long time ago, we all had four legs and two heads. And then the gods threw down thunderbolts and split everyone into two. Each half then had two legs and one head. But the separation left both sides with a desperate yearning to be reunited. Because they each shared the same sole. And ever since then, all people spend their lives searching for the other half of their soul.” – Plato
What strikes me the strongest is the two profiles coming together to become one face, and what that says to me in relation to this card is the necessity to gather information. You need to have the full picture before you make a decision, as opposed to just going with your gut.
Today’s card is a reminder that the best decisions are informed decisions. Yes, intuition is a great thing, but it doesn’t lead the way on everything and sometimes you have to do the work (and the homework) to make sure that you are making the right choices for you.
DECK USED: JAPARIDZE TAROT
#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: What in my life am I not seeing clearly?
Reading Summary: The. temptation (The Devil) to pretend that everything is fine (Nine of Cups connected to the Devil) is very strong, but I need to remember that it’s okay for things to not be fine sometimes (Five of Pentacles) and there are others in my life waiting and eager to help me through those times (Two of Cups).
Take Away: I do that. A lot. I have a habit of not allowing others to see when I’m struggling, and pretending to the point that even I can’t tell when shit is not “all okay”. I don’t do it as pervasively as I used to, but that tendency is still there to “fake it til you make it” when it comes to how I’m doing and whether or not I need help. The cards here are indicating I need to pay more attention to this tendency and work on calling myself out on it more often while leaning on others to help me through instead of just trudging on solo.
DECK USED: THE CRYSTAL TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What can I do to help my inner child feel more protected?
Reading Summary: Keep alive those feelings from my youth (Six of Cups) that made me feel warm and safe (Three of Cups), and don’t allow current thoughts and worries (Nine of Swords) to overtake and cloud those feelings and memories.
Take Away: This reading echos back to the reading about the little red corvette and talk with my mother when I was sixteen. It speaks of the fact that that memory still holds those positive memories within it that felt good at that time… even though in the here and now I can see the machinations involved. Yet, those good feelings live on, even if there is no basis for them to be valid.
The cards here indicate that to help my inner child feel more connected, I need to keep those good memories like that, and the feelings attached to them, alive and well instead of deconstructing and/or invalidating them.
DECK USED: LINESTRIDER TAROT
#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: How can I positively keep investing in myself?
Reading Summary: Note the color connection between the Devil and the Two of Coins, creating a dominant theme between them, that is then reduced to being only a small element in the Ten of Cups (the green cup).
Keep on top of that temptation (The Devil) that makes you want to balance more than you’re ready for (Two of Coins) so that you can create for yourself a more fulfilling existence. Color coordination between the first two cards versus the last card where only one cup is green.
Take Away: I can keep investing positively in myself by remembering my commitment to finding a better way of juggling my responsibilities that allows for more “down time” and more time enjoying life rather than pushing myself harder and harder.
DECK USED: SIMPLY DEEP TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How have I grown?
Reading Summary: Learning how to better silence my inner voice when it goes into attack mode (Knight of Swords Rx) and to ask for help (Two of Cups) instead of taking it all on myself. Understanding and accepting (Page of Swords) that a rebuild is needed in creating a healthier method of stability (Ace of Coins).
Take Away: A lot of cards in today’s readings are about that new method and the restructuring of how I go about balancing self care with my responsibilities and obligations. It feels like this message has really come forward the last few days, and I think the constant reminders are because I need constant reminders right now as the pandemic restrictions start to lift.