It’s Okay to Not Know the Answer

Today’s meditation was just under ten minutes long, as I got interrupted by the fire alarm going off.  Not ours, but the building one.   Everything is fine, but that loud as fuck siren definitely yanks you right out of your relaxed zen state.  It was not pleasant, although… the meditation up to that point was.

Japaridze Tarot - The HermitToday’s draw is the Hermit card, which is traditionally read as an indication of retreat into the self in order to work on personal growth and understanding, self reflection, and a need for a time of independence and introspection.

No one element stands out to me in this card today, nor does it particularly align with my understanding and interpretation of the hermit.  What I see her is abstract chaos.  Random and without rhyme or reason.  The card doesn’t speak to me at all, in fact… which is the message.   I struggled all day trying to find the elements of this card that would mean something, but it is in the confusion and the nothingness where the answer lies.

The message in today’s card is that not everything is always going to make sense, and that’s perfectly okay.  It’s okay to be confused and chaotic.  It’s okay to say “I don’t understand”.   And it’s okay to accept that something is ‘beyond your scope’ if it truly is something you are unable to grasp.

So often we feel as if we have to have all the answers and can never be wrong.  The message here is in the freedom of accepting that we are all fallible… and it’s okay to not know everything.


#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
: How can I better deal with crisis?

Tarot Sirene

Reading Summary:  Be kind and generous with others (Six of Pentacles), make sure to look over all of your options and make good decisions (Lovers) even when things are feeling out of control (Tower) and you will find yourself coming out the other side with things well in hand (The Star) and return to a sense of stability quickly (Four of Wands).

Take Away:  When crisis hits, I can often have the tendency to turn inward and block others out.  The Six of Pentacles is a reminder that others depend upon me and retreat into myself is not the best choice.  Instead, I need to keep a clear head so that I can observe the situation and grasp all options open to me in order to guide myself and those that depend on me back to stable ground quickly.


#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
: Do Spread #1

Dream Raven TarotHow is the rise of summer energy manifesting in my life?
Ace of Wands – I’m being given the opportunity this summer to look at how I handle my passions, how I balance my responsibilities and my entrepreneurial drive, and how to distribute my attention to find more joy and creative pleasure in my life.  The energies this summer are there to lend themselves to finding inspired solutions that I can carry forward into the future.

How can I harness these summer energies to my purposes?
Wheel of Fortune – By focusing on staying centered and instead of allowing myself to spin out of control off on different tangents (as I recently did for about two weeks). It can be difficult to stay centered and focused when you have so much swirling around you looking for a place to land like a spiral of birds flying overhead. Stop looking up at the spiraling birds and focus on organizing my plate instead.

Where would I be best served in directing these energies over the summer?
Judgement and Ace of Cups – In finding ways to silence my inner critic in order to allow myself to return to that “dappled sunlight” exploration of the emotional growth I’ve been experiencing over the spring.


#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
: What am I invited to meditate on/invest in today?

Fanuna's Tarot

Reading Summary:  Your committed relationship (The Lovers) needs some attention (Nine of Cups) so set aside your drive (Page of Wands) and your need to coax your finances into a more comfortable position (Page of Stones).

Take Away:  Honestly?  That breakdown above is after the fact, because the message I got from these cards when they were laid out before me was “talk to Gideon about the chaos”.   So I did.   In retrospect, I can’t find how I got that message, but it was very clear to me this morning when I first pulled them exactly what they were saying.



Gideon’s Challenge

lifts and lightens
from within
it’s ever present
yet often ignored
until the moment
it sparks
to shimmer
and shine.

I am a big supporter of the “leave nothing but footprints” mentality of visiting the forests and spending time there.   That said?  I have to admit that finding this little colorful rock hidden along a trail through the wetlands early in the spring lent me a little extra glimmer of extra spirit to my soul.

You find these rocks in the parks here a lot lately. That little lift this one gave me is their purpose. You are encouraged to pick them up and take them with you when you find one.  I chose to leave this one behind to lift another’s spirits just as it had my own.

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Nicoletta Ceccoli Tarot, The Empty Cup Oracle, Yarn of Mama Shamana Oracle

EarthSea Battle, Mosquito, and Broom – Neither of the girls in the cards look particularly thrilled with the prospect of bloodshed and violence. The brook indicates it’s time to brush away the worries that everything is going to come crashing down in a mess of epic proportions.  Take a breath, cleanse yourself of the stress and strain that the last couple of months have piled on your chest concerning your financial stability and security.  It’s time to clear the air of that fog and distance yourself from it as best you can, even if it means stripping off that pretty blue dress (your composure) and having an emotional moment in order to do so.

AirDrippy Ice Cream and Tangle – Don’t allow your insecurities to eat your brains. Sometimes when you allow your inner critic too much freedom, it gets everything in your head all tangled up and you end up biting a chunk out of yourself purely by accident.  That inner critic? It revels in the chaos and the insecurity that it causes.  Don’t let it push you to the point you end up secretly nibbling away at yourself while presenting that pretty facade of “everything is okay”.  There’s shit going on back there in the shadows… don’t ignore it.

WaterTangled Rose and Cutting Board – This ties into the Air position.  Everything needs pruning now and then or else it gets unruly and chaotic.  That includes your emotions.  Make sure that you don’t let your emotions get all tangled up and invested with the inner critic’s ploy.  That mental struggle going on does not have to turn into an emotional maelstrom.

FireRapunzel’s Dragon and Concentric Rings – Take some time to examine your past and how it influences how you feel about yourself and your craft.  You’re skilled and passionate about your business, but what lies behind your business is both creativity and that creative spark that drives you.  Don’t lose touch with that but instead explore it and how it has influenced you.

WaningLemon Gathering and “She stands up taller and breathes in deeper” – It’s time for a reality check. It’s okay to take pride in yourself, getting where you are at now took a lot of hard work and that is worth a bit of acknowledgement.  Just don’t let that pride go to your head.  Stay conscious of how you view others and grounded in your interactions with them.

WaxingIn the Boat and “while others stay fearful to open their doors” – You have someone on your side to watch your back.  Don’t allow fear to rule you.  That big bad wolf in your back pocket is there whenever you need him to keep watch so that you can feel safe and secure.

Take Away – There’s a serious need of cleansing indicated in these cards.  A cleaning away of fears and worries and hidden judgements about both myself and others.  This is a safe time to take care of this process of cleansing out those things, as you have someone in the boat with you that is eager and ready to stand guard over you and protect your back while you deal with your inner crap.