Don’t Forget to Chill

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was another of the harp strings meditations.  It was interesting that I didn’t fall asleep even though I was able to keep my mind open and quiet throughout the ten minute meditation today.  Perhaps this is because I was visualizing the growth of a plant from seed to bloom during that ten minute period.

Herbal TarotFirst off, I’ve decided to forego using the Japaridze Tarot for my daily card for the rest of the month.  I think it is better suited to readings involving more than a single card, so I have put it into rotation with the rest of the decks I am working with for readings this month instead.

Today’s draw is the Star card, which is traditionally interpreted as a card indicating themes of hope and faith, renewal, balance, and spirituality through connection with divinity.

What stands out to me today in the imagery of this card is the flowing design of trees in the background matching up with the flow of water from the pitcher in the foreground, and the blooming  Skullcap plant growing behind the woman.

Scutellaria lateriflora is a mild sedative that assists in creating a feeling of calm and peace for the mind and body. With this card following the Tower, the introduction of Skullcap provides a calming influence to follow the chaos and upheaval.  This is further reinforced by that flow of blue between the woods in the background and the water in the foreground.  With water being connected to emotions, the message that I come away with from this card today is about taking a breath and fostering calm.

There’s been a few distressing things going on of late with the attempted home invasion, the riots, and the very distressing customer experience this week… my anxiety is a little bit higher than normal.  The appearance of this card in my daily pull today is a reminder to step back and take a breath… or three.  Take some time to foster a little bit of extra calm in your life.


#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
: How can I foster more creativity in my life?

Fanuna's Tarot

Reading Summary: Just do it (Knight of Swords). Open your eyes to help that is there for you (Five of Pentacles) and involve others in the process (Three of Cups).

Take Away: Honestly?  Although my creative pursuits are usually solitary, since I’m going to be playing with fire with the whole wood burning thing… involving others might not be such a bad idea.  I do have a bit of a reputation with fire, after all, and I’d hate to accidentally torch my condo.   By having someone there to spot or keep watch, it will give me more freedom not to worry about that aspect of things so much.


#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
: What can I do to help my inner adolescent feel less neglected?

Phantasmagoric Theater TarotReading Summary:   Being negative (Nine of Swords) about admirable stuff (Four of Wands) is leaving my inner adolescent set adrift (imagery in The Star).

Take Away:  Okay, so… I struggled with this one a bit.  And it turns out that it was a bit of a double whammy using this deck for this question because I struggle reading this deck in the tarot manner… and I’m not particularly connected to my inner adolescent.  So it was a bit of a roadblock.    I did find the meaning, but it took a bit.

What would help my inner adolescent feel less neglected is if I stopped negating praise and admiration when it comes my way.   I enjoy praise… I even need praise sometimes. And yet, I feel ashamed whenever I receive praise and feel good from it. By ashamed, I mean that I feel like I shouldn’t need it or enjoy it.  Even if I choose not to connect to my inner adolescent, I can help him feel less neglected by making an effort to not allow that shame such a stronghold.


#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
: Where/How am I being asked to take better care of myself?

Dream Raven Tarot

Reading Summary:  It’s okay to take some time (Hermit) to work through your money issues, but make sure if you do so, you have a plan in place to lead you through the uncertainty the work will take you through.

Take Away:  This reading has to do with shadow work and my issues with scarcity and overwhelming need for stability and security.   I know that the cards say that this is a way I can better take care of myself, by exploring and working through these issues… but I really don’t feel that I am at a place yet where shadow work is the right path for me.  I do think this issue is a good suggestion on where to start when I’m ready, though.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What do I need to stop?

Japaridze Tarot

Reading Summary: Leaning so hard on myself and my craft (Eight of Gardens). When I do this, it has a habit of burning me out (Ten of Winds) and making me need to retreat (The Hermit).

Take Away:  The card here indicates a cycle.  It is that cycle of leaning into my work so hard that burnout creeps in and fucks me up to the point I have to drop everything and recover… then start again.   This is what I need to stop, and is a pattern of behavior I’m trying to find a way to ease up on in my life.


Gideon’s Challenge


It comes
with the softest touch.
like a feather.
like the kiss of sunlight.
With senses
even the slightest brush
creates fireworks.

As much rough and tumble as we enjoy, it’s the tender moments that sink the deepest.  Intimacy between us is so intense and often violent, and yet the aftercare is the sweetest tenderness I’ve ever known. I do not need to be treated like delicate porcelain, I crave that intensity and collision of power and need… but it’s the tenderness that comes after that touches the heart and breaks open the inner protective shell, granting you access to that part of me that none other has ever been allowed to witness or touch.

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