Today’s meditation was just under ten minutes long, as I got interrupted by the fire alarm going off. Not ours, but the building one. Everything is fine, but that loud as fuck siren definitely yanks you right out of your relaxed zen state. It was not pleasant, although… the meditation up to that point was.
Today’s draw is the Hermit card, which is traditionally read as an indication of retreat into the self in order to work on personal growth and understanding, self reflection, and a need for a time of independence and introspection.
No one element stands out to me in this card today, nor does it particularly align with my understanding and interpretation of the hermit. What I see her is abstract chaos. Random and without rhyme or reason. The card doesn’t speak to me at all, in fact… which is the message. I struggled all day trying to find the elements of this card that would mean something, but it is in the confusion and the nothingness where the answer lies.
The message in today’s card is that not everything is always going to make sense, and that’s perfectly okay. It’s okay to be confused and chaotic. It’s okay to say “I don’t understand”. And it’s okay to accept that something is ‘beyond your scope’ if it truly is something you are unable to grasp.
So often we feel as if we have to have all the answers and can never be wrong. The message here is in the freedom of accepting that we are all fallible… and it’s okay to not know everything.
DECK USED: JAPARIDZE TAROT
#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I better deal with crisis?
Reading Summary: Be kind and generous with others (Six of Pentacles), make sure to look over all of your options and make good decisions (Lovers) even when things are feeling out of control (Tower) and you will find yourself coming out the other side with things well in hand (The Star) and return to a sense of stability quickly (Four of Wands).
Take Away: When crisis hits, I can often have the tendency to turn inward and block others out. The Six of Pentacles is a reminder that others depend upon me and retreat into myself is not the best choice. Instead, I need to keep a clear head so that I can observe the situation and grasp all options open to me in order to guide myself and those that depend on me back to stable ground quickly.
DECK USED: TAROT SIRENE MARSEILLE
How is the rise of summer energy manifesting in my life?
Ace of Wands – I’m being given the opportunity this summer to look at how I handle my passions, how I balance my responsibilities and my entrepreneurial drive, and how to distribute my attention to find more joy and creative pleasure in my life. The energies this summer are there to lend themselves to finding inspired solutions that I can carry forward into the future.
How can I harness these summer energies to my purposes?
Wheel of Fortune – By focusing on staying centered and instead of allowing myself to spin out of control off on different tangents (as I recently did for about two weeks). It can be difficult to stay centered and focused when you have so much swirling around you looking for a place to land like a spiral of birds flying overhead. Stop looking up at the spiraling birds and focus on organizing my plate instead.
Where would I be best served in directing these energies over the summer?
Judgement and Ace of Cups – In finding ways to silence my inner critic in order to allow myself to return to that “dappled sunlight” exploration of the emotional growth I’ve been experiencing over the spring.
DECK USED: DREAM RAVEN TAROT
#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: What am I invited to meditate on/invest in today?
Reading Summary: Your committed relationship (The Lovers) needs some attention (Nine of Cups) so set aside your drive (Page of Wands) and your need to coax your finances into a more comfortable position (Page of Stones).
Take Away: Honestly? That breakdown above is after the fact, because the message I got from these cards when they were laid out before me was “talk to Gideon about the chaos”. So I did. In retrospect, I can’t find how I got that message, but it was very clear to me this morning when I first pulled them exactly what they were saying.
DECK USED: FANUNA’S TAROT