Reality vs Fiction

Today’s meditation was… skipped.  I honestly had every intention of doing it, but I got distracted on my phone and playing a game and…yeah so it totally didn’t happen.   I will try to fit it in at the end of the day, though.  I’d rather spend some time with you than try it right now.

Japaridze Tarot - Nine of WindsToday’s draw is the Nine of Winds (Nine of Wands) which traditionally is a representation of stress, anxiety, depression, mental anguish, and insomnia.

What significantly stands out to me in the imagery of this card today is the position of the hands.   The woman appears resting (if not necessarily restful) but the position of her hands belies any sort of rest at all for me. If you’ve ever tried to take up this position, you’ll know that it’s just… not particularly restful at all. Not with hunched shoulders and one hand over the other like that.   It’s a position of concealment and, with the head turned to the side, a position that portrays to me a feeling of shame.

It reminds me of the story of Adam and Eve, and how when the apple was eaten and they were tossed out of the garden, they experienced modesty for the first time and were ashamed of their nudity.   That’s what I see here today in this image.

The message in today’s card is about shame, and if you really have something to be ashamed of… or if it’s just your inner narrative or other’s judgements that are creating that sense of shame within you.   This connects to the reading I did a few days ago and the mention of my father’s expectations and voice in my head… still there years after he’s passed, and still driving me in very negative ways some cases.

This card is an encouragement to examine the things I feel shame over… and let go of those that have no basis in reality.


#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
: What areas of my life could benefit from change?

Stone Marseille Tarot

Reading Summary: Stop trying to balance in so much responsibility (Reyne de Coupe) and pushing forward so hard (Le Chariot).  You don’t have to be in control all the time of everything under your purvey (First two Cards together).  Take time, instead, to wallow in your connection with others near and dear (Two of Cups).

Take Away:  Over the past couple of weeks I’ve started falling into old habits.  Instead of allowing myself to continue to grow, I’ve set my emotions into a place of stability and used that stability to grab hold of the reigns of my responsibilities and seize control.  The problem with this is that control has pushed away the growth I’ve been working toward.

The cards here indicate that the change I could benefit from is easing up on those reigns and allowing myself more time with those I love.


#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
: Philosophical Question: Does life require a purpose and a goal?

Tarot of MetamorphosisReading Summary: Although we are equipped (The Magician), we may not always see where we’re going (Fool). Development of the soul (Queen of Chalices).

Take Away:  When life is given to us, it is given to us with the tools to move forward along our life’s path.  That path is there before us whether we choose to consciously seek out purpose, or wander upon it aimlessly.  We are unable to remain in place, unable to hold back time from moving forward, and it is time that carries us on that path. 

When I see the Queen of Chalices card, I see the development of pigs to humans.  I see a development of what makes us humans. That is the sentient emotions of a developed human being.

So no…. I don’t think there is a goal.  I do not think that there is an end prize to be obtained as we move along life’s path.   But I do believe that this path has a purpose.  That purpose is the development of the soul that, over time, creates a more enlightened spirit within us.


#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
: I welcome the energy available to me, and shift my consciousness to the present. Draw a card. Let its meaning guide/inspire you today.

Dream Raven TarotReading Summary:  Decompression time.

Take Away:  Tomorrow is an orders day.   You’re feeling overwhelmed and overburdened.

Take today and spend some quality time with him so that you can tackle orders day with a little less weight on your shoulders tomorrow.

You know you need the break.  Take it.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my biggest challenge?

Tarot for Dandelions

Reading Summary: Delays (The World Rx) in my emotional growth (Ace of Cups) because I wandered off the center of the wheel (Wheel of Fortune) and went for a spin on the dark side (Three of Swords).

Take Away:  I understand now that the stalker card of the Ace of Cups I’ve been experiencing recently was a warning that I had tumbled off my path of emotional growth and was starting to tumble back into old habits.

Right now, that is my biggest challenge, and it’s what’s referred to here in this reading.   As I lost my center and began to stumble, I began to feel the unpleasant effects of that lack of centering.  My biggest challenge is keeping that center that will allow me to continue in my emotional growth, even while balancing my responsibilities.


One thought on “Reality vs Fiction

  1. If it were up to me, you wouldn’t feel any shame about anything…but I know that mine is not the only voice in your head and that sometimes it happens. But the message in today’s draw is right, you shouldn’t let shame, or more specifically someone else’s need to pass judgement and cause shame to take a permanent place in your mind. It doesn’t serve much of a purpose except to make you feel bad and you have more than enough of that, hm?

    You’ll figure out the balance between emotions and responsibilities soon enough, love. I know that it’s hard for you to not to push responsibilities all the way to the front of the line until there is no time for anything else, but you require more than work work work in life. You deserve more than that

    I love you beautiful. Always.

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