It’s In Your Head

Today’s meditation was skipped again.  I know that I should be doing my meditation because I’m having a bit of an issue with my anxiety, and yet the anxiety seems to make it so that it’s nearly impossible for me to even consider doing the meditation.   I need to buckle down and just do it.

Nano Starseeds Tarot - Nine of SwordsToday’s draw is the Nine of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of themes that have to do with nightmares, anxiety, stress, and insomnia.

What stands out to me in this card’s imagery today is that I have absolutely NO idea what the pop culture references are in this card.  I know the figure and the dog are dressed up as something, but I’m completely lost on the reference.

It’s in that cluelessness that the message lies, because like with most anxiety and stress, my current issues with anxiety reside in the unknown.  Something is coming, I know it’s coming.  I can feel that it’s coming…. but I don’t know what.  I have clues and ideas what it may be, but no specifics.

The reminder in the Nine of Swords is that anxiety is a part of the mind. It’s not some weird physical ailment inflicted upon you out of nowhere, but rather is a physical manifestation of what is going on in your brain, whether it’s in the conscious mind or the subconscious one.   I need to do what I can to calm my mind, and my nerves and anxiety will then follow.   In other words… the message in today’s card is to get off my ass and start doing my daily meditation again.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I continue to learn from my life’s struggles?

Broken Mirror Tarot 4th Edition

Reading Summary:  It’s important to evaluate what it is you value most (Nine of Coins) instead of trying to defend everything you do and don’t value as a whole (Nine of Wands), because you can’t take it all with you (Six of Swords).

Take Away:  One of the purposes of my struggles in life is to learn that you “can’t take it all with you” and so you need to choose those things that are most important to you to defend and protect.  Without this sense of discernment, it’s too easy to become overwhelmed crack under the weight of too much responsibility.


#DiscordTarotolicsFeb2021 Challenge Prompt
:  How can I better handle and/or respond to criticism?

Nano Starseeds TarotHow can I better handle criticism?

Six of Wands and Ten of Swords – Remember that although we all want to feel as if we are appreciated and have our accomplishments lauded, criticism (both the constructive kind and not) can help us to find a better way of doing things than what we’re already doing.  It hurts… it can hurt a lot.  But, it also gives us an opportunity to learn and try again… and do better the next time around.

How can I better respond to criticism?

Strength Rx and Nine of Coins – Let it go and instead focus upon the good stuff in life.  Sometimes criticism hurts, even the constructive kind, and it’s important to be able to let that go and take value where you can get it then apply that to your own life to make your own “coins” shine even brighter.  At other times, useless criticism can be the most venomous of all, and you can use those good things involved to help you let go of the pain and focus on what really matters.


Daily Self Kindness

I made the decision to change my trip to the post office from Friday to tomorrow to help confront that oncoming “bad news” I feel is coming and get it over with (or maybe… just maybe… manage to avoid it all together).

One thought on “It’s In Your Head

  1. You need some time outside. A little time with the earth and I think then you’d have a better reception to meditation and relaxing and letting go of that anxiety. You need to ground yourself first, hm?

    It’s going to be okay, baby. Whatever this thing is that you feel coming at you, you’re going to handle it to the absolute best of your ability and everything is going to be okay. Just be careful, be safe and come home to me.

    I love you so much, beautiful boy
    It’s going to be okay, my love

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