Roots and Gratitude

Today’s meditation was skipped.  I fell asleep and I haven’t tried again since.  I will give it a go again before bed so that if I fall asleep that time it will be okay and won’t be losing more time in my day.

Mesquite Tarot - Nine of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Nine of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of taking stock of one’s wealth and good fortune in the area of their finances, resources, successes, and manifestations. This is a card that deals with independence, well earned success, and gratitude for all that one has of value in their life.

Roots.  The roots are what stand out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card.   They make me think of actual trees, and the root systems beneath those of great height such as the sequoias and redwoods.  These trees are giants and they depend upon their roots to keep them upright and stable.  The roots beneath the ground spread wide, and tangle with other roots, gripping each other and expanding their surface area for even greater stability.

In height, root systems are not about depth.  It’s about spread.  The more spread you can make beneath the soil, the more stability you have above the soil, and when it comes to finances and stability at home?  It is much the same.

People bond and create those roots, their roots tangle and the spread grows.  The more you have in the bank, hidden under the mattress, or just there to help in filling your needs… the more stable and secure you feel.  This isn’t just about money, but it’s about people too.  Even when you stand strong and alone, you need those connections “under the soil” to give you that added support and stability.

I am lucky to have many stable individuals with whom my  own roots are tangled, creating a great deal of stability and support in my life.  The message, today in this card, is a reminder to be grateful for the fertile soil and the tangled roots that help support me along the way.


LionHart’s Mercury Retrograde Tarot Challenge Prompt
:  What guidance does this New Moon offer for my current situation?

True Heart Intuitive Tarot

 Reading Summary: Move forward (Eight of Cups) with your new ideas (Ace of Swords). Your intuition is right on track (High Priestess) and there’s stuff you need to learn (Princess of Wands).

Take Away:  This is about some paperwork and forms I need to figure out concerning the Canada side of my business. I was wavering on dealing with it today, as it felt like a lot of stress and a pain in the ass… but clearly now is the time. And honestly?  It was a pain in the ass, and I spent a great deal of my time today on the phone with people that were not particularly cooperative. I took the advice of the cards, and I got it done though.


#DiscordTarotolicsFeb2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
:  Why do I fear failure when I know I can learn from my mistakes?

Mesquite TarotReading Summary: I worry that by wandering around like a fool without a clue as to what I’m doing (The Fool atop Novice), I will be judged harshly by myself or others (Judgement Rx), and end up making a habit out of being the fool in a not good way (The Devil Rx).

Take Away: There’s a lot of things that don’t bother me and in most cases that includes public perception.  But there are always going to be instances where it matters to me, and as harsh as I am on myself, it would matter to me a lot if I was perceived publicly as some kind of bumbling idiot.  Giving that kind of impression once would be bad enough… but to have it become a habit and a reputation would be… extremely difficult to handle. 

In most areas of my life, I rarely fear failing at something, as I use those experiences to try again and do it better the next time.  For this reason, when I do end up being influenced by a fear of failure, it is usually this concern of somehow earning a reputation of a bumbling idiot that most often causes that fear to rise.


Daily Self Kindness

I made myself a serious pain in the ass to both the CRA (like the IRS, but for Canada) in order to make sure I got all of the information that I needed, no matter how many times the guy on the line tried to brush me off or suggested trying to transfer me to some other department.  I’m not sure if he just didn’t like talking to me because I have to speak through a text-to-speech app or if it was because my requests for information were a bit more detailed and labor extensive than he’s used to… but I didn’t give up until I got everything I needed. This gave me a little fissure of pleasure and sense of accomplishment once it was all done.

Weekly Creativity Prompt – What You Feel

Prompt: Draw a single random card from your favorite deck and share with us how the card makes you feel.

Tarot of the Hidden Realm - Page of SwordsOkay so my first feeling is the need to cover up her nipple.  I mean, I’m just sayin’, and I know it’s totally my upbringing but it just… yeah.   So anyway.  That aside

What I see in this card is focus.  That keen focus that comes with a depth of concentration and investment to here everything else falls to the wayside and all that there is is this one single thing.

Some people call this type of focus “being in the zone” and others call it “flow”.  In fact I’m pretty sure that there’s a book specifically about “Flow” and how to harness it for your needs and purposes.  I think that some people find this mental space easily… and others have either never experienced it or do not find it easy to sink into that space at all.

I personally find this mental space often and I think that there are times when I find myself “missing time” that in fact what has happened is I have slipped into this “flow” of concentration and just forget to re-emerge for a time.  The rest of the world and my actions within it go on autopilot while I am focused so deeply on a concept or idea that I don’t even notice… because for me in that time, nothing else exists.

What this card makes me feel is familiarity.  An awareness of those times I have slid into that mind space, and a familiarity with it through observation of the figure in the card also lingering within “the zone” as I so often do when working on something I have a good deal of interest and investment in.