Accepting Guidance

Today’s meditation was skipped because I was lazy and slept in late, then relaxed in bed fucking around on my phone instead of getting my ass in gear.

True Heart Intuitive Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Queen of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition.  Among other things, this often translates into themes to do with emotional support and advice from a trusted party that is easy to talk to.

What stood out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card is how the Queen holds her cup.  She holds it up like a torch, as if with her steps forward away from the comfort of her throne, that cup might light her way forward.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card drawn today, the message of today’s draw is that sometimes we all need a little extra guidance on our path.  This doesn’t make us less capable or even lacking, it means that we all have more to learn and will do so to get where we need and want to be in life.


The Radical Love Tarot Challenge Prompt
:  Expansion
Question: How can I (in a healthy way) expand my awareness to be more in touch with others?

Kei Love Tarot

Reading Summary:  Use that skill you’ve honed all your life (Eight of Pentacles) to see things from different perspectives and angles (Hanged Man) and use it to find a more balanced approach (Two of Pentacles) that is less anxiety inducing (Nine of Swords Rx).

Take Away:  You know, I’ve never actually thought about this much before, but there is a fissure of anxiety involved for me when I am interacting with others. This goes beyond “likeability” and and instead deals with a feeling of… unpredictability.  I find people unpredictable. And I struggle with that… a lot.  I struggle with the fact I always feel no matter what I do, people are going to surprise me.  These cards are reminding me that those surprises are not always a bad thing, and I need to look at them as a way to learn more and see things differently so that I can balance out that anxiety with potential value.


#DiscordTarotolicsFeb2021 Challenge Prompt
:  How can I best approach setting healthier boundaries in my life?

True Heart Intuitive TarotReading Summary:  Allow more of a collaborative effort (Three of Pentacles) instead of trying to do everything myself (Nine of Pentacles). Your determination to go solo (Nine of Pentacles) is blinding you (Eight of Swords) to the potential of what is possible (Queen of Wands).

Take Away: This is about delegation, and about more evenly distributing my work load with others so that things are more equal and balanced between us.

These boundaries aren’t about others, but about myself and making sure that I’m not overworking myself. It’s about allowing things to spread evenly, and how by spreading the work load evenly, it opens up the potential for new possibilities.


Daily Self Kindness

Confession.  I am writing this the day after… and I don’t remember most of yesterday.  I know I spent time with Gideon in play and I really enjoyed the down time with him.  I know that I slept in.  It’s just… everything else that appears to be missing.

Morning Bonus Read – Difficulties and Safety

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
If you’re in the states/midwest you’re probably experiencing the lovely winter storm we’re having. If you aren’t, please join us in solidarity with our divination prompt for this week.”

Aves Uncaged Bicycle Playing CardsWhat external circumstances are making my life difficult this week?

Queen of Clubs –  My dedication and drive for the business that I run is being challenged. I have a good deal of experience to work with in this area, and yet I cannot seem to rise above the uncertainty that I’m feeling due to current external circumstances.

How should I stay safe?

Nine of Hearts – Do what feels right in my heart.  I did this earlier in the week with changing the day that I went up to the post office.  I’ve done it, as well, with taking some time off to care for myself as I recover from my depression. This gives me time to practice gratitude for the things in life that bring me contentment and joy rather than staying focused upon those areas that are creating an unhealthy amount of stress.

How should I keep my people safe?

Six of Spades – Give them the room that they need to set themselves to rights, just as I am taking the time I need to set myself to rights.  The ‘time off’ for the business applies to more than just me, and by allowing them to step away from it at the same time I do, it gives them time to decompress and let go of the stress that is riding them as well.

What should I focus on during this time?

Jack of Clubs – Instead of moving forward proactively toward my goals concerning the business, now is a time to step back and allow a bit of distance from that constant push to keep moving forward.  Enjoy the pause instead of pushing for more.  Allow this time to be a time of enjoyment and discovery rather than the slave driver mentality you so often demand of yourself.