Accepting Guidance

Today’s meditation was skipped because I was lazy and slept in late, then relaxed in bed fucking around on my phone instead of getting my ass in gear.

True Heart Intuitive Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Queen of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition.  Among other things, this often translates into themes to do with emotional support and advice from a trusted party that is easy to talk to.

What stood out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card is how the Queen holds her cup.  She holds it up like a torch, as if with her steps forward away from the comfort of her throne, that cup might light her way forward.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card drawn today, the message of today’s draw is that sometimes we all need a little extra guidance on our path.  This doesn’t make us less capable or even lacking, it means that we all have more to learn and will do so to get where we need and want to be in life.


The Radical Love Tarot Challenge Prompt
:  Expansion
Question: How can I (in a healthy way) expand my awareness to be more in touch with others?

Kei Love Tarot

Reading Summary:  Use that skill you’ve honed all your life (Eight of Pentacles) to see things from different perspectives and angles (Hanged Man) and use it to find a more balanced approach (Two of Pentacles) that is less anxiety inducing (Nine of Swords Rx).

Take Away:  You know, I’ve never actually thought about this much before, but there is a fissure of anxiety involved for me when I am interacting with others. This goes beyond “likeability” and and instead deals with a feeling of… unpredictability.  I find people unpredictable. And I struggle with that… a lot.  I struggle with the fact I always feel no matter what I do, people are going to surprise me.  These cards are reminding me that those surprises are not always a bad thing, and I need to look at them as a way to learn more and see things differently so that I can balance out that anxiety with potential value.


#DiscordTarotolicsFeb2021 Challenge Prompt
:  How can I best approach setting healthier boundaries in my life?

True Heart Intuitive TarotReading Summary:  Allow more of a collaborative effort (Three of Pentacles) instead of trying to do everything myself (Nine of Pentacles). Your determination to go solo (Nine of Pentacles) is blinding you (Eight of Swords) to the potential of what is possible (Queen of Wands).

Take Away: This is about delegation, and about more evenly distributing my work load with others so that things are more equal and balanced between us.

These boundaries aren’t about others, but about myself and making sure that I’m not overworking myself. It’s about allowing things to spread evenly, and how by spreading the work load evenly, it opens up the potential for new possibilities.


Daily Self Kindness

Confession.  I am writing this the day after… and I don’t remember most of yesterday.  I know I spent time with Gideon in play and I really enjoyed the down time with him.  I know that I slept in.  It’s just… everything else that appears to be missing.

One thought on “Accepting Guidance

  1. You are doing fantastic, man. You’re learning to be kinder to yourself, you’re working your way out of a depression, you’re learning to allow others to help you and that you do have limitations and that it is OKAY to have those limitations. It is not an easy lesson, especially in being kind and compassionate with yourself, but you are working hard and making progress and I am so proud of you.

    I think it’s okay that you are a little scattered in remembering the day. You’re dealing with a depression and that alone makes losing time easy to do. But you are doing much better than I expected in all this. You’ve got this baby. Just keep reaching, keep climbing.

    And give yourself the credit you are due.

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