Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long, and was a guided meditation from the Calm app with added interval timer for my piriformis stretches (which I did actually do today).
The focus of today’s meditation was about resistance to change and how when we stop fighting against the inevitable, it is no longer a battle at all but rather things begin to go more smoothly as a result. This is something I’ve been thinking a lot about recently. Mostly about how everyone says that they hate change (myself included) and yet change happens around us every day all the time and we don’t even notice it. We just adapt and keep on keeping on, yeah? It’s only when the change is something we object to that we struggle with it. So what would happen if we stopped fighting these changes that we don’t want to happen or dread, and just let them flow over us as we do all the other changes we experience from day to day. Would we adapt more easily? Perhaps we would find the adjustment not quite as horrible as we might have imagined.
Today’s draw is the Reason 7 card (Seven of Swords), which is traditionally a representation of cunning, stealth, and even betrayal. It can also often be about strategy, and making sure that you only take with you (or take on) only that which you are able to handle.
What stands out to me in the imagery of this card today is the slump of shoulders as the forefront figure looks back at the one in the distance. There is a sense of defeat in that slump of shoulders and angle of the head. A sense of surrender that isn’t about having lost a battle but is instead about carrying an unwelcome weight.
When combined with today’s Thera-Pets card, what I see is an encouragement to not give in. To keep climbing, keep striving… keep reaching for the light. When the temptation to yield to the darkness comes, it is time to remember that there is light ahead. I only need to keep climbing, and I will eventually get there.
DECK USED: EXISTENTIAL TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What makes me emotionally vulnerable?
Reading Summary: When I am feeling my way forward instead of walking with steady steps. When I am exploring a new aspect of my connection to the world around me. When I am confronted with and exploring the avenues of new emotional growth.
Take Away: This is all about growth and newness, especially in relationship to my emotional growth and how that influences my communication with others and how I see, relate, and connect with the world around me. The sense of uncertainty during these times leaves me feeling especially vulnerable.
DECK USED: SILHOUETTES TAROT
Each and every experience in life is a moment to pause and learn from. A moment to find new meaning, new perspective, and new purpose. I identify most strongly with the hanged man, because my life has been lesson after lesson, and it is within that pause to find sense and perspective where I find myself again and again. Learning, adapting, growing with each experience, no matter what those experiences might be.
Which one card do you feel represents your strengths?
Sisyphus / The Hierophant
I greatly enjoy teaching others, helping them in finding the path through life that is right for them. I love helping educate on those things I understand or have experience in, in the hopes that by doing so and sharing these things, that others will find something that they are inspired to explore as well, or that resonates with them and helps them to find a better path, a better way, or a new perspective that works better for them.
Which one card do you feel represents your limitations?
Reason 9 / Nine of Swords
My mental health. Out of all my limitations, it is my mental healthy that is, in my opinion, my greatest. It causes me to “check out” from the world and from my support system, whether I want to or not. It creates setbacks and backsliding of progress on my growth, creates problems with moving forward and accomplishing goals. It steals time from me… days and weeks, sometimes in the past whole months and more, that simply disappear… where no memory exists. I am familiar with my mental health limitations, and yet there is only so much I can do to mitigate the influence.
What kind of issues do you feel that you need to work on?
Action 2 / Two of Pentacles
Finding a healthy and workable balance between work and home, between responsibility and self-care. For so long I have abused myself, forcing myself into working more hours than most can even imagine and sleep less than most can handle. I’ve pushed for more from myself again and again, even when I was already doing so much. Now, after a lifetime of doing this, I find myself struggling to find just what a healthy balance looks like and that journey, along with the healing and building of new methods and habits, is taking time.
What message do you want to convey to everyone?
Metamorphosis / Strength
You are stronger than you think you are. The core of inner strength within you is so much stronger than you can imagine. A survivor filled with strength resides within you and will support you when you need it most. You will not break. Do not give up. Do not give in.
DECK USED: EXISTENTIAL TAROT
I spent the day in play with Gideon… and it was fucking glorious.