Roots and Gratitude

Today’s meditation was skipped.  I fell asleep and I haven’t tried again since.  I will give it a go again before bed so that if I fall asleep that time it will be okay and won’t be losing more time in my day.

Mesquite Tarot - Nine of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Nine of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of taking stock of one’s wealth and good fortune in the area of their finances, resources, successes, and manifestations. This is a card that deals with independence, well earned success, and gratitude for all that one has of value in their life.

Roots.  The roots are what stand out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card.   They make me think of actual trees, and the root systems beneath those of great height such as the sequoias and redwoods.  These trees are giants and they depend upon their roots to keep them upright and stable.  The roots beneath the ground spread wide, and tangle with other roots, gripping each other and expanding their surface area for even greater stability.

In height, root systems are not about depth.  It’s about spread.  The more spread you can make beneath the soil, the more stability you have above the soil, and when it comes to finances and stability at home?  It is much the same.

People bond and create those roots, their roots tangle and the spread grows.  The more you have in the bank, hidden under the mattress, or just there to help in filling your needs… the more stable and secure you feel.  This isn’t just about money, but it’s about people too.  Even when you stand strong and alone, you need those connections “under the soil” to give you that added support and stability.

I am lucky to have many stable individuals with whom my  own roots are tangled, creating a great deal of stability and support in my life.  The message, today in this card, is a reminder to be grateful for the fertile soil and the tangled roots that help support me along the way.


LionHart’s Mercury Retrograde Tarot Challenge Prompt
:  What guidance does this New Moon offer for my current situation?

True Heart Intuitive Tarot

 Reading Summary: Move forward (Eight of Cups) with your new ideas (Ace of Swords). Your intuition is right on track (High Priestess) and there’s stuff you need to learn (Princess of Wands).

Take Away:  This is about some paperwork and forms I need to figure out concerning the Canada side of my business. I was wavering on dealing with it today, as it felt like a lot of stress and a pain in the ass… but clearly now is the time. And honestly?  It was a pain in the ass, and I spent a great deal of my time today on the phone with people that were not particularly cooperative. I took the advice of the cards, and I got it done though.


#DiscordTarotolicsFeb2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
:  Why do I fear failure when I know I can learn from my mistakes?

Mesquite TarotReading Summary: I worry that by wandering around like a fool without a clue as to what I’m doing (The Fool atop Novice), I will be judged harshly by myself or others (Judgement Rx), and end up making a habit out of being the fool in a not good way (The Devil Rx).

Take Away: There’s a lot of things that don’t bother me and in most cases that includes public perception.  But there are always going to be instances where it matters to me, and as harsh as I am on myself, it would matter to me a lot if I was perceived publicly as some kind of bumbling idiot.  Giving that kind of impression once would be bad enough… but to have it become a habit and a reputation would be… extremely difficult to handle. 

In most areas of my life, I rarely fear failing at something, as I use those experiences to try again and do it better the next time.  For this reason, when I do end up being influenced by a fear of failure, it is usually this concern of somehow earning a reputation of a bumbling idiot that most often causes that fear to rise.


Daily Self Kindness

I made myself a serious pain in the ass to both the CRA (like the IRS, but for Canada) in order to make sure I got all of the information that I needed, no matter how many times the guy on the line tried to brush me off or suggested trying to transfer me to some other department.  I’m not sure if he just didn’t like talking to me because I have to speak through a text-to-speech app or if it was because my requests for information were a bit more detailed and labor extensive than he’s used to… but I didn’t give up until I got everything I needed. This gave me a little fissure of pleasure and sense of accomplishment once it was all done.

One thought on “Roots and Gratitude

  1. *Grins* this is such a -you- message that it left me smiling. And I am honored to be a part of your roots and support system, my love.

    Good job on getting the paperwork done, my love. Paperwork is always a thankless task, but necessary unfortunately. But hey, now it’s done for a bit, at least.

    I just cannot see you being a “bumbling idiot” it is just not in your wheelhouse, man. You are too much the perfectionist for that. I love you baby

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