Because I am trying to show a bit more of my decks this month, as I have a whole LOT of October/Halloween/Samhain decks, I’m doing a few extra bonus reads over the month. This is one of those extra readings.
Card To Represent Something That Is Tricking Me
The Last Judgement and The Devil
These cards are a reminder that my values and self worth have absolutely nothing to do with my control (or the lack thereof) over my addictions. It’s like equating your self worth with the cleanliness of your home or the color of your shoes. They have nothing to do with each other, but sometimes we (as humans) get all these things mixed up in our head and emotions.
How I’m Being Fooled By This
Page of Cups
This tendency to equate one’s self worth with how we feel about a flaw or issue that we’re currently involved in is a sign of emotional immaturity. This isn’t a huge surprise, as I have spent a good portion of my life burying my emotions and muffling them behind thick walls. Now that I’m opening up to them more fully and willingly, little stumbling blocks like these are bound to crop up.
How Can I Gain a Clear Perspective and Stop Being Tricked?
Allow yourself to have some fun. You’re not hurting anyone, not even yourself. So there’s no harm in it. That in itself rouses a bit of guilt, although that has more to do with being raised that fun is a waste of time. I know this is not to be the case, and The Sun card here in this spread indicates I need to remember to embrace my fun rather than allowing the past to influence me into shying away from it.
Card To Represent a Treat In My Life
Queen of Cups
Being able to better connect with and understand people on an emotional level than I have in the past. I’ve noticed this a few times recently in speaking with others and how I relate to them. What I used to see as my empathy for others I have now come to realize was far more logic based thane emotion based.
A Way That I Can Fully Embrace This Treat
Knave of Wands
Continue to make the exploration of emotional growth a priority and pour my interest and attention into it. This might be difficult during the holiday rush that is quickly approaching. But, ten weeks from now, that chaotic time will come to an end, and I’ll be able to delve back into that exploration with both feet.
Something I Don’t Yet Understand About This Treat
Six of Coins
It’s going to change how I relate to others that are more fortunate than myself, and others that are fare less fortunate than myself. It’ll give me a new perspective on balance, and on my personal involvement with that balance. I’m not there yet, but just as I understand empathy more now than I did before, so too will this come into focus as tome goes on.