Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and another of the guided meditations with interval timer for my piriformis stretching.
The topic of today’s guided meditation was self discipline, which is something that I’m both extremely good at… and crap-ass bad at, depending on what it’s about. In this case, the topic was about self discipline involved in making sure that you stick with your self care, and that you do not tear yourself to shreds with guilt or consternation when you miss a day now and then.
I am very guilty of this. Not the guilt so much, but definitely the consternation and self flagellation that comes with me missing a day (or a few days) of my self care routine. As if I don’t pay for it already with the physical pain aspect of skipping out on those necessary stretches, right?
Interestingly, I do not see “justice” in the imagery for this card today. Rather, I see honor and the pursuit of justice. The pose of this woman knight is one of a tracker in pursuit. She peers to the left, which for me is a nod to the past and what has come to pass, yet her left foot faces forward in the present. She is grounded and sure of herself, and looks determined to mete out the justice that needs to be dealt.
The message in today’s card is that it is that in examining where you come from, you can find a clearer view of where you are and where you are going. Everything we do has a consequence or a reaction of some kind. This is how the world works. When you push upon a pendulum to make it swing, sooner or later the pendulum has to swing back the other way. It can be a good idea to take a moment now and then to take a look at the pendulums you’ve put in motion… and make sure when they swing back at you they don’t hit you in the head.
DECK USED: BOTAN TAROT
Reading Summary: Work on my communication skills (Page of Swords) and lean into an empathetic approach (Queen of Cups). It’s not a hopeless cause, so don’t give up (The Star).
Take Away: It’s really easy for me to get frustrated with my communication skills, as I feel like I do a lot of fumbling in that area and hurting people’s feelings (or otherwise fucking things up) as a result. The cards here indicate that to resolve this problem, I need to not give up hope, but instead continue to work on my intercommunication skills and… while doing so, lean into a more empathetic side of communicating with others.
DECK USED: TAROT BY ALEXANDER DANILOFF 2012
#DiscordTarotholicsSep2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Stop / Start / Continue
Stop – Two of Roots – How many rabbits can a fox hold at once? One. That’s how many. And like the fox? I have my limitations as well, and I need to make sure I’m honoring them. Stop trying to find wiggle room in my new balance to shove in more responsibilities. We’re not doing that anymore, remember?
Start – Two of Arrows – The wolf and the cougar are bound together, blind and both of them injured. Unable to see, does each one blame the other for their pain? It’s time to be honest with yourself. Take the blindfold off and pay attention to the things that cause you pain and create struggle in your life. You need to make peace with your inner slave driver.
Continue – Mother of Horns and King of Roots – The nurturing encouragement to connect with my emotions, allowing them to have a place at the table instead of being smothered beneath the lilypads has been combined with my natural grounding and stability that I am so very focused on all the time. I’ve been spending the summer melding this new level of emotional awareness and growth with my strong need for a grounded life… and will continue to work on that.
DECK USED: BRADY TAROT 2ND EDITION
Question: How can I best continue to build on the foundation, lessons, or teachings that make me who I am today? And how can I act on this information?
How to continue to build on my lessons learned?
Eight of Cups and Knight of Wands
The lesson learned here is when to “cut and run”, just as the octopus in the Eight of Cups dumps its ink and heads out for new and better waters. To continue building on this lesson, I need to focus upon those things that spark my interest and go after them.
How can I best act on this information?
Just do it. Leap into the fray and allow yourself to pursue these things instead of holding myself back. You have all of the willpower and determination needed to make anything you are truly interested in a success. Hesitation is not your friend.
Just take the leap and move your ass already.
DECK USED: WILDERWOVEN TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I best take action for myself at this time?
Reading Summary: Blinding yourself (Eight of Swords) to the damage you’re doing with your addictions (The Devil) is childish (Six of Cups). Make the moves needed to support your aspirations (Three of Wands).
Take Away: The addictions I’ve been indulging in over the past few months are unhealthy eating, not getting enough the exercise I need, and my deck spending. The cards here are telling me to stop wasting time and resources with these things, and instead pour the attention and resources into focusing on the future. With the holiday rush approaching, this is really good advice. If I’m not taking care of myself (and my finances), how can I expect to run my business (and my life during the holiday rush) as needed?