Youthful Exuberance

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and I dozed off somewhere at the end of it, although I don’t think for very long. I was just feeling super relaxed and my allergies made my eyes feel good when closed… that combination sort of snuck up on me a bit with the nap.

Herbcrafter's TarotToday’s draw is the Hija of Fire (Page of Wands) card, which is traditionally interpreted as a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s drive, passions, interests, and inner spark.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the stuffed tiger up in the corner, and the amber sphere. The tiger speaks to me of youthful innocence and comfort. Even now in my 30’s I still can hug a stuffed animal up to my chest under my chin and find comfort in the soft fuzziness and squish in my arms.

Amber, on the other hand, is a healing stone. Not in that it heals, but in that it draws out negative energy, which then stimulates the body, mind, spirit into healing itself. Combined with the stuffed tiger, it reinforces that sense of innocence. The energy of the amber pulling out the negativity in the scene, sponging away pessimism, to leave behind youthful exuberance and innocent creativity.

The message in today’s card is a reminder to enjoy yourself. Exploration and creativity should be a fun process, not a chore. Do the things that interest you and let them carry you away into that place of positive energy and eager excitement.


#TarotForGrowthJuly Challenge Prompt
I’m struggling with self-worth.
: How can I reframe self-worth as something I possess intrinsically, rather than something I need to earn?

Wild Unknown Tarot

Reading Summary: Make a choice (The Lovers) to move away from uncertainty and self doubt (The Moon Rx) and accept that your sense of fulfillment comes from within (Ten of Pentacles).

The imagery for the Ten of Pentacles in this deck looks like a tree’s rings to me. The pentacles are clustered at the center, speaking of the value being within the core of the trunk from the beginning and remaining as a part of the inner make up rather than from anything external. The motion of the geese in the Lovers card reinforces the “moving away from” aspect of the reversed Moon.

Take Away: What keeps me from framing self worth as something intrinsic within me is my self doubt. If I can make the choices that move me away from that self doubt, I will find it easier and easier to see the worth of those “inner rings of growth” within me and their weight and strength will more easily shine brighter within my eyes.


#DiscordTarotholicsJul2020 Challenge Prompt
Do Spread #2
Should I make this few days off break a monthly thing (other than during the holiday rush)?

Star Seeker's TarotReading Summary: Times of stillness create new perspective (The Hanged One) which create a sense of clarity to assist me in the choices I make (The Lovers). Opening up the door to a whole new world (The World).

The color coordination between the water in the first and the sky in the second connects these two cards into a flow of energy, connecting the perspective gained in the first card into the clarity of the sky in the second. The third card is completely different in color scheme and appearance, reinforcing the “whole new world” aspect.

Take Away: Yes. Do it. It will help you view your work and your life through a different lens, and in turn give you a more positive outlook both concerning your work, as well as concerning your free time. As you are stepping forward in trying to restructure your organization of your responsibilities and into your emotional growth, this change could assist in fostering both of these things.


#OwlandBonesJuly Challenge by Owl and Bones Tarot
Mercury goes direct: release // return // retry

Psychopomp Tarot

ReleaseTen of Wands – It’s time to release the last remnants of that sense of betrayal that came with the arrival of “the letter” last fall/winter. The dregs of that pain has continued to be a block to my creative flow.

ReturnThe Magician – In releasing the pain mentioned above, I can then return to the confident creative man I’ve always been without the restraint of fear and pain holding me back. My skills and abilities can then shine bright and I will be able to apply them to my endeavors freely and without restraint.

RetryThe Sun – Finding joy in my work. This is something that has been a progression since the mess that “the letter” created. In stages I have tried and stalled out, then tried again. I will continue to work at instilling more joy into my work and appreciating my craftsmanship as well as the pleasure I take in sending my work out into the world to bring joy to others as well. I will continue to try and try again.



One thought on “Youthful Exuberance

  1. I actually read this..last night? The night before? How the hell did I get so far behind? But anyway, I read this while falling asleep and I had a bunch of comments to add and now I’m going to have to try and recall them. Though most especially my attention was focused on the “should I do this taking a few days off thing on a monthly basis” and the cards reasoning why it would be good for you.

    I think it would be a fantastic idea. Not just because I would get more time with you either. *Chuckles* But because you often get burned out, stressed out and overwhelmed alot during the slower months(and the busy ones too but during that time you’re usually go go go and it’s understandable that it happens when you’re burning the candle at both ends) But I think that a few days a month off, that little respite would both help in recharging you, allowing you to relax and find that joy a little more. And I think it might be a creative first step in the restructuring and lightening your load process.

    I also think that you should consider maybe only going up north to the post office once a week(once the pandemic is over) instead of twice. You can drop things off closer to home and not have to make that horrible drive. Also, consider dropping things off on the days you do go up there, so you don’t have to do the hours of extra paperwork just to take everything across the border with you and then bring it back. Maybe get Z to alternate trips with you so you’re not having to run so much.

    And I love that you still find comfort in a stuffed animal, more specifcally, in Pluto. I love that you still sleep with him every night and he goes everywhere with you. A little piece of me to hold you while you sleep.

    Also, I don’t really notice like colors in the cards usually, or how they fit together, but in this last spread…the paintbrushes and reds in the first that are repeated in the second and flow to reds and yellows again in the third. I can see the flow of this letting go of the burden of fear and using what you’ve learned from it to then start anew and make it shine. I’m -learning- It’s such a thrill when those moments happen

    I love you, man. Always

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