Today’s meditation was skipped again today. I need to figure out a way to get my ass back into the habit again instead of just thinking about it in the evenings as a “damn, I didn’t do it again”.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Coins, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, hearth, manifestations, and the physical world. The energy of this card is down to earth, and that of a nurturer.
Combined with the affirmation card for today, what I see here is a call for me to get out into nature, to take in that healing balm that being among the moss and trees and rich damp earth provides me with.
Today is, unfortunately, not a day I’m going to be able to fulfill this need. I can’t go out into nature, but the seed is planted and I will be going in the next couple of days. I know that I need it.
DECK USED: GOTHIC TAROT OF VAMPIRES AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK
The Empress – Those spirits that have come to visit and walk with you this year while the veil is thin are those spirit guides and ancestors that only want what is best for you. No hidden agendas, just nurturing and strength.
How are these spirits assisting in keeping me safe?
Two of Pentacles – They are helping you in finding balance in your life. When there is no balance, things start to careen out of control and feel too heavy. You become overwhelmed and struggle unnecessarily. Their guidance helps you keep things in balance at times when you need that extra assistance.
What should I offer to these spirits that are watching over me?
Knight of Wands – More eagerness to connect, and more focus on following through on the advice that they give. Too many times they have to beat you over the head with their advice, repeating it over and over again.
What cycle from the past do my Ancestors hope that I will break?
Six of Cups – Allowing the echoes of your past to dictate your present is a cycle that your Ancestors hope you will break. You aren’t the first in your lineage to struggle with this issue. Due to the fact that you have no offspring, and that neither you or your sister can produce any, this is not something that’s going to carry on into the next generation, but it is something they want you to overcome.
What do I know deep within my bones.
Ten of Swords – Everything is temporary. All things come to an end. Nothing last forever, and sometimes that end is painful, but can also filled with a bittersweet pleasure of relief.
What do the Spirits and Ancestors need for me to learn?
Five of Coins – Your spirits and ancestors need for you to learn how to overcome the scarcity issues that influence and control so much of your life. This fear rules over too much.
A message for me from the Spirits and Ancestors.
Queen of Cups – Do what you need to do to make sure that you’re taking the time to be kind to yourself and stay grounded. Do the things you need to do to nurture yourself, even when things feel otherwise out of control. These actions help you to stay in control of what is before you, creating a sense of stability within the surrounding chaos.
Side Note: Over the past week I’ve been struggling really hard, dealing with a huge amount of upset in my mental health. I understand that a portion of this is because of the approach of the holiday rush, but after having a similar experience last year, I wonder if a part of this is also because over the past two years I have been working on opening myself up to my mediumship abilities, and that the thinning of the veil when it approaches its thinnest point is causing an enhanced amount of restlessness and disruption as a result. I’m writing this side note on November 2nd, and I’m noting that as the veil now begins to thicken once more, I’m starting to feel better. The timing is the same as last year.
DECK USED: CRUEL THING TAROT
PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 30th and 31st
If you push too hard with your ambition, it’s snuffs out the light, creeping into degrade your hope, and close off your connection to the world around you.
What is the waning crescent moon’s wisdom for me today?
Nine of Coins atop The Sun, Pour It Out
In order for there to be room for the good stuff, you have to let go of the bad stuff. Just as when you stir good intentions into your tea, you first have to stare out negativity to make a room, or when your body releases waste and uses that process to expel toxins from the body so that you can then fill it up with more healthy fuel again. Make room for more good in your life.
DECK USED: SHADOWMYTHS PRESERVATION STORY DECK AND GOTHIC TAROT OF VAMPIRES
I’m trying my best not to beat myself up after having an unexpected nap earlier when what I really need is some Gideon time.