To-and-Fro… Balance to Come

Today’s meditation was sort of skipped?  I did some breathing exercises in the car as a passenger, but I didn’t do a full fledged meditation.

Skeleternity Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Two of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of the duality of balancing health and home with one’s ambitions and work responsibilities, struggling with multiple priorities, time management, and the ability to adapt as needed to juggle one’s commitments.

I have been working at creating a more healthy balance between my personal care and my work life over the past couple of years. It’s been slow going, and I still struggle with it.  It seems the closer I get to a healthy balance, the more I struggle not to fall in the other direction now… that is to say, I no longer feel the same motivation to work that I once did.

And yet, I still find ways to neglect myself and self sabotage.

Today’s cards are a reminder that self care and finding that balance is not a waste of time. It’s needed.  And things -will- balance out eventually. Imbalance can never last forever, so… even though I’ve swung perhaps a bit too far in the opposite side of the coin?  Sooner or later I’ll find that balance that allows for both enthusiasm and motivation… as well as self care and recuperation.


#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 21st and 22nd

Bird ov Prey Oracle and Flux Arcana TarotWhat echos from the past are trying to resurface for me right now?
Indestructible/Enlightenment and Page of Pentacles

This is a reminder of the importance of my meds and the gratitude of finding meds that work.

Once, a long time ago, I was put on a med called Paxil, which turned me into a danger to myself and others. I truly felt indestructible and did a lot of risk-taking behavior. Only once I stopped taking this medication did I come to discover the mess I’d made, and the potential for it to have been much, much worse.

This was a learning experience for me about respect for my body, the things I put into it, and how I might react to those things. I’ve since found a medication that works well for me, but that lesson sticks with me all the same.

How can I safely explore echos from the past that are trying to get my attention?
Miss You Already and Judgement

Take the lessons learned and carry them forward so that you do not repeat them.


PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 21st thru 23rd

D'oracle du Clothilde and Skeleternity TarotWhere in my life do I need to ghost out?

Travail and King of Cups – Gid is on vacation, which allows you more time to do holiday prep. Don’t waste this time.

What area of my life am I at a crossroads?

Surprise and Ten of Pentacles – You are feeling out of sorts financially at the moment. Take a deep breath and a beat to let that jolt of “well fuck” ease off, and reflect on what is most important.

Who is the werewolf in my life?

Passion and Ten of Cups – The werewolf in my life (otherwise known as the catalyst for change) is Gideon. He has helped make me into the man that I am today, and I will continue to grow and change through his influence.


Daily Self Kindness

Still playing catch up, but I know for a fact that I took a nap after I got home from doing my errands.