Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.
Ace of Wands and Caution – You are in a moment of limbo and it is holding you up in all areas of your life. There is burning awareness of the potential of what is to come, but it isn’t time quite yet, and that has left you antsy and out of sorts.
The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.
Two of Wands and Entrapment – Your time stuck in the planning phase of things is drawing to an end. There won’t be a chance for standing still for all that much longer. You should enjoy it while you can.
What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.
King of Hearts (Pentacles) and Finale – At this time your eye is focused on one prize and one prize only. That prize is financial abundance earned by the end of the holiday rush, which then creates stability for the year ahead and a sense of security that you constantly crave.
Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.
Five of Cups and Guilt – A good deal of your recent malaise is being sourced by your guilt. You need to examine what these feelings of guilt are about, and work on releasing them, as they are only dragging you down and are not a useful tool.
The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.
Two of Swords and Liberation – Stop waffling! Step away from the things that are allowing you continue to hesitate and dither. (Hello, games on your phone.) This avoidance of decisive thought and action is the root of your lack of true rest. Retreating into these pursuits is not rest at all.
The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.
Judgement and Indecision – You need to stop beating yourself up for the opportunities missed and things left undone. This doesn’t equate with inaction, but rather with course correction. Do these corrections kindly instead of with derision.
Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.
King of Swords and Confusion – Its okay to look back on how you dealt with things in the past, prior to the efforts to open up emotionally, and allow the crisp and concise purpose you had at those times inspire you.
A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.
Five of Swords and Truth – Keep an eye out for liars trying to get ahead by dishonest means. Winning at any cost really does mean “at any cost”, and you don’t want to become collateral damage or a part of the fallout.
Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.
Knight of Cups and Illusion – Emotional clarity is coming. You will have an opportunity to better ingrain the emotional growth you’ve acquired and your practical mind in new ways in the days ahead.
Message from the Spirit World – There is emotional warfare going on that needs to be addressed. Do not allow other’s determination to win end up creating false narratives for you and end up stabbing you in the back. Do not allow their awareness of what you want in life to be turned into something that they can use to manipulate you. Pay attention and make choices aligned with your moral compass while taking what others say with a grain of salt right now.
Message from the Mind’s World – Ground yourself in order to weather the storm that is coming. You have the ability to achieve the goals you have plotted and planned for, but you have to free yourself from the negativity first, and find steady footing.
Message from the Physical World – All of the inactivity and dithering you have been doing needs to be taken in hand. Slice through these issues with your practical nature and allow what you want to happen and what you want to become to be a beacon to draw you forward through the fog.
Take Away – This reading is primarily guidance in finding the source of the struggle I’ve been going through the past week or so, and finding a more secure and comfortable place within myself to start off the holiday rush with. Finding positivity and stability are important right now.