The Authentic Self

Today’s meditation was skipped again.  Instead I spent the time (and about two hours extra beside that) on the phone with my bank sorting through fraudulent charges on my credit card.

Valentina Tarot and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Queen of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, enthusiasm, interests, determination, willpower, and inner spark.This often translates into themes that have to do with nurturing and encouraging the dreams, passions, and interests of others.

Combined with the affirmation card today, what we see here is just that.  It is about doing what is in your heart, expressing yourself, and allowing your true colors to shine free.

In nature, this is often displayed clearly in the colors displayed on the outside.  With people?  We have to work a little harder to show our true colors sometimes, especially if we’re used to being defensive or hiding from others.


Mr Lionharts’ #TheNovemberTarot Solitary Tarot Challenge Prompt
Questions for November 5th

The Priestess of Light Oracle and Dancing in the Dark TarotWhat is a personal dream I should honor or work on?
Calming the Waters and Four of Swords

The dream of allowing yourself to have the calm, restful recuperation that you need. Even in times of actual physical injury, you rush recovery instead of allowing yourself the time that you truly need.  This kindness and space to heal fully and completely is something you continue to push aside again and again, even though you long for it often. Only you can give yourself permission to take that time.

What can I establish with manifesting this dream into reality?
Divine Mother and Four of Pentacles

A kinder and more nurturing life. More stability and more strength bred from that stable footing created by being the calm in the storm as well as hale and healthy.


#DiscordTarotholicsNov2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for November 5th and 6th

Valentina TarotWish for the Future
Queen of Pentacles – Nurturing stability.

This is an echo of the Mr Lionharts reading that I did for today (previous reading).  It’s what I want.  I want stability, but I want to be kinder to myself.  I want to allow myself the things I need to rest, recover, and find my footing.  I want to feel cared for instead of neglected, but the only one neglecting me?  Is me.

Next Step in Getting There
Six of Cups – Letting go of the past.

A lot of the beliefs, drive, and tendencies to treat myself cruelly are rooted in the past. Finding ways to leave the past where it belongs and seeking out new ways to see myself and my performance in work and in life is the next step in “getting there”.  It’s something I’m working on, but I understand it’s going to take some time.

The Home of My Hope
Five of Wands – Those things  you hold dear and believe in.

This imagery reflects upon my belief in the need for fairness in the world. The need for people to fight for fairness. Yes, I know life isn’t fair, but I feel it could be much, much MORE so if people would only stand up for that concept instead of doing whatever they want or people please things into imbalance. No matter how many times I see fairness disregarded or abandoned, I continually seek it out, expect it, and hope for it to emerge in all sorts of everyday situations.

Advice from my guides that I need to hear at this time concerning my friendships.
The Heirophant – Lead and give guidance.

Your friends look up to you and through watching you, you give guidance on how to do things, and how to be better themselves. It’s okay that you don’t see it… just know that it’s true.


Daily Self Kindness

I took an ibuprofen and a nap.  I hate that taking naps cuts into time I could be spending with Gideon.  I wish there was more time in a day. A couple extra hours would be perfect.