Today’s meditation was skipped in deference for sleep, yet again. And yet? I still also ended up having a nap as well.
I often feel like I’m not getting anything done, even when I have productive days. It’s like, no matter what I manage to do, it’s never enough, and I feel like I should have gotten much more done with my time.
This feeling persists even during the time when I take days off, and especially at this time of year when preparations for the holiday rush are underway.
The thing is? I -am- getting things done. I really am. Just… not as much as I feel I should.
Today’s cards are a reminder that just because you aren’t moving forward at the pace you -think- that you should be moving at, doesn’t mean that you aren’t moving forward. It also doesn’t mean that you’re not doing a good job. Keep going and you’ll see… that slowness and feeling of not enough? It’s all in your head.
DECK USED: THE CURIO TAROT AND LESS ANXIETY AFFIRMATION CARDS
PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 3rd thru 6th
Obtaining the security and stability I crave (Roi des Carreaux), only to then be forced into a situation where I have to make the choice (Deux de Piques) to start over (L’étoile).
What am I hiding from today?
Responsibility. I have no desire to be in the public eye today (Six de Trèfles), regardless of the need to start rebuilding (La Maison Dieu) what will be needed in the months to come and to inspire others to do so with me (Strength).
Where do I need to stir things up today?
Today is a good day to take some control over (Le Chariot) addictive behaviors (Le Diable).
I have already done this quite a bit this morning by going through my KS pledges and backing out of quite a few of them that I’ve decided won’t suit. I will be taking another pass through later today.
What do I need to lay to rest?
Lie to rest the process of taking time (Le Pendu) thinking over each potentially new deck to add to my collection (As de Piques).
Don’t hem and haw too long on the deck decisions mentioned above. Any deck can be useful and I can read just about anything, but in this case it’s okay to be impulsive on the discard instead of pondering over just how I might use each one and what my clients might like it.
DECK USED: LE FANTASTIQUE TAROT HALLUCINÉ DU DOCTEUR ZARIEL
Ace of Wands – First and foremost, you have to want it.
The Tower – Then you have to kick it in the ass so that it’s forced to step up.
Ten of Swords – Then you have to accept that there’s no going back, and make your Altar Ego accepts it as well.
What can I learn from my Alter Ego?
The Magician atop Knight of Cups – That I have everything I need to accomplish whatever I desire.
What am I afraid my Alter Ego will reveal?
Justice – That I’m fucking up somehow, and might lose everything as a consequence. I’m not sure how this might be possible, but it’s definitely a worry. That whole potential for losing everything due to a misstep or screw up.
DECK USED: THE CURIO TAROT
I took a nap, even though I probably didn’t need it. I kind of still felt like I did tho. And it was a long one, so maybe that’s evidence that it was needed after all?